:..::~Mommy, Why me? Why am I Cursed?~ ////Kyo Sohma\\\::..:(21)[empty hope]
The fact that he is calling my name make my heart jump, but the pain of him not coming after me out weighs that small happiness. Kyo's voice soon fades, and I stop for a rest, still breathing deeply.
"Why...?" I question, tears starting to run down my face. "Why am I so-hic-pathetic?"
"I don't think you are pathetic..."
"W-why are you here..." I ask, turning around to look at "Ryuzaku?"
"I was out for a walk... What's wrong?"
"Nothing." I reply whiping the tears away with the back of my sleeve.
"Then why were you crying?"
"It was nothing!" I snap. No! Bad! No taking it out on other people! I keep telling myself that, and yet I still take it out on everyone else. It's not their fault my life sucks.
"Night-chan, it is something, I can feel it." Ryuzaku says, sitting down next to me. "You do realize you can be yourself around me, right? You can trust me." He puts his hand on my shoulder every so lightly. I look away from him, because I know--no matter how much I want to believe otherwise--that I CAN trust him. There is just something about him that I know I can trust, something in the sinserity of his voice, the love in his eyes and the gentlness of his touch that tells me so.
I take a deep breath to clear my head. I want to tell him so bad, but there is something keeping me from doing it. There is something that won't let me tell him.
Tohru is the only person outside of the family that knows of the secret, and she is so understanding and forgiving--not to mention kind of dim--that is seems impossible for anyone else to be like her.
"Night?" Ryuzaku asks again. I look up at him with my bright yellow eyes.
"Well... It's just that..." I trail off. It is going to be so hard to open up to someone after this long. "I am cursed..."
"Nonsense Night, no matter what you say, you don't have a curse. No one gets hurt or anything when they are around you, and you are always fine." Ryuzaku comforts. Man is he off from the truth.
"No... Not like that..." I take another deep breath. "Like this." I close my eyes and wrap my arms around his neck. I feel the familar tingling and...
Poof!
I sit as a white wolf, my yellow eyes even more pronounced against the white fur than they were against my pale skin. Ryuzaku stares at me wide eyed. In that instant I wish that I could just turn and run but Ryuzaku's arms are still absentmindedly wrapped around me. I close my eyes to keep the tears from flooding out.
I was right. There was no one else as understanding and accepting as Tohru is.
I quickly wiggle free from Ryuzaku's grasp before he even realizes whats going on and I am running away, my paws thumping against the cold pavement. It's good it's night. Not too many people will see me. I keep running and running and running. If I run far enough maybe I can leave my troubles behind. I don't even know where I am going, I just keep running, letting my feet lead me.
Then I see where I am going. It grows larger and larger the closer I get. Last time I was here it wasn't a pleasent visit. I finally arrive at the main gate of the Main House and stare inside. I easily get around the gate and head for a house. Akito's house. I don't know why, but I need him. I need him now.
Akito is sitting out in front of his house playing with a bug.
"Night" Akito says smiling as he turns his attention to me and my tear-stained fur. He sets his hand on a folded square of fabric.
I climb up on the deck next to him and rest my head on his lap. Akito wordlessly puts the blanket over my back.
"Don't worry, I sent Hitori to take care of your friend." Akito says, petting my fur. "This is why we can't trust anyone outside of the family." Akito's soothing voice is like a lulaby to me. My eyes start to droop. I don't want to talk to him right now
Poof!
I changed back, my head still resting on his lap. How could everyone be so bitter to someone like this. I close my eyes and fall asleep. This is more than I deserve.
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I wake up and I am still outside, the blanket is still wrapped around my bare body, but Akito is gone. My head was on the cold ground. I stand up, careful to keep the blanket wrapped tightly around my body so that I don't reviele anything.
"Akito?" I question, my quiet voice echoing threw the empty grounds. I open the door to the house that I slept in front of and walk in.
Hitori is inside with Akito giving him... or should I say her a check up. I try not to show the shock on my face. There are sure some odd things within the Sohma family.
"Did you want something?" Akito asks, smiling gentally.
"I don't want to live at Shigure's anymore. I want to live here."
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