I’m cold and numb sitting on the floor
As I hear you knock endlessly at my door
“Just get lost” I wanna yell at you
“Everything is a fallacy and no one is true”
But you don’t go away, just plead and persist
Your relentless calls make it hard to resist
I plug my ears trying to block your voice
But I can still hear you, I’ve got no choice
“I know you’re shattered” you whisper through a crack
“but don’t you worry, I’ll sew you back
I’ll glue you up and you’ll be good as before
I’ll patch everything, it wouldn’t hurt anymore”
My tears cease to fall as I listen to your speech
You vow better times and I’m within your reach
Your alluring invitations seem so seducing and sweet
After all, I want to feel better: whole and complete
I’ve had enough of this hurt, enough of this hate
I want to get out of this messed up state
You’re right out there speaking of a future
Where my scars will fade and my wounds will suture
With faith in my eyes I begin to unleash my cage
But a wave of sorrow hits back with rage
I stop dead, recapitulating the past
You promise to change, but the change wouldn’t last
It’s true you’ll mend me and will help me heal
No doubt you’ll fix me, but its no big deal
When you’ll get fed up, you’ll lash out again
And accuse me every time of driving you insane
Recall: you were the one to take the smile off my face
And give me the scars and frowns in its place
If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be bruised like this
My life would be smooth with nothing amiss
If you wouldn’t have wounded and ripped my heart
There’d be no question of repairing from the start
Your intentions are right but your methods are wrong
You wanted to be nice but have hurt me all along
What good does it do if I let you mend?
Because you’ll again criticize and again I’ll offend
A fresh surge of tears replace all my hopes
Caught in a whirl, I’m at a loss to cope
My rescuer and destroyer both is the same….
Now, whom do I trust and whom do I blame??
