Some Other Way to Continue, (Gerard Way) to Hide My Face 21

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As soon as the game was over, i ran upstairs and shut the door behind me. Did that really just happen? Gerard and me... KISSED? Cant be... oh but it was...

I thought for a couple of minutes and continued to remoniss about the night. He was just so perfect...

*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*

My eyes went wide as i heard the sound. I wasnt ready to face Gerard yet, and im sure he wasnt ready to face me yet. "come in" i braced myself.

The knob turned slowly and Bob poked his head in before coming inside. "hey." he sighed.

"hey bobbert. how are you on this fine evening?"

"you sure are in a good mood. has it something to do with a certain event that happened tonight?"

"well..."

bob smiled, "we all know you like him, Cass. We just want you to admit it."

a wave of surprisement came over me. everyone knew?

"what do you mean?" i asked.

"well, ever since ive known you you've always taken a liking to him, he always made you feel better. and you guys always knew how to make eachother laugh. your like the perfect couple."

i laughed, "i dont like him, bob."

"well thats the biggest lie ive ever heard."

when i didnt say anything bob took it as a sign to keep going, "comon, you and i both know that jeph is just there as a comfort. Gerard is the one you want to be with."

"JEPH!" i nearly screamed. "oh my god i forgot about jeph. hes gonna be pissed! i cant even..."

"CASSIE!" he cut me off. "jeph is just a worthless piece of shit who isnt worth your time. you need to realize that. he cheated on you once. and he can do it again."

that just felt like knives being twisted in my stomach. all the feelings of that night came back to me and i felt my eyes well up with tears. bob scooched closer to me on the bed and rubbed my back.

"your right. but i really like jeph. and i dont think i wanna break his heart."

"he broke yours."

i nodded.

"listen," he coaxed, "im sorry i made you feel bad. but i wanted to spell everything out for you. i dont want to see you get hurt again. and that bastard should get what he deserves after what he did to you. i watched you recover from that, and it wasnt pretty. it took a while before you were youself again."

"i understand." i nodded again, "i just dont know what to do."

he looked me in the eyes and said, "sleep on it."

he got up and walked out of the room, leaving me in my thoughts once again. before he entered, i was in the perfect mood, and now its crushed. but i guess it was only because he cared. im beginning to think it was better when no one cared at all...

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the next morning i woke up and felt crappy. but i dragged myself out of bed anyway. not bothering to get ready, i threw my hair up in a sloppy bun, pulled on some sweats, and went downstairs.

seeing as it was saturday morning, i decided id go to the local record store since i hadnt done that in a while. as i was pulling my shoes on, frankie walked down the stairs.

"record store?" he asked.

"yep. wanna come?"

"yeah i do!"

"k"

once we were in the car frank started drilling me much like bob did the night before.

"yesterday was kinda crazy wasnt it?" he pressed.

"yeah, very." i said.

"did you have fun?"

"yeah"

"what was your favorite part?"

"god frank just ask me how i liked kissing gerard already and stop tip toeing around it." i huffed.

"okay! how did you like kissing gerard?"

"arghhh!"

"hey, you told me to ask."

i looked at him and sighed, "i liked it a lot."

his face lit up with happiness. "this is wonderful! you know we always knew you liked him, even possibly loved him. i mean ever since you were young i could tell, and then the other guys started noticing it too. even gerard mentioned it to me once.."

"WHAT?!" i slammed on the breaks.

"i knew that'd get your attention."

"what did he say?"

"oh you know..." he sing songed.

"i swear ill knock your teeth out if you keep that up." i said through clenched teeth.

he laughed "okay okay. it was probably about two years ago, he said something like 'do you think cass likes me? i kinda get that vibe from her.'"

"thats it?" i asked.

"yeah, why?"

"well, does he like me?"

he looked at me as if id just asked if the sky was blue "DUHHHHHH!"

i smiled to myself a bit. "how do you know?"

"cause i know."

"how!?"

"cause im his best friend, i know."

"did he tell you?"

"ew, no. telling me he likes my sister, can you say gross?"

"your so annoying sometimes."

there was a silence for a few moments until frank finally said, "so what are you gonna do?"

i sighed, "i dont know." i said, really getting annoyed now.

"well, can you speed the process up? i wanna see jeph in despair before the tour is over."

"your an ass. and i never said i was breaking up with jeph."

"what?! how can you not? i thought you liked gerard!"

"this is so awkward talking about it with you."

"oh get over it and tell me."

"i feel bad just dumping him. i told him id give us another chance. i really think he's changed. and he really loves me"

"thats a lame excuse. i think you scared of what gerard may think. like maybe he thinks you suck at kissing!" he had a mocking face on.

"once again, your an ass. and i dont suck at kissing."

i parked the car and we went into the store. i broused for a few minutes and grabbed some cds. after, i found frank who was juggling about a dozen and a half cds in his hands.

i looked at him, "i dont know you." i said as i walked away.

"HEY CASSIE MY FAVORITEST SISTER IN THE WHOLE WORLD! CAN I GET A LOLLIPOP?" he said holding up a huge swirly lollipop.

i shook my head at him and walked to the counter paying for the cds since i owed frank money anyway.

on the ride home he popped in one of the cds and we listened in silence. after, i parked the car in the driveway and got out, on our way to the door frank put his arm around my shoulder and said, "y'knwo cass, you really should consider going out on at least one date with Gerard, he is your best friend, and they always say that you marry your best friend."

i opened the door and rolled my eyes at him.

as i glanced around the living room i saw a blood shot eyed gerard rise from the couch, "hey cass, could we talk?"

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wow i havent updated in forever. and i offer my most sincerest of appoligies to you <

im also sorry for the shitty writing. i feel like it sounds really bad and moves too fast. but im way too tired for some reason so im leaving it.

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