Raine's POV
Why couldn't my life ever be simple? I felt like no matter what I was blessed with, my life wouldn't ever get better and nothing would be good enough. I had fucked up again in my life and I knew it was the worst that I had ever screwed up before. I had betrayed the trust of the one man who's trust I didn't ever deserve and it killed me deep down inside. I couldn't keep doing this anymore. I couldn't keep hurting everyone that I was close to. Marissa was blaming Dan for Rupert's mistake and their young relationship didn't deserve that. Of course I haven't told her my secret because it would send her over the edge. How do you tell your best friend that you have cheated on your fianc with the entire groups worst enemy? Is this all I was meant to be? A traitor? I couldn't allow this to go on. Not on my watch. I knew what I had to do.
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"Marissa you can't be mad at Dan because of this," Jenn said reasonably as I paced around my bedroom, "It's not his fault."
"He was still drunk," I argued, "First of all, if he had shown a little more self control then he could have stopped Rupert from making this huge mistake, second of all I just don't want him going and getting drunk."
"Well the first is Rupert and Raine's issue to deal with," Jenn said, "Don't go blaming Dan for their issue, it's not right."
No, I said, He wasnt able to stop something that he could easily have if he was sober, THATS why Im mad at him.
For being drunk? I nodded before she continued, well thats his choice. Dont let something like that get in the way of your relationship with Dan.
Im not going to date someone who goes out and gets drunk, I said sharply, Because whos to say that he wont get drunk enough next time to where HE will do something stupid?
Jenn looked at me in astonishment, Youre not seriously doing this are you?
What are you talking about? I asked narrowing my eyes.
You fleeing from Dan just because he made one mistake, she said, Its like youre making an excuse as always.
What are you talking about? I asked truly confused.
Its what you did when you liked Kevin and could have had him, said Jenn, You said that he wasnt enough like you so you broke up with him. I didnt tell you then but Ill tell you now! Youre commitment phobic, Marissa!
I am NOT commitment phobic! I shouted.
Yes you are! Jenn shouted standing, Thats why you wouldnt date anyone at Tech or Clemson!
Jenn, the reason I didnt date anyone is so that I could get to where I am now! I snapped, Im not afraid!
Marissa, said Jenn closing her eyes to calm down, Ive been your best friend for six years now-
Then you should fucking know me better shouldnt you? I cut her off and grabbed my purse and walked out of my bedroom and to the den and slammed the door and locked it.
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Oceane could sense that something was wrong before she even got out of the strange, foreign hotel bed that she was lying in. Maybe it had something to do with the wedding ring on her left ring finger, the fact that her head was pounding with a hangover, or the man running his fingers through his red hair as he talked on his cell phone. She sat up and covered herself with a sheet and got out of the bed and sat next to the man who looked at her with sad blue eyes.
Marissa, he said into the phone, Ill call you back later, okay? Alright bye.
He hung up his phone and didnt even look at her, for he was too ashamed.
Hi, she ventured.
Finally he looked back at her with his baby blue eyes and tried to smile, Hey, he said before looking down again, I guess- I guess were
Married, Oceane finished for him, Im Oceane by the way.
Rupert, he said, Its funny. Usually this is supposed to go in the opposite direction.
Yeah, laughed Oceane slightly as she laid her head on his shoulder and put her hand comfortingly on his, If you want to get an annulment Id understand.
Its just that Im getting married to the love of my life in a month, said Rupert slowly.
I understand, she said as she got up and gathered together her clothes.
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I sat down at Dans computer and turned it on and waited for it to boot up as I ran my hands through my black hair in distress. I was so sick of this drama and I wanted it to end already. I logged into AIM and waited to see if Dan happened to be on. He wasnt and so I decided to check my myspace as an IM window popped up from Chris.
CcolVERITAS89: hey
famouslstwords18: hi
CcolVERITAS89: hows it going?
famouslstwords18: just peachy
CcolVERITAS89: Im sorry things arent going well
famouslstwords18: what makes you think things arent going well?
CcolVERITAS89: you only say just peachy when things ARENT going well
famouslstwords18: observant..
CcolVERITAS89: wanna talk about it?
famouslstwords18: no
famouslstwords18: thanks though
CcolVERITAS89: anything I can do?
famouslstwords18: since youre halfway around the world from me I doubt it.
famouslstwords18: again. Thanks.. Why are you being so nice all of the sudden?
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I shook my head as I decided to log off and leave the den and go into the kitchen where I saw Alex and Dan, who had clearly just arrived home, in a deep discussion that stopped when I entered the room, so it was obvious what they were talking about.
You guys were talking about me werent you? I asked sharply.
Marissa, said Jenn getting up.
No Jenn, I said putting one of my hands up to stop her, I dont even want to hear it. Dan, I want to talk to you in private please.
Okay, he said getting up and following me into my room. I shut the door as he sat down on my bed, Most couples greet with a kiss, not a talking to.
Can it Dan, I snapped which shut him up immediately since I had never spoken to him like that, This is serious.
Okay, said Dan as I sat down beside him.
I dont know if this is going to work out, I said not looking at him, Maybe we should break up.
No, said Dan.
Excuse me? I said looking at him.
Im not letting you give up that easily, Dan said smirking, Jenn told me you were going to try to do this, well Im not letting you.
I really dont think that its completely up to you Dan, I snapped, Its over.
No its not over, he said pulling me close and lowering his voice, You are going to give me a chance, youre not going to run away from a relationship this time, because deep down you know that this is going to be worth everything that has happened in the past eight months and everything that I hope wont happen, but can inevitably happen.
Needless to say he was convincing me, but what I didnt know was how, What are you doing? I smirked at him.
Im convincing you to stick with me and to give me, give us a try, said Dan.
I know that, I laughed, But how?
Ever seen Star Wars? Dan asked me.
Of course, I said kind of seeing where this was going.
Know the Jedi mind tricks?
Oh dear god, I said falling back on my pillows and covering my face with my hands, Youve got to be fucking KIDDING me!
Nope, he laughed, I can do it.
So youre saying that Im weak minded? I said feigning hurt, Thanks!
Youre quite welcome, Dan grinned as he fell back beside me and put one hand on my leg, So what do you say? One more chance?
Fine, I sighed, But no more drinking, no more late partying and no more vacationing without telling me first!
Deal, laughed Dan as my cell phone rang.
I sat up and reached for my cell phone and picked it up, Hello? I said trying to ignore the fact that Dan had sat up and was now kissing my neck and reaching his hand up my shirt making me shiver.
Marissa? said Ruperts voice, Raines dead.
What? I said jumping up in shock.
She killed herself! he cried.
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