Do You Feel It Too?[Seung Ri OneShot]

“Cindy!” a voice shrieked pulling me into the dark, into the crevice under the stairway of our school,

“KYA-“

“Stop it! It’s me, Seung Ri.” He sighed uncovering my mouth.

“Oh, Seung Ri oppah, I was wondering where you were. I never see you sitting down to eat lunch in the cafeteria…” I blew out a breath of relief.

“Well…think about it, I mean…in the cafeteria, there’s a bunch of girls…do you think I want to get attacked anytime soon?” he whispered looking at me with wide eyes.

“You can get attacked in this school?” I said giving him a queer look.

He looked back at me like I was a retard, “Ah, of couuuuurse nottt, definitely not with my status and looks.”

I glared back at him, “Okay okay, I get it, god I’m not stupid you know.

He sighed loudly, “So what are you doing after school?”

“Uhm, what do you mean?” I asked confused.

“Here, follow me first for a second.” He took my hand and led me up the stairs, onto the roof of the school.” The middle of his face was tinted a smooth pink under the sunlight.

“Oppah, do you have a fever?” I scolded, reaching my palm up to his forehead.

He slapped my hand away lightly and his face only turned redder, “It’s fine, I’m not sick, if I was, I wouldn’t be in school then. Back to what I wanted to ask you, what are you doing this afternoon?”

“My job…?”

“I know that, but who are you shooting today?” he asked quietly while looking down and playing with his fingers.

“Hm…I think SHINee today… why?”

“Don’t get too close to them…” he chided, looking back up at me.

“Why are you so worried?”

“It’s just that you’re supposed to be the photographer for YG only, but recently you’ve gotten so popular, that even SM wants you too.” He sighed.

“YG will always be my favorite.”

“What if Minho begged you to be his girlfriend, but only if you joined SM and leave YG…would you do it?” he smirked.

“Ehm…uh…o-of c-c-ourse not.” I stuttered, glancing around at my surroundings.

“Suure…” Seung Ri sounded defeated at once, “Well, where are you shooting at? The normal place for SM?”

“Yeah, I think so…why? You’ve never been so entranced by my work.” I snickered looking back at him.

“It’s nothing like that; it’s just…well if I never liked your work, do you think I would have recommended you?”

“That’s true…”

“Well either way, after you’re done with the shoot, don’t leave, I’m going to pick you up after.”

“Uh…okay?” I said, wondering why he would want to pick me up. An awkward silence started as we both looked toward the horizon, a faint sound blasted downstairs within the school, “Oh look, oppah, the bell has rung. See you later!” I grinned, running back in, and down the stairs to math. When I glanced back at the roof, no one was coming down the stairs. *Did he stay up on the roof?*

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“Bye everyone! See you guys tomorrow.” I screamed waving back at my friends and scanning around for Seung Ri oppah…who was nowhere to be seen. Instead, I looked for the SM limo that was coming to pick me up. *There it is.*

I nodded at the driver who opened my door,

“Thank you.” Getting into the limo, I stared outside the window again. I hated it when the drivers stayed silent the whole ride, making me feel so uncomfortable. I sighed quietly as the limo drove on. I looked at the scenery that blurred by, nothing seemed different, everything continued on without a care.

The driver scoffed and opened the door for her once again, this time he nodded back, “Have a good time.”

I nodded as well and walked in through the doors.

“Cindy Ahn?” the doorman asked, “SHINee is upstairs waiting for you.”

“Ah, I see, thank you.” As if I had memorized every piece of SM’s building, I found myself riding on the elevator to the shooting set.

“We are SHINee, please take care of us.” A set of boys said in harmony as I exited out. I couldn’t help but smile,

“I am Cindy Ahn, and you should be the one taking care of me.”

They smiled back, “Do we need to introduce ourselves, nuna?”

“Excuse me, but do I look that old? I’m only 16…” I sighed, looking down.

“Oh, no! Sorry, ha-ha it seems Taemin will be the only one who needs to call you nuna then.” One of them laughed, “We’ll introduce ourselves.”

“I am Onew, the leader of SHINee and I am 19.” A boy with brown black hair swept to one side laughed, “You don’t have to call me oppah.”

“I am Jonghyun, the main vocals of SHINee, and I am 18.” A boy whose hair looked similar to Onew, but with smiling eyes announced, “You can call me what ever you want dongsang.”

“I am Key, the rapper in SHINee, and I am 17.” A boy whose brown hair was ruffled, “Call me formally, please.”

“I am Minho, the 2nd rapper in SHINee, and I am 17 as well.” He smiled at me, and I had to sigh, he was just too cute, “You can call me whatever you like.”

“And I am Taemin, the lead dancer in SHINee, and I am 15…the youngest,” He looked away and looked down, acting shy, “I guess I will be calling you nuna then.”

“Ah, it’s okay, don’t worry. You guys are all so kind to me for recommending me,” I grinned at them.

“A talent like yours deserves to be recognized; well, let’s get started.” Key said nodding with the others.

“Okay, so tell me your theme and the album you’re shooting for…” I said taking a look at which cameras I should be using.

“Uh, this isn’t for an exact album yet so I guess, debut? Also, there is not an exact theme, but I guess hot and um…expressive but like, each individual is different, but the group picture is similar?” Taemin said, unsure of himself and his ideas. “Is that right Onew-hyung?”

“Ah, just about, I think,” he whispered back to Taemin.

“Do you guys want to do singles or group first?” I asked looking at them.

“I guess singles, so Onew-hyung, you’re up first.” Minho smirked.

“Ahhhhh! The hate of being the oldest.” Onew cried as he went back to get changed.

“Neh, nuna, who else do you shoot for?” Taemin inquired, looking straight at me.

“Ah, Big Bang is the main one for me, but sometimes Super Junior and I guess Se7en oppah.”

“So it’s a mix of SM and YG?” Jonghyun wondered, oddly interested.

“Yes. Oh look its Onew.” I smiled letting him get into position, “Wow…that is colorful…”

Taking some shots of Onew, I took shots of the others as well, little chatting happened between us.

“Well, Cindy, show us our best shots.” Taemin said looking into my computer.

“Okay, well here they are in this order, Onew, Jonghyun, Key, Minho, and of course you Taemin.”

“Wow, they’re all so good; is that our group?” Key said, amazed by the skill and expression.

“Yep!” I laughed, “I’ll send them to you guys later. Gotta go now! Bye!” I screamed, running back onto the elevator and giving them one last wave.

“Bye Nuna!” Taemin smiled once again before the elevator doors shut.

“CINDY!” a voice yelled when the doors opened.

“Seung Ri oppah? What are you doing inside SM?” I asked confused.

“I said I was going to pick you up, didn’t I?”

“Oh...yea…” I felt embarrassed.

“Let’s go to the Oceanside, okay?” he asked helping me into the limo.

“Mmm okay…” that was the last thing I said until we arrived.

The whole ride was filled with a painful silence, Seung Ri scoffed a few times, and I smiled back at him, but that was it.

“We’re here, sir.” The driver announced opening the door for me.

“Oh, thank you.” Seung Ri nodded, helping me out of the car.

We were on a deck, hanging above the sea that was crashing down below us. There was a nice, white marble fountain there as well, a koi fish wrapped in sapphire waves, spouting water out…

“Oppah, why are we here? I’m so hungry…” I whined rubbing my stomach.

“Cindy… remember when we first met?” he asked looking out into the ocean with me.

“Uh…no?” I laughed.

“Never mind then.” He sighed, “I need to talk to you about something.”

“Hm?”

“If a man, loved a woman, since they met, and he wanted nothing but them two together, but he wasn’t sure if she returned his feelings, do you think he should still ask her to be with him?”

“Of course, giving up is stupid.”

“Then, Cindy, lemme ask you this, will you be my girlfriend?” Seung Ri asked, turning to me.

*WHAT THE HELL!?* “Ah…oppah…I…um…” I looked away blushing…a star like him…liking me?

“What do you say?” He gave me the hopeful eyes of his, his face still straight.

“…I can’t…” I whispered. Slowly, his face shattered with my words.

“Why…”

“I don’t feel the same…just like that woman in the story.”

“Oh…then I guess…giving up is stupid…I’m stupid…” Seung Ri slowly turned around, his back facing her, “I was stupid…believing that you’d be the one…”

That hurt…

“Oppah, look, I’m afraid…AFRAID OF LOSING YOU! What if things don’t work out? WOULD WE STILL BE FRIENDS?! Are…are you one of those guys…who when you break up…eternally ignore and degrade your exs’…I’m sorry oppah, but this friendship is too important to lose…” I cried still staring at his back.

I heard Seung Ri softly laugh, “Haha, is that all? Coward…you know…that’s all you are Cindy, you’ve always been a coward…I had to recommend your distasteful work…it was degrading for me to have such a non artistic eye. I was probably used wasn’t I? I’m going to go home first.” He walked away slowly into the car, into the darkness to home.

“What was that…did he not care about our friendship…” I murmured looking into the fountain, at my reflection…tears slid down my reflection.

[Seung Ri’s POV]

“DAMMIT!” I screamed, kicking the side of the car, “WHY THE HELL DID I SAY THAT?!” I was pissed; pissed to such an extreme that I had ran off my mouth…damn it... I slid opened my phone and looked for her number. I quietly left her a voicemail as the driver drove on.

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[Cindy’s POV]

Seung Ri was calling…ignore this call? Yes…One new voicemail, listen?... Yes…

‘Cindy, look, I was pissed and hurt, I’m sorry for the things I said unintentionally…

I’m disgusted at myself, but you will NEVER feel the pain I had felt…’

“Did you really think that oppah…” I mumbled as I turned my cell phone off.

[Seung Ri’s POV]

“Sleepy time…” I grinned to myself as I changed out of my clothing until the phone rang, making me stumble. “Hello?’

“CINDY’S NOT BACK YET!” a girl screamed on the other line.

“Uh, who are you?” I asked, unsure if she was just crazy or whatever.

“I’m her roommate, Cindy’s not back in the dorm yet…” she cried.

I looked at my clock; it was already 2am. What the fuck was she thinking? “How did you get my number?”

“I thought you were the one closest to her…your number was in her diary multiple times.”

“Oh…” I stifled a laugh, “I got it, I’ll go out.”

“Thank you…bye.”

Putting my jeans and tank back on, I called her cell… it was off; I kept calling as I got into the car, where would she be? “Driver, cruise around town please.”

He nodded and drove steadily, at a slow pace. My eyes darted around and around, looking for her…where the fuck is she…then it was there. There was a hunched shadow on the rim of the fountain swaying back and forth.

“CINDY!” I yelled as I got off the car.

[Cindy’s POV]

“CINDY!” a voice screams.

“Sounds like him already.” I whispered laughing to myself; I dipped my fingers into the fountain, feeling the cool water suck me in. I drew anonymous shapes on the surface of the water.

“CINDY DAMMIT!” a voice screams again…footsteps followed. I faltered a bit and looked up.

“Seung Ri oppah?”

“Why are you still here?” he asked.

“I felt it oppah…I felt it…right here.” I mumbled patting my heart, “I felt it, but you said I wouldn’t. I’m sorry, now I know how much it hurts.”

He embraced me into a hug; it felt so warm and safe, “I don’t care Cindy, I’m sorry for yelling at you.”

“Hey oppah,” I remained still in his arms, “If I felt it, does that mean I love you? I felt this unimaginable pain in my heart; felt like it was being twisted.”

“Cindy, stop it, don’t force yourself!” He said, nuzzling my shoulder.

“Oppah, I love you…”I cried onto his shoulder, “You were right; I am a coward. I was too scared to return your feelings; I was only scared that we’d lose this friendship.”

“Trust me; no matter what we go into, what we mess up on…I’d never let something like this go.” He whispered back to me, only making the hug tighter than before…