keep it a secret

she smiles
but i never know if its real
she laughs
but i can tell its fake
she doent want to live
she hates hurting people
she blaims herself
for your tears
she tries fixing herself
pushing the blade across her skin
but shes done nothing wrong
she treis to feel love and hate
but shes numb
shes choosen to let go so many times
shes been dissapointed
heartbroken and abused
after everything shes been through
shed rather pretend to be happy
for everyone elses sake
and suffer behind her mask
she doesnt want to scare you
to tempt you with her fate
she knows it will never go away
but she doesnt want to get help
it might get worse
its her secret
shes depressed
emo and suicidal
but i did the worst thing possible
i promised to keep it a secret too