the next day as you were heading down for breakfast you ran into syazel but you were nervous because you didn't know if you should talk to him or not but he just smiled at you and you smiled back sincerely
"good morning! how were you today?"
he asked as he stopped to talk to you
"i'm doing fine and yourself?"
you asked him back as you were happy to know that there was someone else in this great big mansion of people beside gin and aumi that were actually nice
"i happen to be doing very well"
"good!"
"are you heading down for breakfast?"
"why yes i am"
you said with a small smile on your face
"well then would you like to join me?"
he asked with a friendly face
"umm..."
you thought about it for a second and remembered the note gin had left you that morning
"Alana,
i'm not going to be able to make it to breakfast with you this morning i'm terribly sorry but i promise you that i will be able to meet up with you around 11:00 so you'll have to do without your favourite person until then"
then you rolled your eyes at his last little comment and looked back at syazel
"of course!"
you said happily
and you were both on your way to breakfast and then you realized as you got to the kitchen that it was different and then you also realized that you didn't go the same way to get to this kitchen
"um.. do you mind explaining to me why they're two kitchens in this place?"
"well you see we espada don't always get along to well so we all have our own kitchen you see?"
"oh okay then i guess that would also explain why nobody comes to breakfast in the other kitchen it must be gins then"
"yes that's exacly right except that gin is above all us espada so he get's his own everything but he's nice enough to share something if we need it he's really a good guy ya'know?"
"really?"
"of course!"
"hmm.... well then i guess i was right after all......."
you mumbled to yourself under your breath
"what was that?"
he asked you as he finished his breakfast
"wow you eat fast!"
syazel chuckled at your suprised face
"yeah i know usually i'm in a hurry but today i'll stay a little longer since you haven't finished eating yet"
"uh okay thanks then"
you said as you went back to eating
you both talked about some other stuff until you finished and then you looked at the clock and realized that it was 10:40 so you told syazel about what gin said and he offered to walk you back to your room since you took a different way to breakfast this morning when you got back to gins room you thanked syazel and he walked off with a "see ya later" and then you opened the door to gins room and it was still empty but you looked and found it was only 10:58
so you walked over to the bed and layed down and closed your eyes thinking to yourself that he would be here any minute
about two minutes later you thought you heard something so you opened your eyes to look but all you saw was gins face hovering over your own and of course he had a great big goofy smile on his face....as usual
"what do you want this time?"
you said with a smirk on your face
"i want to tell you something!"
he said looking like a kid on christmas morning
"okay... what?"
"well first i want something back because what i'm gonna tell you is a secret"
he said with a familiar smirk returning to his face
"oh geez gin...."
"what?! i just want a little kiss?.....please?"
you sighed and rolled your eyes and for some reason you didn't actaully care about kissing him for the first time you were kinda looking forward to it which also kinda scared you
".....fine"
"yay!!!"
you covered your ears and then he pulled you up and of the bed and dragged you over to the closet and closed the door
"whan the hell are we doing here?"
"if someone else besides you hears this it will be the end of me.... literally"
"okay?"
"well you see i really don't know how to say this so that you'll believe it but i'm going to say it anyway so here goes..........i'm really not working with aizen but i've been in it since the beggining when i was aizen's luitenant(sp)all that time ago in soul society it was all an act the soul society thought that this might happen and when i came to work there they talked to me about it and said that they thought i was perfect for it so the joke is really all on aizen they had over heard aizen talking to tousen about doing this before i even arrived and so i have been under cover all this time and the whole taking you thing was kinda my fault yes but well......i have kinda had my eyes on you the whole time since you arrived at soul society and didn't really want to be away from you all this time sooo... yeah"
you just stood there wide eyed trying to take it all in and then you finally realized what he said completely and looked straight at him
"you know......i..actually......believe you?"
you said very suprised with your answer yourself
"oh well... thats good! see my real plans here are to kill aizen and the espada and then return to soul society... but you but you can not tell ANYONE about this got it?!"
he asked while getting closer to your face
"of course not!"
you said with an honest face
"good. so you better not call me evil ever again or you will pay the price got it?"
he said with a playful face
"oh... is that what you meant when i called you evil and you said that i didn't know that for sure?"
"yes of course. what else would it mean?"
"i don't know i was just making sure"
he chuckled at your answer and then he picked you up and opened the closet door and walked toward his bed
"now i get my promise"
he said with a big smirk as he did a eyebrow wiggle and then he set you down gently on the bed and crawled on top of you
"gin?"
"yeah?"
"why did you tell me this in the first place?"
"well you want the honest truth?"
"yes"
"are you sure? i can't promise you'll like the truth?"
"yes gin i'm sure
"okay well.... i'm absolutely in love with you"
he said under his breath
"wha.. what?"
"i said i'm in absolute love with you"
he said louder this time and you definately heard him
"o-oh"
you said looking in the other direction but he put his hand on the side of your face and turned your head to look at him and he slowly and gently kissed you and you felt weird again but it wasn't a bad weird it was a good weird and you wanted more of it but he pulled away from you and you looked at him in a curious manner he looked you in the eyes and said with the gentlest voice
"do you love me too?"
"i-i don't know..... but everytime i'm around you i feel different and lately...safe and whenever you smile at me i get this weird feeling in my stomach and when you kissed me just now...i wanted more and i think i am in love with you but if i am......i-i can't say it right now i'm sorry but i just need some time to think about it...."
"okay that's fine you don't have to say it back as long as i know that you do"
he said witha small smile
and you smiled back and then he leaned in and reattached his lips with yours it was still gentle and soft but you wanted more so you wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him into you more and he got your message and started to kiss you more forcefully and then he sarted to rub your thighs and you had never felt this way before but you knew that you wanted something to happen so you reached to the back of his t-shirt and started to pull it up without breaking the kiss and eventually you had to break it to pull his shirt all the way off and with his help you pulled yours off as well then he sucked at your neck and worked his way down until he started kissing your stomach and you were absolutely turned on now so when he came back up and looked you in the eye you instantly pulled him down onto you again and he chuckled at you
"feisty now aren't we?"
"shut up and give me what i want"
you said as you pulled him down onto your lips but he pulled back and looked at you with a smirk
"what was that?"
he asked you
"what?"
you asked
"give me what i want?"
he quoted you and gave you a curious expression
"i want you now"
you said with a plain expression on your face
"not until i know that you really do love me though"
"what?!"
"yep sorry but honestly i don't want to take something that special from you until i know that it is me that you love"
"fine.i love you"
you said without emotion
he laughed again and then he gave you a serious face
"i'm very serious you know?"
"ugh! you can't do that to me!"
"what do you mean?"
"all this time you've been waiting for this moment and then when it finally happens and i actually am okay with it you turn it down?! what the hell gin!"
"well that's what i thought too but now that it's actually happening i just can't do it"
"yes you can to! and besides i'm totally willing here! it's not like your doing something bad"
"i know you are but that could very well be lust you know?"
"no it's not"
"i think it is i mean no need to be shy i know i'm really tempting but your going to have to refrain yourself okay?"
"what?!"
you said angry as he got up off of you
"until i am absolutely sure that you really are in love with me i won't do that to you sorry babe"
he said witha smirk and then walked out of the room but you weren't going to let him get away so you walked after him and when you made it out of the door he was gone once again you sighed in frustration and walked back into the room and sat down on the bed and started to think about what he said and you calmed down and realized that he was really just looking out for you and that ymaybe you really weren't ready for that yet but one thing you did know was that you were in love with him......
okay i kind of half assed that one and i also halfassed my first shou story too but i promise it will be better than that so i'm going to go write another chapter for that one and i hope you actually liked this one okay
but i will tell you that i'm going to disney world this monday and i'll be gone from the 1-6 of december but when i get home on the 6th i'll try to update because i really hate to make you guys wait so terribly sorry about that but it'll be decorated for christmas YAY!!!!!! did i mention that i'm a disney freak? yeah i know weird that i write these stories and love disney at the same time but i'm really weird like thatso yeah... anywho i won't be updating until the 6th unless i update tomarrow so sorry again and i hope you can forgive me ^-^
much love
dolly <3
