I am tired of life.. but am i ready for death?

I am tired of these threatening lies
The ones that just tires me as time goes by
I'm tired of the rude comments behind
Of what real truth may i ever find?

I am tired of love, of life, of day
Or am I just leading myself astray
You may just think I'm happy, with love
But all of u just think you're so above

I am tired of lyeing, of cheating, of stealing
Of wanting but never really needing
I'm tired of trying to break my hard habits
Love, kindness and coldness, a burnt candle waiting to be lit

I am tired of staying behind these hidden walls
Where no one would tell if i were going to fall
I am tired Of life of choices we all make
As days go by, we realize its all a mistake

Where our happiness grows
where our sadness goes
I wish I'll finally be a person who knows
There really is a good in this world
maybe so good it would make my mind twirl

I am tired of seeing these cold familear faces
as their prescence make such deep traces
upon my soul where this tireness rises
I must be starting to give my good byes

And so I go on telling this poem
I say, my dear friends I am tired, as I must move on