just a tool

my mind has gone blank,
my understanding has been lost,
i cannot understand what is happening,
something is new that plays me for a fool,
i feel like such a tool,
hideing what i am,
letting them eat away at my soul,
using me for what they want,
takeing what they need,
emotions are gone,
something has gone wrong,
trying to stay strong,
my heart is dead,
cant feel what i used to be,
its been hiding inside of me,
loseing control,
fighting the feeling,
fighting the dark side of my mind,
yelling at myself to keep control,
wishing theyd stop doing this to me,
i just want to be me.