I'm Marrying Jensen Ackles?!? Excuse Me?!? [11]: Birthday Party

It was time for my birthday party, and for some reason I wasn't really all that excited. Jensen had been weird lately, especially working on the Supernatural scenes since he wasn't sick anymore.
"Dean, this is stupid." Jared told Jensen. "I don't understand why we're here."
"We're here because I'm proving to Lana that this thing about werewolves is a lie." Jensen said.
"Oh is it, now?" I asked, putting my hands on my hips.
Even though it was just a scene, it was really starting to bug me that his tone said something different--that he was actually jealous of the bond that LANA and SAM had. Part of it made me happy to know that in falling for him maybe he was falling for me, but lately he wasn't showing that he cared all that much.
"That's aboslutely right." Jensen said, looking me in the eye for what seemed the first time in forever.
"Cut!" The director called. "I'm not seeing as much love in the look as I was hoping, Jensen. Dean is in love with Lana, he's just too stubborn to SAY anything about it. Let's take a break."
I went straight over to the donut table and I smiled--this morning I had been rushed out of the house with nothing but a thermos of coffee, and my insides were practically screaming at me.
"What?" I asked Jensen as he looked at me.
"Nothing I just...nothing." He said, taking a donut and leaving.
"This isn't how I had planned my birthday." I told Jared as he walked over to me.
It was weird. I loved Jensen--at least I was pretty sure that I did. Sure it hadn't been very long, and I was just now turning nineteen, but he had grown on me so much. That wasn't the weird part though. The weird part was that I was nervous that I kind of liked Jared. It was weird.
Part of it might have been how much I loved Sam on the show. I hadn't ever told anyone, but I loved the show--more than Adrian, and that kind of thing just didn't happen. Maybe that was it. Maybe I was in love with Sam, and Jared was just here to be my safety zone--especially since Jensen had hardly spoken to me since Brett called.
"He's just jealous about your ex-boyfriend that he gets to meet tonight." Jared shrugged, and handed me a coffee cup and I smiled--he knew the way to my stomach.
"I'll keep telling myself that." I said, and drank the coffee, eating my glazed donut before we did the scene again, picking up from Jensen's look and then moving on.
"There's fur here, Dean. I don't think Lana was making this up." Jared said.
"I told you that I didn't have a hair fetish." I told Jensen and he shrugged.
"Lucky guess." Jensen said, and then Jared walked off the set and I sighed.
"You know what, Dean? I'm sick and tired of all of this second-guessing that you do." I told him.
Jensen looked at me. "Who said that you were the leader anyways?"
"Am I ACTING like the leader?" I asked, raising my voice.
"Well it's not like you're just sitting back and letting the professionals handle things!" Jensen yelled.
Sometimes when he got into character, I flipped out a little bit, but right now, this him being mad thing was kind of hot--even if it was just acting.
"I hate you sometimes!" I screamed.
"I hate you more!" Jensen told me, getting in my face.
It was another moment where I hadn't expected to kiss him, but I did. I grabbed his face and pulled him toward me, hoping that this care and concern was genuine, and not all another act. When the director yelled 'cut' this time, he was really happy, and wanted to do the scene again, but I was less enthusiastic--Jensen was acting like it was just a character choice. I wanted to soccer kick him where the sun didn't shine for ignoring me like this.
Lena attitude is back! YAY!
Jensen is so hot when he's mad...*drools*
When we got home, Jensen went to his room and I slammed my door for the Hell of it and went downstairs, at least happy to see Kaydence there blowing up balloons with the canister of helium.
"Okay, what happened this time?" She asked.
I grabbed a chip from the chip bowl and sighed.
"He's still ignoring me." I replied.
Adrian sighed as she stirred the club soda and juice in the large punch bowl with the sherbet.
"Well then maybe you should call it quits. I mean if you're not going to get along..." Adrian began, but she trailed off when she saw the looks that Kaydence and I were giving her.
"Adrian, honey, Lena can't just call off everything. This is what your grandparents wanted, and you can't just run at the first sign of trouble." Kaydence explained.
"Oh, you mean how you ran when you and Jared fought last time?" Adrian asked.
Kaydence glared at her and I spoke up to stop the two from killing each other.
"Look, maybe today is just a bad day for a party. I can call people and cancel." I offered.
Kaydence shook her head. "Too short notice, and imagine how many movie people are going to be here. You can't cancel when the party is in four hours--it's rude."
I sighed and buried my head in my hands.
"Fine, but if he acts like everything is all fine and dandy, my foot will fly on its own." I told her, eating another chip and then going upstairs.
I was very happy that I got to wear jeans for my birthday party. The theme was very casual, and my hair was nice today, so I wasn't worried about that. I was worried about Jensen and I fighting over something stupid in front of everyone.
"Hey, can I talk to you for a second?" Adrian asked.
I sighed. "Shut my door, Adrian. Seriously."
Adrian did as she was told and I began to change while she talked to me--she was my sister, I didn't really care.
"Look, Lena, I know that I'm all over Jensen and everything and you probably won't take this the right way, but...don't marry him if you don't want to. Don't force either of you to do something you don't want to do." Adrian said.
"You're right, I'm not taking this the right way." I told her, pulling on my red shirt and then pulling on my boots.
Adrian sighed. "I wasn't saying it because I want the man...I'm saying it because...well...you ARE my sister and I DO love you, and I DO want you to be happy."
I smiled a little. "Thanks for caring, Adrian, but I WANT to marry him...I just don't think he still wants to marry me."
Yay, Lena! She wants to marry Jensen!
I want him...*closes eyes*
The party was going rather well. Brett showed up fashionably late, and the first thing I did was take him over to Jensen and jared who were talking near the food. We had to weed our way thorugh people, and Kaydence actually gave the brown haired, blue eyed man a once over.
"Jensen, Jared--this is Brett. Brett, this is Jensen and Jared." I said.
Brett smiled and shook both their hands, wincing a little at Jensen, who was smiling, but was obvisouly trying to break Brett's hand.
"You have quite a grip there." Brett said, smiling as well.
"Yeah, well, I happen to work out a little bit." Jensen told him, and I swear he had crossed over into Dean.
It was that smirk. That smile that spells out challenge. It was everything hot about Dean all rolled up into a smirking smile and bone-crushing hand shake. It was hot. It was also the second time today that my body had flushed hot just looking at him. What was wrong with me? I was fine before with the hugging and the kissing, but now...now I wanted to kiss him in front of everyone. I ddidn't care who saw because he was mine--this wonderful, sexy, gorgeous actor...was MY man.
"I could tell. You look like the kind of man that works out too." Brett told Jared.
Jared chuckled. "I'm afraid that we don't do much working out, actually Brett, but it looks like you do. How much can you lift?"
"An elephant probably." Jensen told him, and I sighed.
"Can you guys excuse us, please?" I asked, grabbing Jensen by the arm and dragging him outside.
It was cold and dark out, and there were lots of stars in the sky. I smiled slightly, but then looked Jensen in the eye.
"What the Hell is wrong with you?" I asked him.
"Well you're the one who brought your ex to your birthday party." Jensen said.
I sighed. "Jensen, if this is all about jealousy over Brett...I'm glad."
Jensen gave me a look and raised an eyebrow, bringing back why it was obvious he was Dean.
"What?" He asked softly, not really knowing how to take that.
"I'm glad you're jealous of Brett." I repeated.
"Lena, that is the stupidest--" Jensen began, but I put my fingers to his lips and he stopped talking.
"It means you like me as much as I like you." I told him. "I--I love you."
Jensen looked stunned for a moment and then he smiled slowly and knelt on the ground, pulling a small jewelry box out of his pocket and my breath caught in my throat. He hadn't actually proposed, and this was my birthday, and the ring was silver or white gold, one or the other, and the diamond was beautiful and I felt my cheeks grow red.
Jensen took a breath. "I know that we're already betrothed, but nothing was really ever set into stone, and I--I love you too. Will you marry me, Lena?"
OMG HE PROPOSED! *squeals*
*dreams about Jensen* (ME: Um...dreaming about my future husband? lol)

Well...Jensen proposed!! How amazing is THAT?!? What will she say? You never know with me, now do you?
RATE AND MESSAGE PLEASE!!
(That up there is Lena)