"Never seem to find the time...Plans that either come to naught, or half a page of scribbled lines."
(Pink Floyd's "Time")
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All right. You guys have DEFINITELY noticed my lack of dedication, right? I mean, seriously. There's no doubt I've completely checked out, and I'm sorry to say that this account is going down the toilet. :(
In laymen's terms, I'm off of "RakeSlayer".
(Did I use that word correctly..? I don't know if it should be "e" or "a"...haha.)
I'm trying to be facetious...kind of a funny joker here. I want to lighten the blow, probably more for me to feel better than you guys. So I'm putting lyrics after every few paragraphs! :)
You know what? I'm even going to give my dedicated, lovely, absolutely AMAZING and SUPPORTIVE fans a realistic reason why RakeSlayer is "dead". Well, actually, you can probably call them excuses instead...I mean, I can't really put a rational reason out there because I've left everyone alone for MONTHS!
My reason(s): Haha.
1. I stopped readingmanga and watching anime all-together. Why? I fell out of interest.
2. I got horribly stressed when I was writing a draft for a future Deidara story at the same time I was writing a Naruto story. I couldn't commit to the characters. They seemed so...2D. Too simple. Too easy. I was doing it wrong!! Haha.
3. School. We were assigned so many projects, and I just could not write anything. Again, I can't commit.
4. So much pressure to get things right the first time.
5. This one's a really, really stupid reason. Ignore it, if you want, but I started to decide that, if fanfictions were way too easy, I needed to create my own version of a fanfiction! I needed to create my own love story with my own characters. My own plot. My own love. My own, 3D, original characters. Basically a fanfiction without the "fan" part. Romance, but an original one. You know?
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"Encumbered forever by desire and ambition, there's a hunger still unsatisfied. Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon, though down this road we've been so many times."
(Pink Floyd's "High Hopes")
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I feel so horrible about giving you all so much stuff on here and just DROPPING it at a moment's notice. Though I guess everyone saw it coming, right?
BUT!
Yes, there's a positive! Well...-ish.
I want whoever is reading this to keep in touch with me. Just because I'm leaving fanfictions doesn't mean I'm leaving Quizilla, or the world, for that matter.
That said, my new account (which will NOT be posting any Naruto/anime/manga-based stories) is:
TheFreshman
Feel free to add my on MySpace too.
www.myspace.com/economyofxmercy
Just tell me you're from Quizilla so I know.
And I have a Facebook account too, so if you want, message me on "TheFreshman" and ask for my name so we can be buddies on there.
Ask anyone. I suck at e-mailing. :(
I still feel like such a bastard.
I'm so sorry, guys!
Of course, the stories are staying up. I'm taking down the poems and other "original" stuff so I don't accidentally post it on the other account and get messages saying, "YOU STOLE RAKESLAYER'S POEMS! I'M REPORTING YOU, BITCH!" Because who wants that? Not me. :)
I'm so, so, so, so freaking sorry!
Please, feel free to shoot me a message. Chances are I won't sign into this account unless I get a sudden urge to write more fanfiction. :( This won't be soon...
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"There are two paths you can go by, but in the long run there's still time to change the road you're on."
(Led Zeppelin's "Stairway to Heaven")
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And if you don't want to follow me to the new account, it's all right. I understand. :) I'm just offering, just in case.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT!
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH EVERY MESSAGE MEANS TO ME!
I seriously have an attachment to all of you guys. You're amazing, and I love you ALL for watching over me. :D
So this isn't goodbye.
This is just a new beginning.
So, my last quote is a decent song. Really, I just like songs for their lyrics in the first place, haha. But I guess, when you think about it, it pretty much sums of how I feel and what I'm thinking. :)
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"There are places I remember all my life, though some have changed. Some forever, not for better, some have gone and some remain."
(The Beatles' "In My Life")
