Gender Confused {Gackt and You Quiz} ~~Part Eight~~ I'd Die If You Left {9\10\06 Updated}

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This was the part where she heard him shift a bit and her eyes were closed tightly fearing the worst. Instead his voice came to her ears and it really did sound like he was about to cry. "S-So you have a boyfriend? Thanwhydid you" She stopped him by turning around feeling the tears flooding her eyes. "Jamera, what's going on?" His words were too much for her because she had kissed him last night and not told him anything of her rape or of the time she had spent away because of it. She didn't want him to know; he would walk away and never come back. He would find her tainted and disgusting and never want to be seen with her every again! She didn't know what she would do without him! Jamera had grown so close to him in the past few hours that she didn't know if she could live without him right there by her side.

"Th-There were six of them," she stammered a flush lighting up on her cheeks as she wiped the tears away. She didn't hear him move or speak so she spoke for him. "I don't know who the father is Gackt. I really don't." Jamera felt a shift behind her and knew he was going to leave her. He was going to go and leave her life forever! She willed herself to turn around and beg him not to but she couldn't do that to him. If he didn't want to be around her then he wouldn't have to be convinced. This was his decision and even though she hated it he had to make it on his own. She would have to deal with knowing there were side effects to her stupidity and this meant losing the best thing that had ever happened to her. Then something happened that totally blew her mind. Two strong arms wrapped around her shoulders so that his head could rest on her shoulder gently.

"I don't hate you, Jamera," he whispered into her ear with his deep, gentle voice that made more tears flow into her eyes. She wanted to so badly cry but she hadn't cried in so long that it was hard to even think about it. Jamera had cried after being raped and now the feeling of hatred and pain was back. She hated herself for letting herself get raped; she was strong enough to take on maybe two but six guys? They all had their way with her so it was hard to say who exactly the father was. She wanted to just break down and cry so when he said the next few words she did. "Don't be afraid to cry, Jamera. No one's going to penalize you for it." So turning around she wrapped her arms around his torso and cried harshly into the front of his body. There was nothing she could do to stop the tears except let them come and as he sat there he just stroked her hair gently not wanting to stop her from crying. She didn't even notice people were watching them. "Are you going to have an"

"No!" she said sharply, catching him off guard since there was a kind of edge to her word. "Just because some bastards decided to jump me doesn't mean the child has to suffer an abortion! I'll justjust have to deal with the pain" She laid her head on his shoulder for the comfort that it held for her and closed her eyes slowly. Nothing matter anymore but helping to bring this child into the world even if it would know from the day it could understand that it was the product of rape. It was a horrible thing to find out but she was going to set it up for adoption and it would never have to know its mother that was too weak to push back the bastards who raped her.

"Jamera, you are the strongest woman I have ever met," he told the sobbing mother-to-be making her look up in surprise. His smile gave her such comforting warmth that more tears began to flood her vision. For a long time they just sat there crying and collecting more attention from people coming in and out of the hospital but neither cared. Gackt was too busy worrying about the woman's sanity than what people thought of them. So after a while when she had stopped crying he saw her lean up and kiss him gently on the lips making his body shake with a tremor that was pleasurably surprising. Getting a devious idea he moves away from her to sit on his knees in front of her chair leaning forwards so that his ear was pressed gently to her bell. "So, do you think it's a girl or a boy?" he asked people around them making sounds of awe at how cute the scene was. Jamera's face flushed and her eyes were wide but she didn't have to say anything for him to know what kind of child she wanted it to be.

"Eh...boy!" she said as his response her face growing redder and redder by the second as he stood up with a chuckle. He helped her up before wrapping an arm around her waist his lips landing on hers in a gentle kiss. "Why do you insist on making a scene out of me?" she asked against his lips after a while and he just shrugged while people watched them both laugh lightly. Their lips were still touching lightly but everyone around them found it cute for the two of them to just find out they were going to be parents. Obviously none of them had seen Jamera crying about it, had they?

Anyways, they started outside only to see a limo pulled out in front of the hospital making Jamera glad she didn't have to walk since she was feeling a bit sick from all of the crying. Though, she was in for a big surprise because when she opened the door she found that all of GacktJOB were sitting there along with her sister. Damn, she thought to herself as she pulled into the seat with Gackt right behind her telling the driver to step on it and of course he did making Jamera fall into her sister. "What's wrong, Jamera?" the twin asked with worry in her falsely colored eyes her multi-colored hair shinning in the light coming from the window beside her though it was very minimal since the windows were tinted. Maybe it was just Jamera's imagination.

Jamera hesitated not too sure if she should tell her sister or not but she didn't have to say a word because Gackt piped up with his deep voice. "I have something to confess guys," he said looking down at Jamera with a soft smile on her face. "You remember that time when I went away for a few days? Well, I went to go see Jamera andto put it simply without details she's pregnant. The condom we used broke so it wasn't like we could do anything about it and we didn't worry up until she started to have these bouts of sickness." Jamera's face flushed with brightness at the story but she was grateful to him that she didn't have to tell the real story to them. She just nodded but the guys and her sister were silent for a few minutes before Lilly jumped up and screamed in happiness.

"I'm going to be an aunt! I never thought this day would come oh than you God!" she said just as they rounded a sharp curve and she was thrown into Charchmaru's lap. Jamera couldn't help but laugh at this since Lilly's face turned as bright as the hair that hung from her head. "But that's wonderful Jamera! Is it a girl or a boy?" Everyone looked at Jamera who laughed brightly for the first time in a long while knowing that everyone knew what gender she wanted the child to be. She tried to get out of Charchmaru's lap but he had his arms wrapped around her waist so she didn't go bounding off again and hit her head on the door or worse.

"It's too early to tell but I'm hoping it will be a boy!" she said surprising all of them. They had all thought she would want a girl but she had her reasons for wanting this child to be a boy. She had a feeling this was going to be a long and hard journey but with all of those people around her than she also had a feeling that she would be able to handle anything that came her way.