the valentines day massacre (2).

oh great. its valentines day and i've got no boyfriend. worse still, i'm in love with my sisters boyfriend, and it breaks my heart knowing he loves her so much. but i cant be selfish. the lads i usually go for are no good for Cel.


we're drifting apart, me and Cel. different music tastes, friends, clothes, and guys - or so I thought.

me and Tim split up. I dumped him. he was too clingy and he fancied Cel anyway. everyone likes my 'perfect' sis. but I can't let my feelings be known. shes been through a lot.


i cant do anything about it cause i know he'll tell Cel everything. and i mean everything! i love Cel more than anything in the world, but i love Lee a lot too. its like Tay's love for Rae. they're so happy together.


the only person i've ever loved like this before Lee was Fen. But then he turned out to be a worthless piece of shit and made me lose my trust in the opposite sex. I lost 3 years of my life down the drain because of that relationship. Why the hell did I put myself through that?


I guess I knew it was coming to the end of me and Fen the day he hit me. After he beat Cel to a pulp, I was in denial, believed he'd had a personality transplant.


But now I realise he was a monster before he went missing. and I kept quiet and look what happened. so I guess I owe Cel. If I'd opened my fat gob, none of this would have ever happened.


I cant face Cels questions anymore so I'm going down the park with Lorna, Helena and Kel. Cel's trying to get answers off me but I wont give them. shes blocked my exit so I punched her. so unlike me and so insensitive owing to the Fen thing.


Cause I know Lee will never give me a second glance, I'm gonna try and go for Joe Jones. Hes 18 and takes drugs but hes so fit!


I always did fancy the 'bad lads'. I dont know why. Before I met Fen, he was a total jerk. Tim was always the most popular guy in school as was Lee when he moved here until people realised he was dating Cel.But Lees not really a bad lad...




Oh shit! i got blond drunk at the park and they left me to walk home alone. anything could have happened to me! Secondly I encountered Lee on the way home, and he escorted me back to my house.

as we turned into my street, slurring a bit, I said "You do know I love you Lee!" and made a pass at him.

He backed away, shocked. "I'm sorry
Sheen, I love Cel and I always will."

Next thing I remember was waking up in a bed full of puke and being yelled at by Cel and the rents. Cel stayed until Lee came round.


Im dreading it!


I'm dreading the approaching moment when Lee tells Cel about last night.


She'll kill me.

She'll hate me forever!


I love you Cel loads more than Lee...


But I happen to love Lee too..............
What do you think?

Thank you for reading!