Hopeless But Hoping {John Ohh} Tenth Part

I was sitting on the edge of my bed holding my body tightly. I tried hard to understand what had just happened. John kissed me and now he made it seem he was regretting it. He stood in the middle of my room, doing what looked like reprimanding himself and hadn’t even bothered to relieve me from the confusion he was causing. His sudden movement towards me made me jump.
“Bryar, can I ask you something?”he asked unexpectedly making me snap out of my jumbled thoughts. I looked up and noticed myself realizing how amazing his hazel eyes were. I dropped my legs and let them hit the floor.
I steadied eye contact on his face and gave him a small nod letting him know he could go on out and say what was on his mind. I tried to keep the fact that I was actually hanging on his every word hidden by taking the time to soak in every single feature of his appearance. He kept his long hair swooped across his forehead which constantly had to be replaced by a swipe of his hand. While the front part of his hair settled on his brow line the back fell freely to peruse the back of his neck. His long hair made his eyes stand out and his lips could only be described in one word, perfect. His whole face silhouette was innocently flawless. He was torturing me by not smiling so I could see his precisely sculpted teeth that always seemed to shine a bright white when he blessed everyone with his crooked smile.How did I get so fortunate to have someone like him in my life?
“Am I wasting my time with you right now?”he asked bluntly. I was taken by surprise by how direct he was being.I must’ve been staring at him.As I took time to think he made himself look like I had just rejected him.
“No.”I said abruptly.“John, I have feelings for you. Please, you aren’t wasting your time.”I let out trying to comfort him and keeping the stun of how I had just admitted it that easily secluded from my visage.
“Oh, Thank God!”he said letting out a large breath while holding his chest. I couldn’t help but laugh at how dramatic he was being. He came and sat down beside me again.
“So, where does this leave us?”he asked warily.“I mean, I know where I want this to go but I just want to make sure we…..”He trailed off while I just stared at the ground.“Bryar, will you be my girlfriend?”he asked confidently finally getting my attention. When I looked up he clenched his jaw wondering if he did something wrong.
“Girlfriend?”I asked feeling self-conscious. I looked at my hands and felt the shock of his question hit me. How was I supposed to respond to that?
“Yeah, if that’s okay.”He stuttered nervously. He then rapidly rammed his forehead in his palm and chuckled to himself.Get it together Bryar. You want this.
“Yes, I will be your girlfriend.”I spoke up.
“What?”he asked loudly letting all his discomforting feelings fall away. I knew he heard me and I didn’t think I could repeat myself. I just attempted my best ‘you heard me’ look but I knew I just made things more confusing. I was dreading the next moment when I’d have to repeat myself again but it looked like I had no choice. Before I could speak I felt warm pressure hit my lips and I realized John decided to take the next step.Thank God he got the message.He grabbed the back of my neck setting his cold fingers along where my hairline started. They were cold but it didn’t affect me this time. As much as I enjoyed kissing him I pulled away from our kiss and laid flat on my back. He looked down at me in slight confusion and then crawled over me positioning himself on his elbow beside me. He made it to where he was looking over me and whenever I looked up he was there. I could feel myself drifting off to sleep but I heard John beginning to talk to me.
“So you have feelings for me, huh?”he asked quietly grinning and leaning in to kiss my lips again.
“Sorry O’Callaghan.”I said sternly using the next few moments to flip my body so my back was facing John’s chest.
“Okay, you have to admit, that’s unfair.”he whispered in my ear making me get goose bumps on my arms and neck.
“Life’s unfair.”I spat playfully trying to act like he wasn’t getting to me. I ended it at that and let my head drop on the pillows. I didn’t fight my eyelids as they fluttered and eventually closed. I felt John’s arms wrap around my waist and he whispered a few more things in my ear but I didn’t bother making them out. I became quite content with where I was and drifted off into a comfortable sleep.
John’s P.O.V:
Waking up to see my surroundings to be Bryar’s bedroom. I figured I had fallen asleep beside her after she fell asleep on me. I observed Bryar’s peaceful face that was nuzzled in my chest. She must’ve known I was staring at her because her eye shot open and she smirked at me just as fast. I noticed that she fit into me perfectly. Her body curved in all the right place to fit into mine. She looked up at me before trying to wiggle her body out of my hold. I didn’t want to let her go but she insisted by finding her hands and pushing gently against my chest. Once I reluctantly let her go she stood up, stretched out her long torso by reaching to the sealing and walked across her room so she could settle herself on the window sill. I took this time to actually look at her. She looked like she had lost weight over the summer. She was too thin as it was before the summer and I now noticed that her hip bones were slightly more pronounced than I remembered. I examined the way she stood; it was one of the many things about her that drove me mad. The way she would transfer her weight from one leg to another and then raise on to her tiptoes was adorable. I longed to touch her so I got up quietly making sure she didn’t hear me. As I walked up behind her slowly, I could tell she didn’t even know I had gotten up. I wrapped my hands around her waist and I felt her jump back into my chest by the startle I gave her. Her reaction made me smile uncontrollably. She turned around in my arms to where we were face to face.
“Sleep well?”she asked bordering a bashful smile on her lips. She reminded of a small fragile doll, my fragile doll and I felt that I had to be gentle with her or she would fall apart in my arms.
She leaned against the window sill as I stood in front of her propping myself up by one hand placed on the wall beside her head. I was tempted to pull her in and crash my lips against hers. She kept looking up at me with innocent eyes in silence so I took that as an opportunity to get closer to her.
“Well I slept wonderful.”I told her trying my hardest to resist the craving I had to kiss her.
“Wonderful.”she mimicked quietly getting closer to my face and scrunching her nose up. I was going to give into my desire but she reacted too quickly. She ducked out of the space between the window sills, my body and the wall had cornered her in. As she attempted to make a break for it I caught her by the waist and pulled her close.
“Ahhh haha!”she laughed. She tried pulling away but soon gave up by letting her body go limp in my arms.
“Got Cha!”I whispered in her ear. She wiped her ear lightly with the back of her hand making me assume it tickled her. I felt her stomach go up and down quickly as she started laughing from the way I had my hands on her stomach. I spun her around making my eyes dart up and lock with hers. She was still laughing but she slowly became more earnest. If I had the choice I would never stop staring at her. Her light olive complexion went perfectly with her honey blonde curls. She had her hair tamed into a braid but her hair made it impossible to make it completely intact. She had a few curls that stuck out here and there. I couldn’t help but dream about getting lost in her speckled grey eyes. Her light red lips didn’t help much as I constantly struggled not to kiss her. She never took the time to wear makeup which made her seem more beautiful in my eyes. Her lips blessed me with a peek of her perfectly shaped teeth that had the color of pearls. They also had the ability to make me weak in my knees and I had no way of preventing it.
“John come on, let me go.”She pouted making me snap out of my trance. As soon as I looked up I noticed her stunning smile tugging at the corner of her lips.
“I don’t wanna.”I teased pulling her as close as possible. Knowing she was ticklish on her neck I leaned in and started to graze her neck with my lips. She instantly put her chin to her chest and giggled lightly. I looked up to see her breathtaking smile finally break the surface.
“John, you know I hate being tickled.”She said while pulling her hands free only to place them on both sides of my face.
“It’s impossible not to tickle you, you’re ticklish everywhere!”I said playfully. She gasped dramatically.
“Am not!”she said like she was offended but not succeeding to keep her lips serious.
“Are too.”I whispered soft and quickly.
I led my hands off her torso but only to place them on her hips to start lightly tickling her. She tried to hold back her laughter but ended up letting the fit of contagious laughter burst out of her. She fell on her bed almost immediately attempting to get out of my reach. I continued to tickle her while she attempted to get me to stop. Her laugh made me fly and her smile had a substantial effect on me. If she had rejected me I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to take ‘no’ for an answer, I could relax because I had got the response I was hoping so powerfully for, Yes. She saidyes.