When You Look Me In The Eyes -- Joe Jonas, Ch. 17

"What the hell do you mean there's no room for her!?" I said pretty loud.

"Joe, you know this isn't what we want. We would love it if Kara came but there just isn't room" Kevin said. I was furious.

"Honestly, there really isn't even room for Frankie but we'll have to make room for him" Nick threw in.

"No. This is bull. If we can make room for Frankie, we can make room for Kara".

"Come on man. This is Frankie. Of course we can make room for him. He's family" Kevin said. That pissed me off.

"Yeah? Well Kara is my family. So you better find a way for her to come" I said walking away. I was so mad. I walked off stage. I saw Kara look at me, knowing something was wrong. I walked out of the room, slamming the door as I left. Three seconds later, Kara came out.

"Joe, what's wrong?" she asked.

"They're such idiots. All of them" I said. She came and sat down next to me.

"Joe, what happened? I've never seen you this pissed at your brothers. They're your best friends" she said. I turned to her and put my hands on her cheeks.

"No. You are my best friend" I said kissing her cheek. She stared at me.

"Joe. Just tell me. What is it?" she asked again. I put my hands on my lap and looked down.

"Our tour with Demi Lovato just got moved up to Friday" I let out a huge sigh.

"Baby, that's great!! In two days! Why are you upset?" she asked. I looked at her.

"We'll be gone for a month".

"So what? Mr. Clarence will watch the place for us" she said. I stared at her.

"Oh....there's no room for me. Well, that's okay. I'll just have to manage for a month with out you. It'll be hard but I can do it" she said. I looked at her.

"But, I really want you to come".

"Babe, I'd love to come but if there's no room, there's no room. That's it".

"Of course. They make room for Frankie but..." she punched my arm gently.

"Of course they need to make room for Frankie. He's your brother. He's family". I looked at her yet again.

"Yeah but you're my family too. I can't be away from you for a month". She kissed my cheek and put her arm around me.

"We'll make it Joe. Don't be such a drama queen" she said. I tickled her and she started laughing.

"Joe, we'll talk to each other every night and eventually you'll come back to New Jersey and I'll be front row, cheering you on. Kay?". She always knew the right things to say.

"I love you" I said, leaning up to kiss her. She stopped me.

"Wait" she said. I was confused. She reached into her pocket and grabbed her lip gloss. I started laughing. She put it on, then slid it back into her pocket.

"Okay, now" she said. I laughed again then kissed her. Just then, I heard someone behind us. It was Kevin.

"Well, you can't take her away from me now" I said. Kevin was upset that I said that. Kevin looked at Kara.

"Kara, we're not trying to--",

"Kevin, you don't need to explain. I completely understand" she said smiling. I got up, pulling Kara with me. We started walking to the car when Kevin yelled to us.

"Joe, dude, we really are sorry" he said.

"Joe, you can't be mad at them. This isn't their fault" she said. We got into the car.

"Kara, it's not fair. You've become the biggest aspect of my life, bigger than the band. The band will be around for a while but you know we are going to be around for much longer". She smiled.

"Babe, that's really sweet but you can't take this out on them".

"Yes I can Kara. If they really wanted to, they could have made room for you".

"No they couldn't, babe. They didn't make the size of the bus". I looked at her.

"Why are you sticking up for them?".

"Honey, I'm not. I'm just saying that this isn't anyone's fault, except the maker of the bus". I felt like Kara was making up excuses for not wanting to go.

"Do you just not want to come?" I said, starting to get upset.

"What? Joe, you know that I want to go. But you can't get mad at them for this".

"Just be honest. You don't want to go". I was acting like an idiot, I know. But I was so mad that she couldn't go. And I was even more mad that Kara didn't seem upset.

"Joe, why are you acting like this?" she asked me as I was walking into our apartment.

"I'm not acting anyway, Kara. It just sucks to know that my girlfriend that I absolutely love with my whole life doesn't care that I'm leaving". She stared at me.

"Joe. Stop it" she said.

"Stop what, Kara?! I'm trying to get over being heartbroken that you can't go and you're probably already planning the millions of things you're gonna do while I'm gone in your head!" I said as I packed for the tour.

"What do you really think I'm gonna do while your away, Joe? Coz I'm not gonna have fun" she said.

"Yeah right. You'll probably have a whole bunch of people over, go out partying. Well, Kara, do what you want then I guess. It's not like you care what I do".

"Joe, what the hell is wrong with you?! I understand you're mad but I didn't do a damn thing to you. Stop acting like a baby because you didn't get everything just the way you wanted it!!" she started yelling. I had just finished packing my overnight stuff. Just then, my phone went off.

"What?" I said.

"Woah, what's your problem?" Nick said.

"You. You and Kevin. What do you want?".

"I just wanted to tell you that you need to come back now. We have to get an early start for the tour".

"Fine" I hung up. I grabbed my car keys and walked towards the door. Kara stopped me.

"Joe, you're not even gonna say goodbye?".

"Why? It's not like you care" I said walking out. Why the hell was I acting like this? I loved this girl with my whole heart. And as much as I wanted to, I couldn't go back and apologize. This whole situation was making me crazy. I love her so much.

I drove back to the band room, mad as ever. I got out, slamming my door, grabbed my bag, and found them. Nick came up to me.

"Dude, please don't be pissed. I know you're mad but" I lightly pushed him away and walked over to the car. I put my headphones on and just tried to calm down. Finally, everyone started getting on the bus. I jumped in and found my way to the back. I just wanted to chill there with my headphones still in, without talking to any of them. My mom motioned to take them out so I did.

"Okay, we're gonna go get Demi and then we are on our way" she said. Nick and Kevin were stoked. I rolled my eyes at them and put my headphones back in. Before I did, my phone went off. It was a text from Kara:

Damn. I was an asshole.