Inseparable [Joe Jonas] Shameless \\ Chapter FOURTEEN.

About earlier? I think my mom is pretty oblivious to my sneaking out habits. She hardly said a thing to me today, to be completely honest. Which, of course, is the way I like things.

"So where are we going this time?" I asked, and he shrugged.

"I don't know." He replied.

"We're just... like... walking to nowhere?" I questioned.

"Pretty much." He answered.

"God, there really is nothing else to do in this town." I stated, half to myself but he gave a soft laugh at it anyways.

"So, did Kevin say anything about this morning today?" I'm really hoping that he forgot about it. It's already bad enough that Nick is convinced that I'm madly in love with his brother, and that I'd love for something to happen. Not that that's exactly a lie, but it's something I'd rather keep to myself. And I definitely don't need Kevin taking his guesses about where we're standing either, thank you very much.

"Nope, nothing." Joe responded as he glanced over at me.

"Oh, well, that's good." I simply commented.

"Would it be so bad if he did?" He asked in return. I definitely didn't see that one coming. I looked up at him, trying to read his face but as I've already figured out, it's not the easiest thing on the planet.

"..uh, no. It just probably looked bad, that's all. I'd rather not have to explain why I was there. I'm not even really sure what I was doing there, actually." I said, feeling a little less confident than I had two minutes ago.

"It's not like we were doing anything wrong. We were just hanging out, friends do that sometimes you know." He defended teasingly.

There it was again, friends.

"No, I know that. It just... might have looked different than that." I stated.

"But it wasn't." Thanks for that one, Joe. Remind me just how much you wouldn't be into anything happening between us. Actually, why don't you just crush all hopes I have about everything while you're at it?

So I'll just be stuck on any thought that this could be more than what it is, and he'll keep pressing the fact that it isn't, and probably won't ever be. How frickin' wonderful.

"Umm... yeah. You're right, it doesn't matter." I dropped the subject, and we fell into silence. Not a very comfortable one at that, but at least we weren't talking anymore. Jeez, for someone who always seems to know exactly what to say, he knows how to say the wrong thing too, doesn't he?

How did I get here again? For a second there, I was completely anti-Jonas. Avoid these boys at all costs, don't get involved, forget about them. For some reason now, I'm not even trying to stop them from being my "friends".

I change my mind just as often as Joe changes his... everything. He's loud, then he's serious. He's treating me like I'm everything and he can turn around and make me feel like I don't matter at all. This was enough to drive a girl insane and trust me, I am on the edge of sanity here.

I bet he's messing with my head on purpose. Joe probably knows exactly what he's doing to me, and he's just sitting back and enjoying the show.

I'm never gonna get it.

So I guess I'll just stay here, pathetic and shy and insane and entertain the person I can't help but want, badly. I never should have admitted these stupid feelings to myself in the first place.

I shouldn't have let myself believe he could have maybe wanted me at all either.

Damn that stupid, annoying, cruel, gorgeous boy.

I'm probably not even close to his type of girl anyways. I don't even come close to anything Kay was, and thank god for that, by the way. I bet she's just as loud and outgoing as he is. I bet his dream girl is perfect, just like him. Good at everything, beautiful, fun, perfect hair, perfect body. I bet she'd know how to make all the boys feel like idiotic dorks just like I do right now, including Joe. I bet she'd know how to drive him nuts, and I bet he'd love it and hate it the same way I do. He wouldn't be able to get enough.

I'm just plain, simple Lily. Troubled, yes, and completely crazy. I never know what to say, I'm not particularly good at anything, I'm not all that interesting and totally unsure of myself. And I don't know how to let myself fall in love.

I bet Joe's perfect girl would know exactly how to fall in love.

"I wish we had a pool right now." Joe randomly stated. I was about to ask him why, but I noticed the house we were passing at the moment before my words got out. It was big, and white, and I could see the pool in the backyard. It was a big, underground one that made me wonder if Joe had lived a few blocks away from celebrity or something, and just never mentioned it. It wasn't as dramatic as something you'd see on Cribs though, it was more simple. Still, very cool.

I took in the neighbourhood. The houses were a nicer than mine and Joe's, not to say they weren't nice but all the ones on this street were cleaner, every single lawn was bright green and freshly cut, the paint all looked brand new. These peopled really knew how to do things up.

"My parent are friends with the people who live there, so I've been swimming in it a few times, it's so awesome." Joe told me. "They're out of town for like, a month. Probably vacationing somewhere awesome." We came to a stop in front of the big house with the pool.

And something in my head clicked. I don't know why, or how, but it did.

No, I know exactly why.

It's time to show him that you're not one to be messed with, Lily Bennet. He thinks he's got you all figured out? Well he's wrong. How about you be his dream girl for a night?

"So, Nobody's there?" I asked.

"Nope."

"Not for a whole month?"

"That's what I said."

I smiled, giving myself props for coming up with an idea that was so... unlike me.

"Come on." I ran for the fence that surrounded the house and when I approached it, I reached for the top. I started to pull myself up, over the fence.

"Lily, what are you doing?!" Joe asked, running up behind me in a tone that implied I had completely lost it. Ha, he doesn't know the half of it yet.

"I'm going swimming." I simply stated as I threw my legs over to the other side of the fence.

"Are you completely insane? We can't!" He protested, but I was already jumping down onto the grass on the other side of the barrier.

"Why not? Nobody's here to catch us, it's perfect." I replied.

"Yeah, except for the fact that it's illegal!" He complained, and I rolled my eyes at the wooden fence that now stood between him and me.

"Fine, if you don't want to, I'll just go by myself. It won't be all that fun or anything but..." I trailed off.

"Will you just please get back over here?" He begged, and I bit my lip, smiling harder.

"I'd thought you'd be up for something like this. I guess not." I tested.

"Hey, for the record, I do crazy things like this all the time. My nickname is Danger, just so you know." He proudly claimed, like it made up for him still standing on the safe side of the fence right now.

"Oh really? Prove it." I challenged.

"What?"

"You're not acting all that dangerous right now, Danger. I think I still need a little proof that you can really live up to that name."

He was silent for a minute, and I smiled even harder as I saw his hands grip the top of the fence, giving in. Joe lifted himself over the top, and was soon beside me.

"What now?" He asked, waiting for my next unlike-me move. I shot him a quick smirk before I started toward the pool.

"Get the other side." I asked as I started lifting the tarp off the pool. He took the other side of it, and we moved it off the pool from one end to the other together.

The pool looked like it was glowing from the darkness all around it. I bit my lip, trying to keep my cool and make myself believe that this really was a good idea. I am so not this kind of girl, I like the law. I stay on the good side of the law. I don't break into pools with cute guys late at night. But the feeling that we could get caught, that we were doing something bad felt a little good once I got past the part of myself that the riskyness was completely killing right now.

"...so?" Joe asked, looking at me from the other side of the pool, waiting for my next crazy move.

I took a quick breath, and got back in the game.

"So what?" I cockily replied, tilting my head to the side slightly as I looked at him teasingly, like I had seen bad girls do in so many movies before. I just hope to god I don't look like an idiot right now.

Joe stayed quiet, continuing to stare at me. I wonder if he feels stupid yet. I know I would.

I had to take a second to prepare myself for my next stunt. I took another breath, and I reached for my shirt. I peeled it off and let it fall to the ground beside me, now only my dark purple bra covering the top half of me. Thank god I chose a cute one today.

I really hope I'm not coming off a slutty as I think I am right now. I'd rather come off more... bad. More... sexy?

I had to keep myself from laughing at myself as I thought about that. Me? Sexy? This was an epically bad idea, because there is no way that I, Lily Bennet, could ever come off as sexy.

But you're not Lily Bennet tonight, remember? You're somebody much more exciting than that.

I felt nervous as I looked back to him, praying he wouldn't be laughing at me and my terrible acting. He wasn't, he just... starred. He was completely still and his eyes were locked on me. I'm not sure if this was a bad thing, but I told myself it could be worse.

I kneeled down and started to untie my favourite converse, which for some reason felt so wrong for tonight. After pulling them off, I stood back up and reached down for the button of my shorts and undid them, unzipped them and pushed them off of my hips. They fell to the ground, and I stepped out of them, pushing them aside with my foot to the pile of my shoes and my shirt. Looking down at the pile, I felt nervousness attack my stomach again.

Why am I doing this? This was an incredibly bad idea. A really, really, reeeeally horrible idea. Now, here I stand in front of Joe Jonas in nothing but my underwear.

Embarrassed, I swallowed hard as I met his eyes again. I wasnt sure what to do now, I'm half naked and extremely shy, or the real me was anyways. I placed my hands on my hips, unsure of what else to do with them and I tried to stand as straight as I could, like it would trick him into thinking I was still as confident as I was, well, when I had clothes on.

Joe wore a surprised expression on his face. Maybe if I was lucky, he had even less clue about what to do than I did right now. He didn't still didn't move, he didn't attempt to undress himself like I just had, nor did he look like he was about to break into laughter either. I couldnt tell if it was good surprise, or bad surprise that covered his face right now, and I think that's what made me nervous the most. I couldn't read him, and it made me feel like running. This was all a huge, huge mistake and I should have never tried to act like some stupid...

girl that he might be interested in for a second. I haven't changed myself for anyone before, why start now? Sure, I want him but what is this really the right way to make that happen? Not that it's even working, of course.

I suddenly felt angry, at him and at myself. He says he wants me to be myself, but he doesn't want that the way I want him to. And it doesn't seem like he wants this either. So why must he keep being so damn difficult? And why does he keep making me feel like such an idiot. I wish he knew how it felt, for once. Which was the whole purpose of this whole act, right?

I don't even know what the purpose was, actually. Did you really think you'd get him like this, Lily? He stills knows the plain, boring you from about an hour ago, this isn't going to do anything but backfire on you completely.

No, forget it. Forget everything you always think about times like these. You're not yourself tonight, so stop thinking like it. This isn't over yet Lily, get back in the game.

I hate games.

I straightened myself out again. What would a fearless, strong, confident bad girl unlike myself do right now?

I stepped toward the edge of the pool, and with a final breath, I dove in. I wasn't going to wait, I wasn't going to think about this any harder. I hit the water and there was no turning back.

I did it, I broke into somebody elses pool and now the only thing to do was to convince Joe to do the same.

I reached the surface of the water, and pushed my hair back out of my face. I looked up at him, smirking.

"You coming in or what?"