Dear Mr. Cheater... with lots of Hatred, Alice

I was heading to my English class when suddenly I bumped into someone. My books fell from my arms so I started picking them from the floor. Someone handed me one of the books. I looked up to see that it was him.

“I am sorry…” He said looking intensely into my eyes.

“Don’t be” I snapped. I took my book aggressively from him and walked briskly to class, my eyes watering in the process. I opened the classroom door and found all the chairs arranged in a circle and most of the class there. I grabbed one of the chairs that was left and took out my homework. I heard someone open the door. I looked up. It was him, again. He took the chair left, which was in front of me. Great.

“Good afternoon class. I hope everyone brought its homework. I am really interested in hearing all those love letters. Ms. Alice, please stand up and read us your letter,” Said Mrs. Bates sitting on her chair. I stood up, paper in hand, and started reading my letter.

“Dear Mr. Cheater:

I will cut all the nonsense and go straight to the point. I can’t believe that you did that to me. When we were together, I was always there for you, supporting and taking care of you. I made sacrifices, which I didn’t consider as sacrifices at the time because what you do with love isn’t a sacrifice. And how did you repay me? BY CHEATING ON ME!

We had the perfect relationship, or so I thought. We were happy with each other’s company. I could just be there, sitting, staring into your beautiful green eyes and I felt like the happiest girl in the whole world. We fought, every couple does, but in the end we would forgive each other. We experienced a lot together, good and bad things, and I always stayed by your side, no matter what. I thought that what we had was special and I had the dream of being with you the rest of my life. Know that I think of it, that was a really stupid idea.

People used to tell me that you weren’t good for me, that I would end up hurt like your other girlfriends. I regret with all my heart and soul believing you over them. Look how I ended, broken hearted and depressed as hell.

I still have the memory of our first date. It was, with the lack of a better word, perfect. You took me to a little Italian restaurant and then we walked by the beach hand in hand. We reached an old bench and sat there. In that place, under the bright moon and shining stars, you asked me to be your girlfriend and then we shared our first kiss. It was really romantic and I loved it, but now… I just wish this memory and the others of both of us together would fade away. Maybe by forgetting you, the pain that my heart feels would go away. I also remember the day I told you I loved you. You didn’t say it back, and it didn’t matter to me. But the following day you started acting strangely. Then it happened…

Believe it or not, when Carley told me that you were cheating on me I didn’t believe her. I doubted the word of my best friend in the whole world, I was really naive. Mad at her, I went to our special place just to calm down, and what was my surprise? You making out with another girl there in OUR special place. I was shocked, angry, broken hearted… I just wanted to die in that spot, because life no longer had a meaning. I spent many nights crying over you, all those evil memories of us coming back to my mind bringing with them the pain and the sadness that I was trying to suppress.

I hope you are happy, my life is now full of regret, sadness and anger. And it’s your entire fault.

With lots of hatred,

Alice Pitt”

I brushed away some of the tears that came out of my eyes while I was reading my letter and sat on my chair. The whole class stared at me, even Mrs. Bates. I avoided his stare but I still could feel it. I just looked down ashamed and tried to stop myself for breaking down in front of the whole class… It had to be done.

“That was… interesting. Mr. Cassian you are next,” said Mrs. Bates, still a little shocked. I let myself look at him; he was looking back guilt and misery all over his face. I looked down; I can’t fall for his tricks, not again.

“Dear Alice,

I know and understand that I hurt you deeply. It’s reasonable that you won’t even talk to me after what I have done. I just wanted you to know the reasons of why I did it and state how I am feeling right now.

I am really saddened and mad at myself for cheating on you, for being stupid enough to let go of a beautiful person like you. It hurts to see you like this Alice, all sad and depressed, it really does. Believe it or not, I hate myself for making that gorgeous smile of yours disappear, the spark of life that you had in your beautiful dark brown eyes fade away, and for breaking your loving and kind heart into millions of tiny pieces.

I still have that memory of you telling me that you loved me saved in my mind. You were sobbing, because of that romantic movie that you made me watch. I think it was a walk to remember… I tried to comfort you by hugging you and stroking your light brown hair. When you stopped sobbing you looked at me in the eyes and said the three words that changed my life: I Love You. Then you kissed me with more passion than ever. I didn’t know what to say. There were a lot of different thoughts and emotions roaming in my head. I was confused by what I was feeling and it scared me. I have never felt anything like that for another girl. That is the reason why I cheated on you. I was confused and scared about my feeling towards you. I was really scared of what would happen if I lost you, if we broke up. I didn’t want to end up hurt…

I know that being scared of my feelings isn’t enough for your forgiveness. Saying sorry won’t heal all the damage that I have done to you. But it’s the only thing that I can offer.

With lots of Love and regret,

Cassian Hale, Mr. Cheater.”

I couldn’t stand it anymore; I took my things and ran out of the classroom. I ran and ran to the place that I know so well, my special place. I heard steps behind me, so I ran faster. I couldn’t control the tears anymore, the sobs started and I fell to the floor crying my eyes out. I was sobbing uncontrollably. I felt two strong warm arms hug me closely and the scent that I knew so well hit me making me remember. I cried harder and let all the tears that I had been suppressing flow. He just stroked my hair and held me. When I finished crying, I tried to get up but he didn’t let me.

“Alice, please look me in the eyes.” He said lifting my face by my chin. I couldn’t look him in the eyes; they would only bring more memories back.

“Please Alice, I am begging you,” He said with sadness in his voice. I looked at him straight in the eyes.

“What do you want?”

“I only want your forgiveness; it’s the only thing I am asking for.”

“Why would I forgive you, after what you did to me? What guarantees me that you aren’t going to cheat on me again?” I said my eyes watering.

“It’s just that...” He said avoiding my eyes.

“What is it?” I said getting anxious.

“It's just that… I… I l… I lo… I love you!” He said kissing me on my lips. I was shocked at the beginning, but I gave in and started kissing back. I knew right then and there that he was telling me the truth.