Waste by Terrell Valentino

I can't express enough of how I fed up I am with this life of mine
Persistent arguments between my mother and I
Wishing something good would come and stay in my life
I'm sick of betrayal and being despised
I feel deprived of the good life
I wanna wake up one day and to my surprise, everything's alright
But it's not like that and never was
It was all an illusion that deceives us
I'm so completely drained of energy, due to all the trouble
Nothing motivates me, it's as if I'm dying though I'm alive as ever
The people around me however, is becoming better
Someone as hateful as me, struggling with my speech
And now my friends are out of reach when I'm need
What other options to I have to choose?
I'm on the verge of giving up before I even lose
I have so much to prove
But I can't seem to do it right
Turn this life around and rise successfully from the ground
Finishing it all off wearing a golden crown
True words, I just wanna be happy
And to live my life with pride, have a girl who truly loves me
Make my grandmother proud of me
But you see, all these hopes and dreams are just plain empty
My life and fate all leads to a pathetic waste