December Fall. Part 2.

We walked along the park lane, holding hands. “Rrrrryannnn” I whined to him, who was looking a bit depressed. “What’s up Brenny-bear?” He comfortingly said to me, whilst slipping his hands down my chest, into my coat. “I want to go home” I whined again, pouting this time, to add dramatic effect. “Fine, come on” He agreed grabbing my hand and walking down the lane towards my house covered in snowy vines, surrounded by dead hedges and wooden gates and fencing, the ground caped in freshly laid snow. We were finally inside when he pulled me into the back garden and sat me down on the swings. “Ryaaan, what are you doing?” I giggled a little stroking his frozen hair. “Let’s just stay here for a minute, while I get my sentence together” He said blankly. “Okay Ry” I sighed, wondering what on earth could be that important that he couldn’t piece a sentence together for it? I leaned my head on his barely warm chest, which was meekly covered by his old grey coat. “Okay, this won’t be easy, but, here goes” He started to say. “Brendon, I’m leaving” He sighed. “What? When? When will you be back? Why?” I panicked. “Well; What - I’m leaving. When - Very soon. When I will be back – Most likely... I probably won’t be. And why – Well, I, just, AM.” I felt myself go suddenly very dizzy, my eyes started burning, my throat went dry, and soon enough tears were pouring, down my pale cheeks. “Goodbye Brendon, I’ll miss you” He said, his voice going I looked up into what seemed to be a watery garden, which had all of a sudden turned dark, as the night had fallen, looking around for Ryan; I fell from the swing to my knees. “I... Can’t... Breathe” I throatily called into the abandoned garden. Not expecting someone to answer I heard a very pale and empty voice call “No, Bren, you’ve just forgotten how to do it alone” I groaned as that voice disappeared, not to be heard for what happened to be, five years. (Back to the present). I looked into his honey brown orbs for eyes and sighed reluctantly. “I realize what a selfish, foolish, ignorant guy I was” He began calling himself. “But I’ve changed and Bren, I’ve come back for you, for us, to make it up to you, I really AM sorry” He continued, no emotion showed on my face. “Bren, please, take me back, I understand fully, why you wouldn’t if you choose not to, I promise Bren, it won’t happen again.” He said shakily. Taking a deep breath in I looked him in the eye, and opened my mouth for my next use of words. “Ryan, I...”