Some Other Way to Continue, (Gerard Way) to Hide My Face 18

I watched silently as they lowered my mother into the cold, hard, ground. Jeph was on my right with his hand rubbing my back. Frank was on my left holding my hand. I leant over and placed my head on franks shoulders. I closed my eyes and tried to think of something else. But all I could think of was how all of this was my fault. I lifted my head and opened my eyes. But as I did so, tears streamed down my raw face. I could only try to think of ways out of here.

I pushed past everyone and started running. I had no idea where I was going, and I wasn’t even looking for an exit, I just had to run. I glanced back and found three men chasing after me. Gerard. Jeph. Frank.

Although I knew they would eventually catch up to me, I kept going. However within thirty seconds someone grabbed my shoulder and turned me around. I looked up and was staring into the eyes of Gerard Way. I figured he’d told the other two to go back, and they weren’tabout to argue, with all of us being at my mother’s funeral. They probably didn’t want to upset me by giving me more stress.

“don’t do this,” he begged.

“I cant stay there, its too soon.”

“just finish it through, then we can go home,” he coaxed.

“no, im leaving.”

He sighed and looked around, “okay, lets go.” He led me towards the exit and we walked for about ten minutes before we came to the park. It was the same park that id first played with him and mikey in. This park was basically our second home over the years.

He took me by the hand to our favorite tree to sit under. It was a huge tree with lots of leaves overhanging so it was like a little clubhouse almost. It always reminded me of the willow tree from pocohantus.

I sat next to him and lay my head on his shoulder. He ran his fingers through my hair. “you know, we all love you. And we want you to be happy. So if you need help, im always here as you know, but so is everyone else. I just don’t want you doing anything stupid.”

"You think im gonna cut again, dont you?”

“I just want you to know you have other options.”

I sighed and leaned my head back onto the tree. Did he really think I was that unstable again? Is that how I came off?

I looked up and saw something carved into the tree:

GW CI=BFF

I nudged Gerard, “remember this?”

He looked up and smiled, “yeah, I do.”

“you were trying to get on my good side, cause I was mad at you,” I recalled.

“that’s right, you were 13 and I was 15,” he nodded, “I honestly cant even remember what it was about.”

“I do,” I smiled.

“enlighten me,” he threw his hands up.

****FLASHBACK!****

(Cassie is telling this story to Gerard.)

It was the end of the day and I was waiting for you to come pick me up. Of corse you didn’t have a car, you were walking from the high school to the middle school, so I knew it would take a little while. I took my time at my locker and started walking to the front of the school. As I was walking, I head someone call my name behind me. It was Brad.

Brad and I had a kind of thing going at the time so we were talking and laughing, and he offered to sit with me until you came. I accepted and we chatted some more. That’s probably about the time you came into viewing distance of me and Brad. Because that’s about the time he leaned in and kissed me on the lips. Also gave you rights to mock me for the rest of that year.

****END OF FLASHBACK****

Gerard was laughing so hard by the time I was finished. “I remember! That was the most awkward first kiss ever! Im so glad I got it on tape!”

“you got it on tape?!” I didn’t know he’d filmed it! How embarrassing.

“well, the reason you were really mad at me was because I told Frankie, but you didn’t know, I actually showed Frankie.”

I play-shoved him, “your so mean!”

He laughed to himself, “your smiling.” He said pointing to my mouth.

“I am. Thanks Gee,” I leaned over and hugged him. We got up and walked down the street to my house. Everyone was already back and sitting watching TV. I thanked Gerard for making me feel better and then found Jeph.

“im sorry,” I told him, “but I had to leave, I couldn’t stay.”

“I understand,” he looked into my eyes. I leant in and kissed him softly.

“and Im sorry but I have to leave. Were taking off tomorrow and I have to be there. I hope you can join us again soon with the rest of the guys.”

I knew he didn’t like My Chem, but it was nice of him to say he wanted them to be back on the road too.

“alright,” I sighed, “ill be back as soon as I can.”

He leaned in and kissed me again before leaving. I hated saying goodbye, but it was best to say it quickly then drag it out.

I ran upstairs to my room and looked at myself in the mirror. Of corse, makeup running down my cheeks. I sighed and looked at my appearance some more, scrunching my face obviously not liking what I was seeing.

“just came to check on you,” Gerard said with his arms crossed leaning on the door frame, “and don’t do that, I think you look beautiful.”

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alright i know there was no updates in like 5 years haha but im gonna try to write more. my computer still isnt fixed (which is why i wasnt writing in the first place) but my mom got a new laptop that she never uses.
hopefully my computer will be fixed soon though. fingers crossed.
oh and plus no banners cause once again, not on my computer. sorry!
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