Life After Looking for Love: A Robert Pattinson Story (38)

(Robert’s POV)

Waking up with Aubrey wrapped in my arms feels pretty amazing, especially since we haven’t seen each other in a while. I then place a kiss on her forehead and wait for her to wake up. I look around the room and realize something was off. This isn’t Aubrey’s room. Aubrey has pictures of her family and friends on the wall and these walls have posters of bands that I feel like Aubrey has never even heard of. I also notice that the way the room is set up completely different then Aubrey’s. It then look over at the sleeping body and can immediately tell that this isn’t Aubrey.

For starters Aubrey always braids her hair up and this girl’s hair is all around her face. Also Aubrey always wears pajamas and this girl isn’t wearing anything at all. I then start to think about all that happened last night.

The first thing I remember was talking to Aubrey on the phone about how her trip was going. She said that Alexis and Megan were driving her crazy with their horrible singing during the entire ride to Edmonton. She also talked about how great West Edmonton Mall was and that I should go there one day. I joked that I would go as long as she went with me and she agreed. We then talked about how excited she was for the game and was literally counting down the hours until the game started. Once the game started we just decided to text but I realized that Aubrey wasn’t replying to them as fast as she normally would so I told her that when the game was over she could call me and tell me all about it.

So while Aubrey was at the game, I was having dinner with Kristen’s family. As much as I want to say it was awkward eating with my ex’s family I can’t because it wasn’t awkward. It was pretty nice, it kind of reminded me when Kristen and I use to eat at her parents’ house when we were dating. Her parents were extremely nice and I even got to catch up on what was happening with Kristen’s siblings. Not to mention to food we had was amazing.

After dinner I excused myself to go outside and see that I had a missed call from Aubrey. I call her and see that she, Alexis, and Megan are now getting something to eat before they head back to Vancouver. She talks about the game and how amazing it was, especially since this Taylor guy that she likes got the game winning goal. She also talked about how fun it was to just sit down and watch a game just like a regular person. Plus not many people recognized who she was which made her extremely happy. She then asked me how dinner was and I told her it was fine and that I made sure to eat a helping of turkey just for her which caused her to laugh. I then went on to talk about how normal the dinner seemed and Aubrey was glad that it wasn’t awkward. After that I told Aubrey that I would talk to her later since I knew that she had to drive back in order to make it back to Vancouver in time for the game the next day.

I turned around to go back inside and was shocked to see that Kristen was out here. She asked me how Aubrey was and I told her about Aubrey’s time in Edmonton and see seemed fine. After that we headed inside and up to Kristen’s room just to talk. We talked for a while and watched TV and we even and a couple of beers. One thing led to another and we started sleeping together.

Just that thought made me realized why I was in Kristen’s room naked with a naked Kristen sleeping next to me. I just sat there in shock after replaying what happened. I was thinking this was a horrible dream that I wanted to wake up from. Too bad this wasn’t a dream and was confirmed by what Kristen said to me.

“Well good morning to you too Robert. By that kiss you just gave me, I can tell you had as much as an amazing time as I had last night.” She then gets behind me and wraps her arms around my shoulders and tries to kiss me probably hoping that I would kiss her back, but here I am doing nothing just staring at the wall.

You all know how in Breaking Dawn when Bella realizes that she is in fact pregnant Edward kind of goes into a state of shock and does absolutely nothing. Well that’s how I feel right now realizing that I cheated on Aubrey with my ex. It still doesn’t sound right, I cheated on Aubrey with Kristen. I have to be the worst person in the world right now.

“What’s wrong Robert? You would think after last night you would feel on top of the world,” she said while she still had her arms wrapped around my shoulders. I then got her arms off of me and threw a blanket on her so that she would cover herself up.

“You want to know what’s wrong Kristen? I slept with you meaning that I cheated on Aubrey who I love.”

“How can you possibly love her Robert? There is no way you can be yourself with her.”

“What’s that suppose to mean?”

“Think about it Robert. You’re not the type of guy who likes to hang out with a larger group of people like Aubrey is. Plus some of the things you like to do, you can’t do when you’re with Aubrey. You like to smoke and occasionally drink and being with Aubrey you can’t do either of those, especially that last one. Plus how can you stand being with someone who plans to wait until marriage to have sex? Didn’t you like what happened last night with us? Just think about it, with me you wouldn’t be around tons of people; you’d be able to smoke and drink as much as you want.” She then came closer to me and then started straddling me while wrapping her arms around my neck and placing her forehead on mine.

“Plus I’d be willing to sleep with you anytime you wanted to,” it was then that she started kissing me but I wouldn’t kiss her back. I then pushed her off of me and onto the bed and I got out of bed looking for my boxers. I finally found them and put them on before looking at Kristen who was just sitting on the bed looking at me.

“Kristen, you don’t get it do you? You and me will never get back together. No matter how many times you try to tell me that we’re supposedly made for each other we aren’t going to get back together. Besides do you realize that hanging out with Aubrey’s big group of friends has made me more comfortable with who I am and way more outgoing. Just look at my interviews from when we were first going out to now and you will see a completely different person. Yeah I know that Aubrey doesn’t like it when I smoke but she is okay with it as long as I don’t do it around her. Plus just because Aubrey doesn’t drink doesn’t mean that she’s not okay with me drinking. She is fine with me drinking. Hell me and her roommates occasionally drink and Aubrey doesn’t seemed fazed by it. Besides if you see the way she acts sometimes then you know that Aubrey doesn’t need to drink to have fun. Finally I’m okay with her waiting to have sex. We’ve had this talk numerous times. It’s not like I’m constantly thinking of having sex.” I then start to find the rest of my clothes and begin putting them on.

“One last thing Kristen, just because you’re willing to sleep with me doesn’t mean I want to sleep with you. Last night was a mistake because we were both drunk and I can assure you that it won’t happen again. I’m in love with Aubrey and the sooner you realize and accept that the better.”

I then get all of my stuff and was about to leave Kristen’s room. “Where do you think you’re going,” she asked me.

“Back to my place, after last night I have to make things right with Aubrey and tell her what happened. Don’t even think of calling, texting, or even talking to me until we’re back in Vancouver ready to begin filming again. Oh and don’t even think about talking to Aubrey about this because then you will never even be able to be friends with me. Plus don’t think we’ll be on the same flight heading back to Vancouver. I’ll see you back on set.” I then close her door and head back downstairs.

Once downstairs I see Kristen’s parents in the kitchen. They ask me if I want anything to eat and I tell them that I’m fine and thank them once again for the Thanksgiving meal and then I head back to my place. I get back to my place and the first thing I do is take a shower cleaning myself of all that happened last night with Kristen. While in the shower, I just kept thinking about if I really wanted to tell Aubrey what happened last night. Once I was out of the shower and changed into some new, cleaner clothes I headed into the kitchen and ate some cereal.

While I was eating breakfast I got a text from Aubrey telling me that she was finally back in Vancouver. I texted her saying that I was glad that she made it back safely and that she should get some sleep since I knew that she was probably the one who did most of the driving and was tired. She agreed and told me that she would call me before she got ready to leave for the Canucks game. I then went back to eating thinking that this could have been the time to tell her that I cheated on her.

Still that got me thinking. If I would have told her about what happened that would have devastated Aubrey especially since I cheated on her with Kristen. Then she would most likely break up with me and I don’t want that to happen. I love Aubrey and want to be with her, and I don’t want some dumb drunken mistake to be the reason why Aubrey and I break up. I just hope this doesn’t come back and make things worse that I already feel right now.