Where I Want to Be ::Three::

I was grounded. No my mom didn't find out about the party, I'm grounded because I lost my cell phone. I thought Lauren had it, but she told me that she gave it to me; which I don't remember at all. I don't know why my mom grounded me, so I lost my cell phone big deal. I hate being stuck in my room, I can't do anything. The computer in my room has parental controls. I can't even go to simple web sites, like MySpace. I don't even want to go there, but I want to at least know that I can.
My parents, mostly my mom are really religious. My mom wants me to marry a respectable catholic boy, she already has her eyes on someone that I go to Church which. My mom is driving me insane! She doesn't let me choose what I want. What if I don't want to marry a catholic guy, what if I don't want to get marry at all? My mom nearly had a heart attack when Dylan, told her that he was gay. She kicked him out of the house, and he was just seventeen. She doesn't know it, but I go visit him during the weekend. He has a boyfriend, who he is living with. He's happier than he has ever been. I wish I could be like him, choose the guy I want to be with, not have one chosen for me already. She says that I'm the only hope left, the only one left to give her grandchildren. She doesn't want me to go to college; she wants me to get married right away. She said that women are meant to stay at home, take care of the children. No way, am I going to get married at eighteen. I'm going to college whether she likes it or not. I want to have a life, I don't want to be like her, and I’ll never be like her.
My mom disapproves of everything I do, like the music I listen to. She calls it 'devil music' which I don't think The Beatles are. I love them I listen to them all the time. They're my all time favorite band. The Beatles are classic, she should know about them, my dad likes them. He is the one who secretly buys me everything of them. He bought me a million posters, and thanks to him I have most of their records.

It was Saturday night, and I was stuck at home alone. My mom and my dad left to have a 'romantic' night together. My mom told me not to go out, but she didn't tell me that I couldn’t invite my friends over. I know that they aren't coming home anytime soon, so I called my friends and invited them over. I didn't feel like changing, yeah I have been wearing the clothes I went to sleep in. I had on a loose shirt and shorts. What’s the point of getting dressed when you know that you aren't going anywhere? I know I'm lazy I just hate being here at home, even though here is where I spend most of my time. I put in my favorite movie of all time, Mean Girls. I don't care that people think that movie is stupid, I just love it.
Lauren, Alley, Liz, and my somewhat friend Maria arrived shortly. I was only half way through the movie. I quickly got off our sectional couch, and hurried to answer the door. They all came in one by one. They were too dressed up, for a movie night.
"That’s what you're wearing?" Liz asked pointing to my clothes.
"Well it’s not like I'm going anywhere," I replied.
"Yeah, but you can’t let the guys see you like that!" Alley exclaimed.
"Guys," I snapped, "Do you know what my mom will do to me if she finds out I've had boys in the house? She'll kill me. They can't come."
"Relax Elyse," Liz replied coolly. "You said that your parents won't come back until eleven, we will be gone by then."
"No, no, I'll get in so much trouble."
After a few minutes they convinced me, but I said that they all needed to be gone by 10:45. My mom and dad went to some play, and it ends at eleven. Liz, Alley, and Maria were in the living room setting up the DVD player. Lauren was helping me pick out something to wear, even though I told her it didn’t matter, but she kept insisting I can't be dressed like this. I was sitting on my bed watching Lauren go through the neatly hung clothes, in my closet.
"I thought you’d get to buy your own clothes," Lauren said.
"I do buy my own clothes," I told her. I know that I don't have a good fashion sense. I don't dress like they do; they like to wear short skirts, and tight shirts. I do not, first of all because if my mom saw me wearing clothes like that, she would probably lock me in the basement and never let me out. Secondly because I feel really uncomfortable, and I don't like showing too much skin, I get really intimidated.
"You don't have a single skirt," She replied slightly disgusted.
"I don't like skirts. I barely like wearing the school uniform."
She sighed and told me that we really need to go shopping together sometime. My mom gave me money every month to buy new clothes, and things I need for school. I grabbed a pair of random jeans, and my favorite Beatles shirt. I'm obsessed with them. Lauren disagreed with my outfit, she didn't really say it, but I could tell.

I went back to the living room. Maria was trying to figure out how to work the DVD player. I myself still found it really difficult to make it function. I heard Maria and Liz arguing, about pushing the wrong button. "So, what movie did you guys bring?" I asked.
"Oh this really awesome movie," Maria replied. "It’s called Y Tu Mama Tambien."
"It’s a Spanish movie, I don't understand Spanish." I chose to learn German instead of Spanish.
"Subtitles duh," Liz said rolling her eyes.
"But it’s the weekend, I don't feel like reading," I whined.
"Jeez Elyse, stop whining its going to be great," Lauren said. "Guess whose coming?"
"Uh, I don't know, The Easter Bunny?" I asked sarcastically. I love my friends, but God they can sometimes be so damn annoying. I was really pissed off at them I couldn't believe they invited guys over. They know how strict my parents are, especially my mom.
"Someone is moody," Alley muttered, as she sat on the couch.

It turned out that of the few invited guys, Seth was among them. Liz kept whispering at me saying that I should be dying of embarrassment. I don't really care what he thinks of me. So I threw up, and made a fool of myself, I was intoxicated, I wasn't myself. I barely sat down when that guy from the party, whose name is Kyle by the way, started hitting on me. I got up from the couch, grabbed the bar stool, and sat on it from behind the couch. That way I didn't have to be near anyone. I couldn't help but noticed that Liz was already all over Seth, but he wasn't paying attention to her. I tried my hardest not to look at him, but I couldn't help it. I quickly glance his way, he was looking at me. I blushed and looked away. The movie was starting. Lauren quickly put on the subtitles.
"This movie is awesome," Maria said. "It’s like a semi-porn movie."
"What," I questioned loudly.
Maria started laughing, "Only because you are like the only virgin left in school doesn't mean you can't enjoy the movie."
I heard the guys snicker. I hoped that Seth wasn't one of them. "I-I'm not the-" Now I remember why I never really became close friends with Maria. She never realizes that her little outburst can really hurt people. I really wanted to say something back, but I couldn't. I was speechless.
"Oh please Maria, you haven't even gotten to second base," Lauren commented. That’s why Lauren is my best friend; she always stands up for me. We have each other's back. She is the only one I can trust with my deepest secrets.
"That’s not true," Maria replied defensively.
"Shh you guys the movie is starting," Alley said. Alley is always the one to calm us down, when we start arguing over stupid little things. She is the smooth over.

I sat there and thought maybe this movie won't be so bad. I was wrong; the first scene was a sex scene. It made me really uncomfortable. I stood up, and went into the kitchen. I made a mistake; I should have stayed home alone instead.
I sat down in the kitchen on top of the counter. I ate the chocolate cake I began eating earlier. The house phone started ringing. I jumped off the counter, and hurried to answer it. "Hello?" I tried to balance the phone in one hand, and the cake on the other.
"Hey sis," Dylan called from the other end of the phone.
"What’s up?" I asked smiling warmly. I hadn't heard from him since last week.
"What are you doing tomorrow?" He asked.
"Do you even have to ask," I snorted at him. "Church duh!"
"Oh right, well how about I pick you up after school on Monday?"
"Can't I'm grounded," I sighed. "Wait, I can tell mom that I'm going to the library to study. She'll believe anything that has to do with school."
"What did she ground for?" Dylan asked.
"I lost my cell phone," I answered rolling my eyes. "She told me that I have to be more responsible."
"Typical mom! I'm glad I don't have to deal with her anymore. I have to go, see you Monday."
"Okay, I love you."
"I love you too."
I really miss being around my brother. He was like my best friend. We got along great, he would include me in most of the things he did. I was pissed off at my mom when she kicked him out. My dad didn't do anything about, even though he was okay with the whole gay thing. I've always known he was gay, he told me when we were younger. He said that he was different from other boys, it never bothered me. I will always love my brother no matter what.
I hung up the phone, and then I noticed that Seth was leaning against the door way. "Do you... where's the bathroom?" He asked. His voice sounded incredible.
"Second door on the left," I answered pointing down the hallway. I watched him as he walked away. He looked amazing; the jeans he was wearing were not tight, but not loose either. The black t-shirt he was wearing clung to his body. I never felt such an attraction for a guy, like I did that moment for Seth.
"Elyse!" Lauren waved her hand in front of my face.
I snapped out of my daze and looked at her. "Yeah?"
She was smiling, her big goofy smile. "You like him," she teased. Her red hair looked incredibly red in the light.
"I do not," I denied. Seth came back rather quickly. There was something about the way he moved, slowly and deliberately, that drove me crazy.
Seth was now standing in the kitchen, looking uncomfortable. "Hey," He said.
"Seth, guess what?" Lauren said, she was clearly mocking me. She took the cake out of my hands and began eating it herself.
Seth stood there waiting for her answer. "What?" He finally asked after a while.
"Lauren lets go we're missing the movie," I replied pulling on her sleeve. She started walking back to the living room.
"Wait what were you going to say?" Seth asked.
Lauren turned around. "Oh nothing," She said, and I let out a breath of relief, glad that she wasn't going to tell him. "Just that Elyse likes you," She replied before she smiled and walked off.
He looked at me with raised eyebrows, "Really?" Then his face broke out into a boyish smile. He made my knees go weak.
I stood there with my mouth hanging open. I laughed at bit, at first, "S-She's k-kid-" I walked out of the kitchen as well, I had no idea what I was going to say. I sat down on the bar stool, and glared at Lauren. She just smiled innocently at me.

The movie was really weird, and finally over. I had to look away from the sex scenes, which were often, but I admit it, the guys were hot. I did my best not to look at Seth, he thinks I like him. I don't even know him enough to actually like him. I think he's attractive, but that’s it. I looked at the clock. It was eleven. I pulled Liz's arm, yanking her away from Seth. "Everyone needs to go, it’s eleven," I told her.
"God, calm down. We're leaving; we have to go to a party anyway," she replied as she patted my shoulder.
"At eleven?" I asked. I wish my parent would let me go out in the middle of the night. I know that will never happened, unless I go to college, then my mom won't have any control over me. I was so into my thoughts that I didn't hear anything else that Liz told me.
"You're doing it again," She said as she shook me out of my daze. "Why do you always wander off?"
"Huh?" I asked looking at her briefly. My mind wandered off again. I thought about Seth, and his smile.
"We're leaving," Liz said snapping her fingers in front of my face.
"Oh yeah, see you Monday," I waved goodbye to them as they left.
Lauren came up and gave me a hug, "Sorry, I shouldn't have said anything."
"That’s okay," I replied smiling at her, reassuring that everything was really okay.
Seth was the last one to leave. He was standing there with his hands in his pockets. "Well bye," he said, in a low voice that was almost a whisper.
"Bye," I said. I really wanted to say that I would see him later, but I really didn't know if after this night, I would ever see him again.
He started walking toward the door. He opened the door, but before he stepped out he turned around, "Elyse, that’s a really nice name." Then he left, shutting the door silently after him. I wanted to say something back, but he left so quickly. I really wish I could see him again.