patrick||Homesick at Space Camp||stump [011] (Jimmy's Journal)

Alex, you left today. I can't help but feel so lost without you, Allie. It's weird how as soon as you left I ran up here and started writing. I can't wait until the two month period we decided on is over. As soon as I can, I'm going to visit you in Chicago.
You know how people say you never know what you have until it's gone? I know how that feels now. I just realized, I love you. I'm so stupid, but I guess I didn't want to believe it before. I though it might ruin our friendship somehow. If I hadn't been so scared before, we could have had months, maybe even years.
Alex, I'll love you forever.

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'Ha, tell that to Carlie. Enough bullshit.'
Alex turned the page.

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I met a girl named Carlie today.

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Jackpot.
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She's so much like you. She has your eyes, and your smile. I feel bad about it, but I can't help but be drawn to her, when I'm missing you so much. I know that it's like going from heroin to pot, but I don't know what else to do.
Allie, when we kiss I imagine it's you.

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Alex had gotten it all wrong. She had to get downstairs before Jimmy read anymore of her journal. She ran downstairs and rushed into the livingroom.

Jimmy, I-
But Jimmy was gone. The notebook was lying on the coffee table.
Opened on the last page.
i was your silver lining
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ily guys.