Zac Farro||You've Got A Lot Of Nerve||12

I knew that it was a bad idea for Alex and me to make out on the Paramore bus. I knew that either Hayley, Josh, Jeremy or Zac would catch us. It was inevitable. Still, I did it anyways. What a stupid, foolish mistake.
It broke my heart to see Zac's face when he discovered Alex and me making out. He looked like his dreams had been crushed into a million tiny pieces. I had broken his heart. Before I could say anything to him. He was gone. I couldn't find him the rest of the night.
The next day I broke things off with Alex and packed my bags. I was going to go home. I couldn't stand to be in this environment anymore. When Jeremy asked why I was leaving, I told him that I was homesick. There was no way that I was going to reveal my true reason for leaving. It'd be better if I didn't.
Zac didn't say goodbye to me.
Before I left, I placed an envelope on Zac's pillow. Inside of the envelope was a letter. The letter explained everything and told him that I was sorry. I just hoped that he wouldn't hate me. I didn't want him to, but I would totally understand if he did.
I didn't cry until I got home.
I regretted running away from the mess that I had made, leaving the others to clean it up for me. I should've at least stayed until I could explain things, but I didn't. The past was passed.
But there was always the future.

If you give up, you'll get what you deserve....
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