.:Sohma:.The Existing Frozen Heart .:Hatori:. ::Oneshot::

I shiver and pull my coat closer to me as a sharp gust of bitter cold air whips by. I can't tell which is colder, the frigid wintry air that wouldn't seem to stop, or the frozen, bitter that had developed inside what I had left of a heart. Maybe being alone was the best. And the mask I wore protected me from being hurt again.....Yet,it also protected me from my true emotions that I was afraid to even admit to myself.
"Ah! Temyia-san! Is that you?!" The optimistic brunette called Tohru Honda was by far unlike any other girl I've ever met. She was always comforting and sweet, bold and kind...Evrything I always wished I was.
But I'm not like that. I don't have the courage or the confidence to be like her. I was to weak....It makes me feel pathetic and hopeless everytime I was a person with said attitude, it's almost as if they were giving off this light that I didn't have. No....I'm like a dim candle, that's finally about to burn out.
Tohru smiles, though she was gasping for air from running. "It's nice to see you again! I haven't seen you since new years!" She exclaims with that same optimistic smile, and that same optimistic composure. Same optimistic....Everything.
I don't respond, but nod, showing that I acknowledged her greeting. It wasn't like I had shut up my words and refused to speak to anyone, it's the fact that I'm not exactly the talkative type.
Tohru launches into a conversation. Asking me questions back and forth, not giving me the time to answer them, even if I wanted to.
I break this uncomfortable conversarion that Tohru had me feeling trapped in. "I'm sorry, Honda-san, but I really need to be somewhere." I say quietly. That was a lie, and it left me feeling horrible. Horrible for Tohru, by lying just to get out of her attempt at a conversation with me. And I felt horrible for myself. Not like I was giving myself self pity or whatever, but this could have givin me an oppurtunity to become a more extrovert person.
I walk aimlessley through the town. A blanket af pure, freshly fallen snow blankets everything, making the world seem sureal. When the snow melts, what does it become? Yes, I have in fact been asked this question before...By him. He was happy, he was in love. I yearned to have the love that he had. I yearned...To be her, the one he loved. I wanted him love me...Like I loved him. But the only love I could over was sick, twisted....And confusing.
I felt like a crazy teenager who has just realized how it feels to love someone with such conviction, their heart felt as if it were going to burst. It had a releaving and healing effect on me, because proving that I had love for this man, proved that I had feelings, when I thought my heart had been swallowed up by darkness.
But he was still in love with someone else. That was the downside to it. I knew I was no match for this girl...She offered real, pure love. Like the fresh, lear vibrant spring she had said would happen when the snow melted. My love...Was a black hole, leaving me selfishly wanting him all to myself...
"Temyia?" I freeze. No. It couldn't be him...What would he be calling out to me for?! No! I have to get away! Away from him!!
I don't want to hurt him...
"Temyia! Wait!" His strong, warm arm grabs my wrist, halting me from running any further.
I squirm, flailing my other arm around. I din't want to get close to him..."No! Stop! Let go of me! Please let go!"
It takes Hatori ten minutes and a warm cup of cocoa to calm me down. Somehow, we fin a bench that isn't too forzen, and sit down.
"Are you sure you're okay? You seemed really upset..." Hatori asks , staring akwardly at his coffee cup.
I smile slightly. No...It wansn't a smile...It was...Augh! Fine! It's a smile! But only a slight smile. "Yes, I was just a little shaken, that's all. Thanks for worrying."
I was confused. Whay am I acting this way? Normally, I would just be really quiet and say "yeah" What was happening to me?!
The corner of Hatori's mouth twitches slightly, as if he were going to smile. But smile never breaks across his pale face. "That's good." He mutters.
I squirm akwardly, I hated being around people when you were too afraid to say anything. even Hatori.
"Hatori-san...." I say quietly, almost too quietly, I couldn't even hear myself say these words. Yet Hatori did.
"Hm. Yes?" He turns his head so he was facing me. His eyes stapped a knife through my heart. He wasn't staring at me with hate or malovence....But pain and loneliness. I didn't want him to be like that. I wanted him to be happy
I swallow the painful lump in my throat and speak, "I'm....I'm sorry."
He's taken aback by this. Shock spreads from his handsome features, to his eyes, his pale lavander orbs glowed with shock and confusion. "F-For what?"
I look down at my hands, which were clasped together. The cold weather made my hands feel numb...And I was scared. "I'm sorry...."I began. "I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you!!" I blurt out, turning scarlet from both the cold and embarassment. "I knew you were in pain...I knew you were lonely, too! But I was tooscared and selfish to do anything! I couldn't help you when you needed me the most...I....I didn't do anything, and because of that, you've been suffering, holding the pain in the bottom of your heart, alone." By now, tears were pouring from my amethyst orbs, much like my feelings and confession to Hatori."I'm sorry...I'm sorry you had to deal with all this pain by yourself....You don't deserve it...Not at all..."
Hatori is speechless. His eyes show confusion, disbelief, and I can't put my finger on it...But I thought saw a slight trace of happiness behind those many emotions. "Why are you saying this all of a sudden?" He asks after several minutes of deathly silence.
I look up at him, a sad am=nd melancholy smile on my lips. "Because....I love you...." For some reason, I felt as if I had been wandering through the world with this tremendous weight on my back, and within that short confession, the weight was lifted, and I felt weightless.
Hatori's eyes widen, and it tugs at my heart. This was it. I knew it would end like this. He would tell me he appreciates me saying this, but he doesn't feel the same way. I sigh. "I'm sorry. I said too much..."
I am about to get up and leave, but Hatori speaks before I get the chance. "No...Not at all..." Hatori places his hand over mine. "You didn't say too much....Thatnk you..." Hatori tilts my head so I'm facing hiim with his free hand. "I..Love you too." And he places his cool lips to mine.
I sit there, shocked and speechless, until I give into it,and place my arms around his neck. Hatori pulls away and stares into my eyes.
I smile. My first genuine, 'pulled-from-the-heart' smile in a long time. "I finally found you..."
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My whole life, I felt as if I were walking the same path...Sure, time after time, someone would cross my path, but I couldn't handle the emotions and happiness of these people, so I would run away. I was walking the same snow covered path, only one pair of footsteps....But now, I can look down, and there is another set of footsteps...
I never walked alone again.

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My first oneshot! I hope you guys liked it! Espically you, Mia-chan! I'm sorry if it was too dark! I did all that I could. -_-'
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