Gender Confused {Gackt and You Quiz} ~~Part Ten~~ Is This The End?

They lay there for a long time and she had cried so much that she was soon sleeping in his arms as if she belonged there. She would worry about her problem later but for now she just wanted him to love her the way he was so that she didn't have to be alone. The child in her womb had to be a boy. It just had to be! They would find out soon though so she would just wait until she was allowed to go to the doctor to have the child checked. Well, she would still have to worry it seemed but this wasn't found out until he next check with the doctor.

"Well," he said drawing out the word as he looked at the little picture that was supposed to be Jamera's baby. "I'm happy to say that your child is a healthy little girl!" Those words broke Jamera's heart but not in the way most would think. Her child would be born healthy but she would be tainted and disgusting to everyone around her! Tears pooled in her eyes but she just smiled and thanked the doctor as she pushed herself up off of the bed her tummy being much more obvious now. The cameras had been flashing in her eyes for quite some time now but she didn't mind. The magazines and such could just kiss her ass and put that on the front of their fucking websites because she wasn't in the best of moods. She figured Gackt noticed since he had been pestering her to get out and do more but all she wanted to do was stay at home.

The doctor had told her to sit around a bit and eat so she did but not as much as most would think. She had a stunted appetite from the child but still ate to keep her baby girl healthy. If she didn't keep striving then the child would suffer and she didn't want that to happen. Jamera wanted to give this young woman a chance for survival; the chance she had had but never got to enjoy. Just the thought of this made her heart ache for what she could have had. She could have been just like Lilly, happy and bubbly, but she was stubborn, conceded and an altogether bitch to everyone but her sister. What was she supposed to do when she was so abnormal?! She couldn't even walk out onto the wrestling mat without feeling that pang of longing for something different. Her heart was on the mat but her head was in another place all the time. She wanted to be somewhere else. Jamera could be a model or something normal like a doctor but she had to be something like a female wrestler instead!

What the fuck was wrong with her?!

She had never questioned these things so seriously before! She had always been happy with wrestling but ever since she had met Gackt that had all changed! She wanted something more than just to step out onto the wrestling mat. Jamera loved to hear those people screaming for her to win but she also loved to look into the face of the man she loved and see happiness. He hadn't been like that lately. He had been depressed and there were dark rings under his eyes. Jamera was lying in the bed next to him staring at his sleeping face but she knew there was no sleep in the man's body. He was faking it to make sure she wasn't worrying. She wanted him to smile again. Jamera felt his body warmth but she was cold on the inside. This was all her fault. She was the one making him so depressed. Why couldn't she do anything right for once?! She just wanted to be there for him and yet she couldn't even do that!

Letting her hand trail up under the blankets she took his hand to place it onto her enlarged stomach. His breath hitched a bit as he lay there with his face looking down at her even if his eyes were closed. "Gackt, g-gomen," she whispered having picked up a few words from his beautiful language in the time that she was with him. "Please, forgive me. I've been so horrible the past few months but I'm ready to face up to what I've done. I know what I want her name to be and I'll love her no matter what happens. P-Please, stay with me." She closed her eyes letting the tears fall from the corners; they spilt down only to be caught by Gackt's lips as he pulled her closer. She laid her hand on his shoulder keeping his palm against her bare stomach.

"I would never leave you, Jamera-Chan. I love you, this I swear but you must learn to curve your anger and depression. I will never hate you and I will always be by your side no matter what anyone else says about you or what they think," he said pulling her ever closer though her stomach was placed gently against his. There was no way he was going to hurt her on purpose but even if he did on accident she wouldn't notice. "Jamera-Chan," he whispered in the way that made her body stiffen with pleasure. All he had to do was utter her name and she was at his beck and call. She didn't understand but she wasn't afraid anymore. With plenty of time to think things through she found she couldn't think of a life without this cocky son of a bitch by her side. It was a lonely, empty, dreadful thought making her shiver.

His lips descended on her neck causing a soft moan to escape through her teeth. She didn't know if she should be doing this but as they lay there the heat of the room growing more and more she knew he was all she needed. All of the faces of those around her flashed across her mind and she knew there wasn't anything else that she desired in the world. She had Lilly and Jun who had, on more than one occasion, made her smile while she was depressed. Jamera had The Gazette as much as she hated to admit it though they were always there when she needed emotional support. Her foster family was there when she needed help as well; they supported her no matter what she said or did. They were all there but no one could ever be needed as much as this one man was. He was perfect.

Her face flushed brightly as his hand stroked her belly making her close her eyes tightly but she knew he wasn't going to take advantage of her. Even if she could see the bastards that hurt her she didn't compare them to Gackt. He was so much better and as he looked up at her with his dark blue gaze she melted right there. She allowed him to kiss her for the first time since she had started this whole ordeal and needless to say it was the best thing she had ever experienced in her life. He was passionate, fierce, and yet so sweet all at the same time with his fingers touching her cheek gently. Her arms wrapped around his neck making everything okay again.

When they separated she felt so much better that she couldn't help but to let her finger draw little circles all across his bare chest. Her green eyes were clouded with love, joy, and happiness. Nothing could falter this moment but as she lay there something told her that it wouldn't end out the way she wanted. Those thoughts were shook from her mind as she laid her head against his heart listening to the easy beats that resonated from that strong chest. "Promise me that you'll never leave me, no matter what," she whispered feeling his body move to let her know he was staring down at her crop of blond hair. Her hands gripped at his shoulders; she was serious about this and wanted him to realize just how dire this was for her to hear.

"Hai, I will never leave you, Jamera-Chan. I promise I will never even think about such a thing!" he told her tenderly with his lips placed against the crest of her head. This was nirvana for her. She was right at that point where she didn't care what happened next; he was going to be right there whatever it was. Her heart eased down into her soul just like a head to a pillow late at night. She had one more thing to tell him and she gripped tightly to him laying a small kiss on his chest. He smiled lightly thought she couldnt see it and waited for what she was going to say with a patience that she had never encountered in anyone other than Lilly.

Her lips trailed kisses up to his neck where she suckled on the skin gently creating a red mark on the skin. He craned his neck the opposite way so she could get to more skin a kind of pleasure coming to his face. "After the child is born, after I'm better, will you-will you-" she stammered the words but his stroking hand on her back told her she could tell him anything and he would never judge. "Will you make love with me?" Her face was flushed a bright red color as she saw his eyes widen and stare down at her. She was serious about what she had just said; it took a second for him to realize this though before a soft smile spread across his face.

His lips captured hers and she let her hands stroke his chest again; his tongue pushing past her obedient lips so she could whimper lightly. This was Heaven even if she knew that nothing ever stayed perfect for too long before it went away. The moment that this happened was when she was walking away from the grocery store with Jun on one side of her and Lilly on the other their hands holding one bag each. They were laughing and cutting up with one another; she had gotten so much happier since she had asked Gackt one simple question. Her heart felt so much lighter now but it dropped back down when she saw a group of men up ahead. Their faces were so familiar; it brought a speeded tempo to her normal body-rhythm. She wanted to flee but she also wanted to kill the men up ahead.

She stopped in her tracks; her green eyes widening to a deadly size. Her fear was supreme but the only thing on her mind was to protect her sister. She was scared out of her wits but when the men started to advance on them Jamera took the offensive. Her body moved on its own so that she was right in front of the two girls who were confused. "Stay away from us you bastards!" she snapped in the tone she hadn't taken in what felt like an eternity. Her hands came up instinctively; too bad Lilly and Jun grabbed her arms to hold her back as the men came and then passed without doing anything but smirking. "Cowards! You should have your asses thrown into the electric chair for what you did! I'll slit your throats if I have to but one of these days you'll end up dead! I swear it!" Her eyes were dilated in an odd way her arms straining against the two women holding her.

"So she just went berserk?" Uruha asked Jun when the three women had gotten home. Jamera had rushed to her room in a furry leaving the two other women to tend to their own curiosities. Lilly nodded her head staring down at the ground with her bright orange eyes that matched her outfit. She loved contacts but right at the moment she wasn't as bright as those little pieces of material on her eyes. The man leaned back with a look of utter confusion on his face but the others weren't any better as Jun started to sob into her hands. Ruki and Reita scooted over to wrap their arms around her stroking her back gently.

The door opened slowly to show a smiling Gackt who had been out on business with the GacktJOB crew. He looked around and the smile on his face instantly dropped as he rushed to the girl's side. "What's going on?! Is she hurt?!" he asked but Jun shook her head and his eyes widened. He understood what was going on his legs carrying him up into the room he had called his own with Jamera who was sitting on the bed reading a book called Vampire Mountain. Even if she looked calm he could tell just by the dullness in her eyes that she wasn't so he closed and locked the door before walking over to her side. "Jamera-Chan, what happened?" he asked gently but she didn't look up. She was too intent on the pages she had stopped reading after the first two minutes after picking the book up. He sat down on the bed then leaned down to lay his head on her lap.

His ear was right up against her large stomach as a smile crept over his face. "She's kicking, Jamera-Chan," he whispered with a hand reaching up to touch the womb and skin covered child. His fingers stretched over the large woman a soft look in his dark blue eyes his lips kissing the child. "She can feel her daddy." This was the last straw that made Jamera burst into tears and thrown down the book holding her face in her hands. This was so frightening to Gackt but he hid this well with a soft smile as he pulled himself up to wrap his arms around her shoulders. "Tell me what happened, my love. I'll listen."

Her words flew out of her lips without her knowing it and soon he had heard everything about the first time she had met this bunch of men in the alleyway to just a few hours earlier. He listened to everything she said without interrupting; his hand stroked her hair gently but when she was finished she looked up at him with that pitiful glint in her eyes. "He made me afraid. He-he made me afraid for our child, Gackt! I don't want him to-" His lips planted deeply onto hers; he wanted her to stop talking so she did. Reassurance flooded through her body while he moved her lips with his own her tongue being touched lightly with his own.

He pulled away and smiled.

It wasn't too long after that when she had to go to the hospital again but where there was supposed to be good news there was bad. The doctor told Gackt to leave the room and even though he didn't want to he nodded before standing to exit. This man looked at Jamera with sadness in his eyes making her heart stop. What could possibly go wrong now? Why wasn't anything going her way now?! Ever since she had met Gackt things had been going against her! Someone, or something, didn't want them to be together! "Ms. Jamera, I have to tell you something," he said with his clipboard set down on the table right in front of him. There was an eerie calmness that settled over her features scaring the man. Nothing had been going right for her so why should they start now? "Y-You might have to make a hard decision here soon. I'm fearful that because of your narrow hips that you might not be suited for childbirth." The words penetrated her thick shell and caused her to bite down on her lip in pain. This was what she had been fearing along with the fact her child was a girl. "I know you have a rare kind of disorder but there isn't anything we can do about it. If you have this child----one of you isn't going to survive." His eyes were solemn but she shook her head and walked out of the room with her eyes on the ground.

Her child was going to be born and she was going to do anything she could to make sure that happened. Gackt followed after her to wherever she wanted, which happened to be a park. He didn't understand why they were going to this place but she seemed to need to come here so he didn't say anything. He just followed after her until she came to a large tree; it was beautiful with bright green leaves and a healthy looking trunk that was a dark brown. She slowly pushed herself down onto the ground groaning in pain before settling down into a little dip formed by two roots. Her head leaned back to look up at the sky; he sat down next to her in his own little crevice not saying anything until she did. "I've been lying to you, Gackt," she whispered though he didn't believe her. She could never lie to him, right? "I haven't told you why I was so afraid of my child being a girl." She looked over at him with a kind of serene sparkle in her green eyes. Gackt knew she could be faced with death and not falter. Something inside of her had changed since that Fate-filled day they had met. "I have a disorder, a genetic disorder. It's very rare but something happened to where I am a female on the outside but on the inside, how my body works and functions, is like a man. Usually, a woman has an XX chromosome but---I don't. I have an extra chromosome to add to those two letters. I have an XXY structure and this distorts the boundaries between the genders," her eyes were full of conflicting emotions but he didn't say a word as he watched her carefully. He knew she had a secret but this was overwhelming. It was strange how things could change.

"I don't have the male parts but there are some defaults that come with this disorder and one of them is low birthrate," she said feeling so hurt that her child might not survive as she looked up at the surprised man in front of her. She was tired of crying so she didn't but it still struck her heart terribly to know she would soon have to make a choice between her own life or the life of her beloved child. "The doctor told me I would have to make a choice when I have labor. My hips are so narrow that it's possible one of us will have to die. It's either me or the child. Which would you choose, Gackt?" She asked this with a serious look on her face even though she knew which one she would pick it still meant a lot to ask him what he would do.

His face contorted with worry but he had to answer her question as he stroked his chin gently. "Me? I would-I would----choose to save you," he said gently touching her hand as he sat there with his head up against her stomach still. "This child isn't even a love child and yet you still fight everything to save her. I would choose you but it's not my choice now is it?" He sat up to touch her face having a good idea what she would choose as well but there was nothing he could do about it. She smiled gently turning away to go into the bathroom for a shower. She had a lot of things to think about; Gackt had to do the same so he laid down on the bed and thought. He needed to clear his head for what was about to come but until then he had something he needed to do more than think.

He walked down the stairs to where The Gazette members and the two women were playing a card game. "Ha! I win you guys suck!" Lilly laughed throwing down her hand to show all aces making the others groan. Well, Jun didn't groan; instead she latched onto Lilly and laughed brightly the smile on the pink haired girl's face absolutely priceless. They were both good friends now as he watched the boys start to take off their shirts. "Strip poker's fun! You should join us Gackt-Sensei!" she said happily but he had something he needed to ask the girls. Lilly saw his seriousness and grabbed Jun's arm before walking with him to another room. "You want to know about the men don't you?" She was very perceptive and sighed when he nodded his head. "That child in my sister's stomach isnt yours is it, Gackt-Sensei?"

"I won't lie to you again, Lilly-Chan, but that little girl isn't mind," he whispered looking down at the ground. She smiled gently taking his chin in her hand to stare up at him with her bright orange eyes. He had always felt comfort in her contact covered eyes but there was something about that moment. She was a sister to him just as much as she was to Jamera who was still taking a shower. "I want you two to tell me everything you can remember about those men that hurt Jamera. They were the ones who raped her and I can't let them get away scotch free!" he said seriously and the girls looked to each other before nodding their heads in agreement that they would do as he said. So they told him everything they could remember about the men in the street just a few hours earlier.

Jamera finally got out of the shower and pulled something on over her large body before going down into the living room where the Gazette-boys, as she called them, were in their boxers. Jun and Lilly were giggling madly as Jun laid down her hand to show they were playing poker. Jamera laughed at the blush on the boys' faces as they stood up to grip the sides of their boxers. "Okay you guys that's enough," she said hearing a groan from Lilly and Jun who jumped up furiously to glare at the pregnant woman. "Don't you give me those looks! It's not like I want to see those guys and their poor small little manhoods!" Jun and Lilly glanced to each other then burst into laughter while the guys blushed furiously and indignantly stormed over to the woman.

"Yeah I'm sure we're nothing compared to Gackt right?!" Reita said with a smirk on his half covered face making Jamera blush furiously. In all reality she hadn't seen him naked yet but once---"Come on tell us how large he is, Jamera!" The guys laughed at her flustered face but she just smirked leaning back against a wall not too far from the group. She was going to play along like she usually would to make it seem like nothing was wrong.

Her head leaned back a bit as she crossed her arms across her chest and thought for a second. "Well, I bet he's a lot bigger than the five of you combined!" she said with that evil smirk on her face making them blush with embarrassment. Maybe they actually thought she had seen his penis but of course they thought the child was his so it was a huge possibility. The other two girls were laughing like hell as they had to hold their stomachs to stop some of the pain. "Plus, he's got muscle mass where you five are---nothing but skin and bone!" she told them that wrestling attitude coming back after so long of it being driven away by the child in her stomach.

"Yeah I'm sure this baby girl will be the most sexy you've ever seen in your life!" Jun said stroking the girl's baby with a gentle hand. "With Jamera's stubborn attitude and Gackt's mighty fine looks she will be the envy of all the boys and maybe even some girls!" Jun and Lilly giggled happily as they both laid their hands on Jamera's stomach trying to feel the baby kick but she was probably sleeping right then. "What are you going to name her?" The girl looked so curious but it was a secret until the girl was born.

"That, my friend, is a secret!" she laughed before starting up for her room.

The End

I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did writing it!