Kiss Me Once in the Snow, I Swear it Never gets old -Mikey Way- 12

A week passed. Mikey and I were awkward to say the least. Both of us wanting more from each other, but knew it wasnt the right time.
Bob was obessed with my son, as well as Gerard they wouldnt leave him alone, every other night DJ switches Between Gerard and bob to sleep with unless I take him and no one objects.
Jenny and I caught up with each other. Basically you could say I have my friends back and I like it this way, but theres still something I dont have...Mikey.
I sat in the back lounge when everyone was at one of the shows. I stayed back with DJ since he was sleeping.
After a while I heard the door open up front then Mikey came in and smiled. I smiled back at him as he sat next to me.
"How was the show?" I asked quietly.
He nodded, "Good"
I just watched him, he was back to his same shy self. He was back to the man I fell in love with. He looked down and sighed, "Whitty? I need to tell you something, Im not looking for sympathy or anything of that nature, I just want to give you a reason" He said softly.
I nodded knowing what reason he was talking about, the reason why he broke everything off between us.
He put his head back down and sighed once more, "The night before I broke it off, I was drinking, and I-I slept with another woman, after we were done and she left I sat on the bed thinking about you, it was then I figured out you would probably be better off without an alcoholic fiance, that you would find someone better than me, no matter how bad it hurt I was going to break it off with you, for both of us, so we wouldnt get hurt anymore.I Felt as if, I didnt have you I wouldnt have the guilt in the pit of my stomach everytime I drank, but after we broke up the guilt just kept getting worse along with my drinking, I was a wreck up until my grandmother passed, When I got the news she had gone, I was hungover and couldnt get out of bed if it were to save my own life. I laid there that afternoon crying all day, it was then it really hit me that Im a wreck without you, I needed you so bad that day, just to hold me, to talk me through the pain, and the guilt, but I didnt have you so it was that day I made a promise to you, my grandmother and myself that I would stop drinking, Whitty breaking up with you was the biggest mistake of my life, yet it helped me sort of, it made me see that I had a good thing, and I ruined it and I swore I would never ever do something like that again, then last week when you grabbed me and I saw your husband hit you, I felt angry with myself, If I didnt let you go, you wouldnt have felt that pain, never. The look in your eyes hurt me I have never seen you so scared. then when you ran off I didnt want to lose you again so I followed you and I saw you bleeding, that guilt came back to me...Whitty I guess im trying to say is sorry for everything, I should've let you help me through things, and maybe just maybe we would be married and dj would be our son"
I looked at him. His head was hung low, I knew he meant everything he said. "Mikey, I forgive you, I just wish you would've gotten ahold of me sooner"
He nodded, "me too"
We went quiet for a minute before he talked again, "would it sound corny, if I told you that I dream of that day at your grandparents house when we laid in bed all day just talking, and you told me that my touch was enough to keep you happy and all that you needed from me sometimes"
I shook my head, "No its not corny, I still dream of your touch"
He nodded and held out his hand but didnt say anything.
I slowly took it and he laced his long fingers with mine. He looked at our hands and I saw him smiled softly then the door opened and he quickly dropped my hand. I looked up to see Ray standing there, "Oh sorry I didnt know you two were in here" Ray said knowing he probably just stopped us from kissing and getting back together.
Mikey cleared his throat, "I was just leaving, Im going to go get some food before we leave" He said as he left the room.
I watched him walk away as my hand started to feel cold and empty again.
ray looked at me, "Im sorry, I didnt know, he was about to ask you something huh?"
I shrugged, "I dont know" I said as I stood up and walked out of the back lounge into the front where bob and Gerard were on the floor playing with DJ. I smiled as I sat on the couch and watched them with my son.
The night slowly went by and soon I was the only one up. I was watching the sci-fi channel in the back when I heard someone sigh loudly like they wanted something. I stood up and followed the sound.
It took me to mikey's bunk. I peeked in and he was laying on his stomach with his arm over his pillow. He moved around and sighed again. He sat up and flopped down and he looked up at the top of his bunk. He reached up and touched something that I couldnt see. He let a tear slip from his eye before quickly wiping it away. He pulled something out of a back pack and slipped it on his boney finger, it was a wedding band, a silver wedding band.
He twisted it around his finger as he stared at it. He smiled softly as he closed his eyes, I knew what he was thinking I used to put my ring on and think the same thing, until Grant found it and threw it out when I was at work. I left him alone and went back to the back when I heard Gerard grumble and I saw him stand up and walk to Mikeys bunk.
"Mikey, could you stop rolling around up here, your keeping me awake" He said in a tired voice.
I didnt hear mikey say anything.
"Mikey, you miss her huh? She so close now yet shes still so far, if you ask me, I think you would have been an excellent Husband to her, and you wouldnt have to put that ring on at night and pretend you are"
"Gerard, its not the love making i miss, its not the making out, its not sexual at all, its just the talking, the openess, she used to tell me, me touching her was better than sex sometimes, god gerard I threw it all away" I heard mikey say.
"Shes here man, get her back, show her how much you love her, dont let her go again, not back to that man"
I saw Gerard get back in his bunk then the bus went quiet again. I notcied I was crying after a couple of minutes. I wiped my face and laid on the couch and looked back at the movie. They didnt have an extra bunk so I slept in the back.
I had my eyes closed when I felt someone shake me. I woke up and it was Gerard.
I sat up and looked at him, "hmm?"
he sat down and looked at me, "I dont usually get into other peoples relationships, but I just have to do this, go lay with mikey, you both will feel better, Just let him hold you, even if you dont want him back, it will do him so much good, and maybe let him taste your kiss one last time" Gerard said with pleading eyes.
It hurt Gerard to see his brother like this. So lonely.
I nodded, "Is he awake?"
Gerard nodded, "I think so, but if he isnt just scoot him over, please for mikey? If not for him for me?"
I stood up and nodded, "ok"
I walked to mikeys bunk and opened the curtain to see him asleep, he still had the ring on. I climbed up and laid next to him and shut the curtain.
He slowly wrapped his arms around me. I could tell he was sleeping because he would've asked what I was doing if he wasnt.
He brushed his lips to my neck much like he used to, "I love you whitty" He whispered as he pressed his lips to my neck. He let his hands wander around the top of my panties like he used to. I could tell he was dreaming. His eyes were shut and he had a peacfull look on his face.
He let one hand slip under my panties and he started to rub me then stop and start again, thats how he used to tease me when he was in a playful mood, but right now it was killing me, I just wanted to cry. Then he finally started a steady pace, not stopping I frowned. It felt so good yet I knew he was just dreaming about it.
"Mikey, please dont do this" I cried.
But he didnt know what he was doing he was sleeping.
"Mikey...Baby please" I said alittle louder but still crying.
I felt him stopped, "Oh shit whitty? Oh god im so sorry i was just dreaming, I didnt mean to" He said in a shaky voice.
I just laid there crying loudly.
He took me in his arms and held me, "shhh...whitty dont cry, dont cry please stop, remember no more tears, damn it just stop"
I shook my head, "I miss you"
"I know baby, I miss you too, I miss you so god damn much"
I pulled away and looked at him. He looked ashamed of what he was doing to me, "Mikey, I miss you, I Miss your touch, I miss everything"
He nodded, "I miss you too"
I looked down at his hand, and touched the ring softly, "Keep it on, for me"
"But whitty?" I cut him off, "Damn it michael please"
He nodded. I laid in his arms again and I made the first move I wanted him back no matter what, "Michael, I want you to marry me, ask me again please, ask me"
He sighed, "Whitty I dont have a ring"
"I dont care, just ask me, ask me to be your wife"
He sighed softly, "Whitney, will you be my wife, will you marry me?"
I sighed and wiped my tears, "Do you mean it?"
"everyword" He stated.
I smiled and nodded, "I will"
He smiled and hugged me, "God Im such an ass for letting you go, never again"
I nodded and took in his scent, "Make love to me"
He looked at me, "what?" He asked making sure he heard right.
"Make love to me" I repeated softly.
He nodded and jumped out of the bunk and mumbled to himself. He sighed loudly, "fuck" He mumbled softly.
I frowned, knowing it was a condom he was looking for, and a condom he couldnt find.
"here" I heard Bob say.
"Your a life saver" Mikey stated and got back in the bunk. He slipped it on then took off my clothes quickly.
He got on me much like he used to and pushed himself in me. I smiled as I closed my eyes. He let out a soft moan then kissed me softly, "Say my name whitty" He said as he nipped on my collar bone. I ran my hands through his hair, "Mikey..." I moaned softly. I knew that was his turn on, hearing me moan his name could send him over the egde.
That night was spent making love.
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