uhhh yeah more poetry

I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression,
my mom says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.
Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day
you know i dont know what to say so if i have something to say i will put it in ok? (you: ok sure why not i cant stop you.
I wish you were here
I wish you were close
and those are the times that I'm wishing the most.
I want you so bad to hold, and to touch
and that is because I love you so much.
And I want you to know whatever you do
I will always be here
and I will always love you.
yeah this is #10 congrats you made it to here
The first thing I think of
When I think of you,
Is your wonderful smile.
The second would be your adorable laugh.
I could go on and on,
But the list would never end.
When I think of the short time
That we've been together
And of all of the happy memories we've already shared
It amazes me to no end
And I know that we were meant to be together.
I look at you and see overflowing love, hope, and joy
As well as charm, strength, happiness and dignity.
With all of these wonderful qualities
It's no wonder I love you so.
yay 11 ^_^
Putting my feelings into words -
Impossible.
For my feelings for you are
Incomprehensible.
If I could let you see the effect you have on me,
You would be blinded.
For if you did the darkness would fade,
Shadows were no longer.
For I am in love,
More in love then I have been for a long time.
I love you is all I can say,
But my heart says more,
There is much more to my love,
Dreams, Hopes, Fantasies,
That all can become realities.
For with you I am a new me,
A me that shouldn't leave.
In these few words I hope you see,
How much you mean to me.
In Life, Love and Spirit,
I want you to hear it,
I Love You!
counting is fun lol
Stealing my heart was so easy for you
True love was the fantasy only you could make true
Love was transparent like a charcoal steam
You are the one cut out of my dream
You are the one who woke me from sleep
and stole my heart with those blue eyes so sweet
You opened the door with a love so dense
You care not for the cost or expense
You grasped me from darkness not a moment too soon
and displayed a love so pure and perfectly in tune
The light in your soul is impossible to avoid
Hate you banished, fear you destroyed
The day I met you, the loss of love was quenched
My soul, once so dry, was instantly drenched
Please, Kisa, you must never forget
All that was destined the day that we met
^ _x^ heh heh its kenshin
so what did ya think of it? did you like them? do you hate me for writing these? would you like me to die about now?
umm yeah , yeah i did like them, no i love you for these, no remember i love you so why would i want you to die.
WTF, no i fucking hated them you worthless piece of shit they sucked why dont you spend time doing something productive, i think the fact that i hate you is evident, yes you should die if you dont kill yourself for these then i will hunt you down and gut you like a fish then you can be a guttless little fish just like how i see you, you little prick just fucking die right now. if you dont bloiw your fucking brains out or slice your pittily ass throat then i will be more than obliged to help you with it. you little pansy ass bitch
DER DUR DIR, YEAH DUHHH, NO I LOVE ALL THE PEOPLE MAINLY THE LLAMAS, NO YOU CANT DIE OR ILL CRY *CRY CRY CRY* NO CRY FARM
Harsh words & violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped & twisted
So many tricks & so many lies
Too many whens & too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped & twisted
Sleeping awake & choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's unlisted
Lost in someone so warped & twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood I've bled
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
I'm still here, warped & twisted

to those that know me please tell me do you find me to be warped and twisted, well more twisted then warped because i have a name that is interesting to say the least.
No one hears me, understands me
I speak in silence
hoping that someone will see my words, my message
hoping to find love, it has arrived so divine
I wish for a stronger, better life
filled with everlasting touch
I dream the future, but hold the past
My body is brimmed with so many confusions
Am I really here experiencing fullness?
I must be, the pain is so real
the hurt I feel could never be imagined
but I will pull through into greatness
and destroy whatever faces into me
As I struggle I will fight until the end
Whenever it may come
the end may be sooner than some would prefer but what can i say right
I held the knife so close to my heart.
Like a foolish child I sat and I cried,
Didn't realize what I had done, what I had tried.
Tears mixed with blood, falling slowly to the ground.
Covered in blood, pulled myself up, in tears scribed:
"To those who don't care, to those who can't see,
Never Give up always thrive to be free."
Didn't know how many people would later cry.
"Tried to be free, yet I see this isn't the way."
Friend at the door, ran as fast as she could.
Too weak to say I'm sorry, otherwise I would.
In tears, looked at the blue sad day.
When you come and see this pool of blood and me,
This isn't the way my life was meant to be.
its sad that, that may come true one day
Begone ye screams of silence, harbingers of pain
Cloaked in isolation, you mock in harsh disdain
My soul is torn asunder, I curse you, God of Hell
As you pierced my tortured soul, what horrors I befell.
You spoke of quiet solitude, to tempt me to your lair
Then lanced me in my troubled heart, to depths of dark despair
Nemesis, I beg of thee, rise up in righteous ire
Protect me from Tisiphone, from Hell's eternal fire
With all my voice I scream to you, protect me from the night
Alas, in forlorn desperation, I journey to the light
Banished to mind's Coventry, I heed the demon's call
Beckoned by the silent screams, I enter Dante's hall.
i am probally going to hell anyway of there is such a place so why not a peom about it.
Was I bewitched so by the thin red line
To notice not that time released its hold
And let pale Iris snip the silver twine
To steal sweet youth before it turned to gold.
Existence now is not what I was told;
No seraphim and harps to grace my ear,
Just silence, painful silence, and the cold
Discomfort of my masochistic fear,
So icy cold, yet somehow seems to sear
My soul until the ache's too much to bare,
As mortal life mirages now appear:
Intangible are they; away they tear.
Mistake, it was; the curtain fell too soon
When razor's edge did charm me like the moon.
ahhh razors you know what nuf said
Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin
Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain
Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain
Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin
Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I
to those that dont know by now i very unfortunatly cut , geez i hate that term.
I must admit that I have often thought
of leaving it all behind and letting everything go
I was lost and alone, as I always am,
So many people around me,
Yet no one seems to care.
They say they understand and love me very much,
But just when I Trust to love, they forget and move on.
I held the knife so close
as tears, mixed with blood,
Began to fall slowly.
Like a foolish child I cried.
Knowing that I could end it all now
made my mind draw a blank.
I put the knife away and tried to wipe the blood,
that ran faster than I can describe.
I knew suicide wasn't the answer I was looking for.
I knew there was a reason for me being alone.
So many bad things happening at once -
They can make you forget
About the good qualities of life.
Even though life is hard,
and trouble an inevitable part of it.
If you decide to leave it all behind,
maybe you will,
but I can guarantee that others
....Your Mistake will haunt
this is the main reason why i tend to think of suicide as a way out because it really doesnt answer anything it just creats peace for many and sorrow for a couple
I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!
this is the start of the "love" peoms i still cant really see myself saying that often, well unless i talk with someone more often then i could grow into it but still.
WELL YEAH THIS IS THE MOST I HAVE EVER DONE YAY FOR ME!!!!!! so please rate high preferably but if you didnt like them then rate appropriatly, message if you have the time, and want to. no purchase required lol well i will let you get on with whatevr it is that you were doing or going to do.