Since the incident, I have stayed in the hospital. Everyone was at school, not knowing what happened to me. I told Syaoran and Eriol to keep it quiet. I remember Syaoran object to that.
" But Momoka-sama!" he objected loudly," I think people should visit you. You shouldn't be alone again!"
I knew Eriol and Syaoran would be at the house working. It's twice as bad when i know that when i go home, none of my family is home. Eriol and Syaoran are like brothers to me, but I know they are not my family. I have no family to care for me anymore. I remember counting Syaoran's statement with a little witizism. The indigo haired boy, the counterpart, just sat next to me having a sad face. He didn't need to say anything, for I knew he was going to say the exact same thing.
"But it is my true intention for those close to me at school to not worry about things and give me false hope that things will be alright," I said with a halfhearted smile.
Syaoran said nothing else. I knew he was worried about me, but I decided to let that go and let him live his own life.
It was hard to cope with since I couldn't express myself or my feelings anymore. When a bird's wings are clipped off, they can no longer have a reason to live. That's what I heard my father say to me before my mother died. He also told me, You must have a reason to live in this world to fully attain living. He then said with a smile that he lived for his wife, my mother.
I then teared up a bit. It then put guilt on me that I should have never had. When my mother died, I guess my father, no, Konoha had no reason to live. He then had me to blame. I guess he was scared of death. He missed my mom, thats all.
I then missed Kyouya, who I knew would be there for me. I had that false hope I didn't want dwelling in my heart. I chuckled a little as I could just stare at the ceiling. My heart sank and then I wondered, would anyone miss me?
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Days had passed, I couldn't tell how many. I could just hear nurses clatter their feet and doctors saying news to the other patents. I knew nobody would come and visit me. The IV drip started to not feel painful. After a bit, the doctors let me sit up. It was much nicer, I could see everything. I slightly smiled.
I rested for a bit and then the silence was disturbed by the rushing sound of wind and the noises of destressed men. My ears perked up and I looked to the door with a clear sight.
The moment that followed was just like a view through a video camera of a person's happiest moments. Like when you were a child and it was your first birthday, didn't you parents smother you to death with pictures?
It was exactly like that.
I saw the familiar faces of the Host Club; at that very moment rush in into my room and have the saddest faces ever. Tamaki was howling,"Momoka-chan!!"
Honey was crying. My heart tore a little bit. The twins had their sadder face on. Mori was just, well, Mori, but had a glint of grief in his eyes, it was hard to tell. Haruhi was looking depressed. Then there was Kyouya.
He was starstruck with disbelief and worry. He was like the big brother of the group, or "Mother", but now he was looking out for me. He was the first to rush over.
I, of course, was the most suprised because I wasn't expecting them to act all sad for me. Or maybe it wasn't acting at all? I hoping for that.
"Kyouya..." I said in disbelief. My eyes blinked a couple of times before I realized that my family was right in front of me, and I had never noticed it before. Kyouya took my hand. He gently carressed it.
I sadly smiled and wipped away tears with my thumb, as my hand touched his cheek. Kyouya was so sad and scared for me; I had never seen him like this before.
"Everyone..." I said, looking at the others at the door,"I should have told you, I know, but I didn't want you all to worry."
"Worry?" said Kyouya,"I was more worried about why you hadn't been at school for so long."
Honey was choking and crying,"You didn't give me your cakes. I missed them a lot. Momo-chan, I missed you!"
He then jumped onto my lap and hugged me. It was weird, for me, because I didn't feel pain that much. Honey was being careful with my body.
I was so teared up I started sobbing, too. It was a tearful scene for everyone.
I placed my arms around Honey, even though he was my senpai, and brought him closer to me. Kyouya then wrapped his arms around me. I cried harder and tears fell onto Kyouya's sleeves.
"I..." I muttered,"I...m-missed you, too."
Then I noticed everyone wrapping their arms around me. It was then I realized that I would not be missed by my family, but by my friends.
That was good enough for me. I knew then for sure they were not acting.
