Let's take a look at the life of a girl who lived in a small town, and hated it. There were a lot of things she hated. She hated her family, hated the society, hated the people, but the thing she hated most, was her own precious life.
Her name was Faith, and she was placed in this world 16 years ago.
She had a strong personality, which meant she was stubborn, smart, strong, and caring for her beloved ones. But there weren't many who belonged in the group of her beloved ones. This world was way too cruel to be her friend. Fate hated her
It was true, it was proven, fate didnt want to have her as a friend. She was now at the age that she began to understand that this world was playing a game upon her.
She also knew that it was time, to do something about it, she would no longer be a victim, she was prepared to fight. Deep in her heart she knew it was pointless to offer resistance, she had tried so many times, but every time she failed. Each time she failed miserably,the next time will be the last time.
She was carrying all this mixed emotions with her for years now, there was no one she could talk to about it, not anymore. Because it was them who left her, they left her all alone in this world, leaving nothing else behind but pain and sadness.
She still remembers it like it only happened yesterday, she can still hear the terrible sound in her head, the sound of fear, of agony, of death...
The soft and peaceful sound of the rain could be heard outside. There you were, lying in your bed, with your eyes wide open. You were staring into the darkness that had filled your room. You were not afraid of the dark, there were many other things that were worse than that. You were used to it. Though it took you some time to realize it. But you learned quickly, you were clever.
It was getting really quiet, the rain stopped falling out of the dark sky, and nothing could be heard anymore, only the soft whispers of the wind. You liked the wind a lot. It gave you a sense of safety. It seemed to be your only friend in times of loneliness. And you had those times a lot. Every time you felt lonely and sad, you just sat down and listened to the wind. You pretended like it could hear you, like it could understand, and help you. But you knew there was going to be a time, that not even the wind could help you. You often thought about it, but you didnt know that this time would be sooner there than you expected.
You couldn't fall asleep, you were thinking about too many things. How you wished this all would be over, how you desired to have a normal life. But it would never be normal again,you knew it. You were sick of thinking about it over and over again.
Thats why you were afraid to go to sleep, you knew the images and thoughts would even hunt you in your dreams. The only place that was always so safe and warm for you, the bitterness of the hard reality even reached you there. Your eyes were now filled with tears...Once again you cried yourself to sleep.
The warm sunlight was shining through your curtains the next morning. You slightly opened your eyes and were ready to welcome the new day. You walked up to the window, still in your pyjamas, and slowly removed the curtain. You looked out the window and saw an amazing fall landscape. The trees were losing their leaves, each coloured in several shades of brown, green and yellow. You admired fall, ever since you were a little kid. Yes, you can still remember those days, the days of happiness. The days when you and your mother walked in the forests, together. The thought of you jumping happily in the fresh leaves popped suddenly into your head, and a little smile appeared on your pale face. You opened the window, and breathed the fresh cold air in.
You walked over to your closet to take out some clothes you would wear this day. You decided to take out a pair of jeans and a simply black top underneath a black sweater. "I look like I'm dead but when you look at me I'm still alive", you sang softly as you were putting on your clothes. You liked to sing, even though you never admitted it, but you loved it. As long as no one could hear you.
You went downstairs to grab some food and to think about what you were going to do this day. You headed downstairs and you reached a room with no living soul in it.
"Hello?", you asked carefully, "anyone", here? no one replied. "Typical" you said to yourself. I wonder where they're now.. "heck, I dont even want to know, they probably didn't return from a party yet, or something like that"
Because that, was exactly what your parents did. It seemed like they only lived for one thing, having fun, and completely forgetting about their child. You felt anger welling up inside your body when you thought about your parents. "SCREW THEM!", you screamed while you hit the door with your fist. You didn't care about the pain it caused, it was nothing compared to the pain you felt because of your parents.
You were now so angry at them, that you forgot the reason why you where in the room. You grabbed your skateboard and ran as fast as you could out of the house.
You stepped on your skateboard and drove away, not knowing where to go.
"Im just a kid and life is a nightmare", you heard the lyric in your head, "so true" you thought. Before you really noticed where you exactly were, you found yourself in a dark place, surrounded by many high trees. Your eyes were used to this darkness, you realized where you were. The forest, your beloved forest.
You decided to go to your favourite place, by the lake. It was your place where you could find peace, and where you could think about things. With no one to interrupt you. "This place is even more beautiful during fall", you spoke softly to yourself. Once again you let the cold, fresh air fill your lungs. "She, was the wind carrying in all the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget",could be heard by you singing, as you were walking along the lake.
The wind was playing with your long black hair, and you enjoyed it. You enjoyed every minute of walking and singing, of being there alone with Mother Nature.
There was even a time, a tiny bit of your lifetime, that you felt happy. You felt the sunshine tickling your face and you began to smile. You closed your eyes automatically and kept on singing.
You were in total peace with yourself, and you felt strong. Once in a very long time you felt satisfied and happy. Happy, until you felt the ground underneath your feet slipping away...
The silence and peace were disturbed by a deathly scream, followed by a sound of rough water. You panicked and did not open your eyes...You realized what just had happened. The icy cold water filled your mouth and nose, you weren't able to speak anymore. No sound could escape your mouth. "Help me!"..you yelled in your head."Please help me!"..You were in shock, you eyes widened, and once again you felt helpless, helpless for the very last time... and your soul drifted away... you sank slowly. Sank to the bottom of the lake, with your eyes still wide open. The wind was blowing uncontrollably, it cried, it wept because of the great loss it just went through.
The time you feared had come, it brought you to the end, and this time was not even your precious wind able to save you, this time, it couldn't protect you. It failed, miserably...
Faith..the wind softly sang..
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