My Protector: A Raphael (TMNT) Love Story Part FiveHey guys I'm sorry for the delay! I am trying to update as often as I can :) anyway I hope you all enjoy! Let me know what you think as I love to hear from you guys :)
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It had been over a week since I’d been to see... Raph. I winced, even thinking his name was too painful. I sighed and turned over. It was three in the morning. I tried to get to sleep but lately I’d been finding it difficult and he was always on my mind. In that instant I made an impulsive decision to go and sit on the roof, just for some thinking time. Casey and April were out so I had the apartment to myself but I really wanted some fresh air.
As I opened the window the cool, crisp New York air hit my face. I climbed carefully onto the fire escape and made my way onto the roof. Sitting near the edge of the building, I found myself gazing at a sea of bright lights. As they twinkled, I felt that I was able to appreciate why Casey liked this place so much. It was pretty in its strange, busy way. Though it still didn’t feel like home. I sighed. Maybe I was just feeling homesick, but there was a strange feeling that I had inside me. It was like a calling, to go back home. To go to a place where I knew where everything was, knew the people and to be somewhere where I felt safe. But if I was being honest with myself, I really wanted to get away from this uncomfortable atmosphere between me and Raph. For some reason he hated me and I couldn’t think of why. Maybe he regretted saving me that night... I felt a shudder down my spine that had nothing to do with the weather.
‘You cold?’ A voice asked.
I jumped and turned around only to see a large figure, hidden by the shadows.
‘Who are you and what do you want?’ I asked, my voice going higher in pitch due to the immense fear I was suddenly feeling. Would anyone hear me scream?
‘It’s Raph’ The voice replied. The figure moved from the shadows revealing Raph in his nightwatcher outfit, except his helmet was off and once again I was hypnotised by his honey-brown eyes.
‘What do you want?’ I asked icily.
‘I just wondered if you were ok’ He answered gruffly.
‘Yeah well I don’t need your help okay’ I replied loudly.
He looked surprised for a moment then his expression changed to one of anger ‘Hey what’s with the attitude problem?’
I stared at him ‘You think I have an attitude problem? How about you ask that of yourself, I mean you save me then you refuse to talk to me or even look at me and now you’re acting all concerned? Do you regret saving me or something coz I-’
‘What?!’ He exclaimed ‘You think I regret saving you from those, from those-’ He broke off unable to find a word to describe what he thought of my would-be attackers.
‘Yeah I think you do.’ I said angrily, clenching my fists.
He glared at me ‘Look I never regretted saving you for one second I just find it difficult to be around you okay?’
‘Well I think I figured that out for myself and no it’s not okay but it doesn’t matter so why don’t you just leave me alone’ I said coldly. Then I turned on my heel and headed down the fire escape, not stopping till I reached flat. When I got inside I didn’t even bother to close the window, I just sat down on the sofa with my head in my hands trying not to cry.
‘Emily?’ It was Raph. I heard him close the window and walk towards me. I couldn’t answer him as the tears had started, so I just ignored him. Just then I felt a hand on my shoulder. I let out a small gasp and turned around only to be face to face with Raph. With him standing and me sitting the height difference felt even more pronounced, except that I didn’t feel as intimidated as I should have.
His face changed from concern to... shame? I couldn’t quite tell but he came sat next to me, rubbing his face with his hands.
‘What have I done?’ He murmured.
‘What do you mean?’ I asked, my voice a little shaky from the tears which were trickling down my cheeks.
‘I’ve hurt you and all along I thought I was protecting you, I thought I was doing the right thing’
‘I d-don’t understand’ I stammered.
He looked up at me, unleashing the full force of his hypnotic eyes. ‘I love you Emily and I’ve been trying to squash my feelings for you and it hurt me more than you can ever know. But that’s ok because it was only me getting hurt, and now I’ve hurt you. That goes against every instinct within me and now because you’re hurting so am I, even more than before.’ He sighed as I sat there stunned.
‘You, you love m-me?’ I asked uncertainly.
‘More than anything’ He replied; his voice full of determination and his eyes focused on me. But then he sighed ‘I felt bad about it because well, first of all you’re human and second of all you’re my best friend’s sister’
My breath got caught in my throat, was this really the reason he’d avoided me?
‘Though I guess you must hate me now huh?’ He chuckled without any hint of humour in his voice.
‘I could never hate someone who saved my life; in fact’ I took a deep breath for courage ‘In fact I think I love you too’
He stared at me, his eyes wide ‘You don’t have to say that’
‘I’m not’ I replied ‘I’m not just saying it. It’s true’
He stared at me in disbelief. I took another deep breath and moved across to the other end of the sofa, where he was sat. I moved my hands up to his face and felt his cool, smooth skin and it was even softer than I remembered. He was still staring at me but I ignored him and moved face closer to his. His lips were only an inch away and I could feel his sweet breath on my face. And it was so quiet that I could only hear his heart beating very loudly. Only a second later did I realise the reason his heart beat was so loud was because our hearts were beating at the same time. And then it happened. Our lips met, and there was a brief pause where we broke apart then his hand stroked my face while the other hand was tangled in my hair. I moved my arms to fasten round his neck and we kissed again. A kind of electricity ran through me and felt like there was an internal fire raging inside me. I could hardly breath because this immense feeling was taking over and I pulled myself closer to him. He gently unwound my arms from around his neck and we broke apart.
He closed his eyes and sighed ‘We can’t do this’ He murmured.
‘Why not? Didn’t you like it?’ I asked feeling worried.
He shook his head ‘It was amazing but-’
‘But what?’ I asked feeling panic surge through me.
‘We can’t be together, Casey-’
‘Casey wouldn’t mind’ I said automatically, but I honestly didn’t know how my brother would feel if I went out with his best friend who also happened to be a mutant turtle.
Raph sighed ‘He’s my best friend; I can’t do that to him’
‘So you just want to bottle our feelings up? You want to pretend like this never happened?’
‘I don’t want to, but I have to. I’ll never forget this though’
‘I don’t want to either! I love you Raph and I don’t see why we can’t be together-’
‘You know why because of Casey and because we’re... well, different’
‘What does that matter? And-’ I broke off as a truly brilliant idea came into my head.
‘And?’ Raph prompted.
‘And what if Casey didn’t have to find out? What if nobody did? What if-’
‘You want us to be together in secret?’ He asked sharply.
‘Yes’ I breathed ‘It’s the only solution’
‘It’s not a solution it’s a problem’ He countered.
‘Well we don’t want to bottle our feelings up and we don’t want Casey to get hurt so it’s the only thing that makes sense-’
‘It doesn’t make sense, it’s madness’
‘Of course it’s madness I mean look at us! Come on Raph, you can’t seriously want to just bury your feelings can you? I don’t think I’ll just be able to pretend and move on’
He took a deep breath then exhaled slowly ‘You’re far too persuasive for your own good’ He murmured, a small smile appearing on his face.
‘Yes!’ I exclaimed ‘I knew you wouldn’t let me down!’
‘Never’ He vowed, holding both my hands tightly in his, before leaning in for another kiss.
- End of Part Five! Hope you all enjoyed! :) -
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