[Ch8] Power Of the Five: Book One- Water

Chapter Eight- The One who wants a mother

I cursed to myself as I dragged myself home, training with Itachi had been tough, hours of meditating and trying to get to my Chakra, apparently my Chakra worked with my emotions and because I had built up a wall years ago around my heart, I couldn’t access my Chakra.

But I don’t want to break down the wall because I hate crying, I used to get bullied for being even remotely human like crying, I don’t want it to happen again, it’s too painful to go through a second time.

The walk home had been uneventful except for when someone yelled at me to die and go to hell, luckily the barrier around my heart stopped most of the emotional pain, but I still ached.

Why? Why were people hated this way for being different? Why do Jinchuuriki have to go through this?! Was there a God? Why were people suffering like this? Why must they hurt Naruto, Gaara, Tanaka-chan and.... me. Why? What did we do you you? Why us? Why are you doing this to us?

My questions were unanswered, my eyes were tearing up with the bitter tears which I hadn’t shed for a long time. I wiped my eyes but the tears didn’t stop, luckily the girls were already asleep when I got back to the apartment, flat whatever you call it.

I went into the kitchen and just stared into the cooling, dirty and soapy water in the sink. My thoughts turned bitter and painful.

~Memories~

“Why can’t you be more like your sister?”

“...”

~*~

“Why can’t you be normal?!”

“...because-”

“Don’t back-talk young Lady, I’m your mother so I know better!”

~*~

“God, why don’t you just stop crying you baby!”

“Stop being so emotional.”

~*~

“Why are you watching that Japanese shit?”

“This is baby stuff.”

“It’s not, it’s for 13 !”

“You’re pathetic!”

~*~

My eyes snapped open when I realized I had almost fallen face first into the sink. I felt faint from the pain, I ran into the bathroom, locking the door behind me as I slid down the back of the door and my butt hit the white tiled floor with a thump.

Someone had left the radio on, I didn’t want to listen to the song playing, but I didn’t move, I couldn’t even if I wanted to.

I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom to make it all better
I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom who will love me whatever

Tears sprang to my eyes. My mother didn’t love me, that’s why I had left to live with my dad.

I want a mom that'll take my hand
And make me feel like a holiday
A mom to tuck me in that night
and chase the monsters away
I want a mom that'll read me stories
And sing a lullybye
And if I have a bad dream to hold me when I cry

She always made me feel like shit if I liked things such as anime; day dreaming, climbing and doing my own thing. She’d always think I was looking at porn or something on the computer, she’d always be watching over my shoulder, inpecting me like I was a doll that needed to either be mended into perfection or tossed into the garbage.

Oh,
I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom to make it all better
I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom that will love me whatever, forever

And she would always try and pressure me to come back and live with her so she can get money from dad, child benefits and demanding and getting more than she needed for HERSELF an my oh so PERFECT little sister.
When she says to me, she will always be there
To watch and protect me I don't have to be scared
Oh, and when she says to me I will always love you
I won't need to worry 'cause I know that it's true

And everyone always wondered why I hated my mother, my mother wasn’t really a mother, she was just someone who was using me to suck my father dry of money and make sure he was crushed and gone, history.

I just want to strangle her! My hands clenched as I thought of ending that cow’s misery, fake smile, obviously fake love, always favouring my sister...
I want a mom when I get lonely
Who will take the time to play
A mom who can be a friend and a rainbow when it's gray
I want a mom to read me stories
And sing a lullaby
And if I have a bad dream, to hold me when I cry

I just want a mum like how the song describes, one that’ll love me no matter what...

Oh,
I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom to make it all better
I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom that will love me whatever, forever
I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom to make it all better
I want a mom that will last forever
I want a mom that will love me whatever, forever
I want a mom
I want a mom
I want a mom that'll last forever
I want a mom that'll last forever
I want a mom
I want a mom
I want a mom that'll last forever
I want a mom
I want a mom that'll last forever
I want a mom that'll last forever
I want a mom...

Some wishes come true... but mine never will, I’ve never been that lucky before when it came to mother figures, why would it be any different now?

With that thought in mind, I fell asleep with tears running down my face, grieving for what I never had.

And never will never gain.

Thanks for reading, tips anyone?
Pics of Yamashita:
Asakura Yumi, Yamasita and Naruto in a Chicken suit, lol!

I'm proud of this one, the penguin looks cute, no?
Yamashita returning to Konoha in the Shippuuden, I love this picture and it took ages to do.

I haven't done the glasses for this one yet.
It's Halloween and Yamashita and her Team-mates are dressing up as the Sannin.
Yamashita, Obana, Lolita, Tanaka and Aneko dressed up for a dinner party.
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