.Frito.'s Journal

My sister and I are completes opposites. She' mean and I'm sensible, I love to read books and likes to to work on computers. As sisters I believe there is some type of contract we sign saying that we will fight and be mean to each other as long as we stall live. Sometimes I think it has something to do with us being half sisters. I love her like she was a whole and more than that.Would it have been better if i hadn't been born or would she have remained the same. As my sister she is one half of me I just wonder which half am I of her.

This book is amazing I just bought it the other day and I can't put it down. If you're looking for good books to read I suggest this one first unless you hate large books the size of Harry Potter's. But if you enjoy reading clasic love/ rival/ sisterly hate ( I mean love)/ sex/ ambition/ and intrigue. THAN BUY THIS BOOK!!!!!!!

Today, I was in the market just shopping and this man saw me take off in my cart and did the same in his. He acted as though we were in a race and he was determined to win. I was just trying to ease around him to go to the next aisle. Then another shopper came out of no where and blocked my path. And the jerk just stood there knowingly my very purpose to pass. He was a white a man, now usually I’m not exposed to racism a lot, it’s very slim. I don’t know if he wanted let me pass because I was black or if he was just an ass- hole all together. If I knew would it make me feel any better about the situation? Because either way the rudeness of the man just showed how passive I was, not only was it made aware to me but my sister also. It seems that I have the tendency to allow people to walk all over as though I am some sort of welcome mat. It appear that I believe that others have a superior purpose here than I do. But if I try and show assertiveness it seems to often be confused with being aggressive. I can not find that perfect balance right in between. Maybe the reason is that if I don’t know what my purpose is to begin with, how am I suppose to take charge. That would be like sending someone who just got out of college to work on a billon dollar project. It is truly . Or is my point the one that is obscene.

First they put away the dealers, then they put away the prostitutes then they shooed away the bums, and beat and bashed the queers. Turned away asylum seekers fed as suspicions and fears. We didn’t raise our voices we didn’t make a fuss. It’s funny, there was no one left to notice when they came for us.

When you read this quote what does it mean to you? And does it have an impact on the way to think,live, even breathe. I would love to hear your responses.

I've been kind of bored with the music I have currently so I'm asking what you guys think? Any songs that make want to just rock out? Feel happy angry, loving? I need something?

Hey, I've been wanting to go book shopping for a while now and I wanted to know are there any good books I should know about or good writer's I haven't heard of. So if you have a good book in mind feel free to give me the name and a short summary. Thanks Guys!

For some reason I've been feeling trapped like this right now is all I have. You know? Like this is all that's might to be and not even in a satisfying way. It's like my life is telling me do something different or die like this. I feel like I should be doing something different or better. But right now I don't know what that is. I'm very confused now??? All I know  is that I need something new now!!!!!!!!!

Hey if anyone has read the book Catcher and the Rye could you please tell me how it was? Because I've heard so much about the book and I want to know should I go and read it. I mean what type of book is it? Is it the type of bok that makes people want to believe in humanity again? Or is it the the very opposite? I'm looking for answers can you guys provde some for me?

Today my school had a late start day meaning we didn't have to be in school until 9:00a.m. And a lot of childs were coming in so me and my friend Arlesia started walking to the store whick was like a block away. So we were walking and we finally made it to the store then she and another friend wanted to go to McDonald's but I didn't want to want across two busy streets so I told them too go on. I leave the store and run in to one of the cutest boys at my school and he asked me where i was going and I said back to school and he said while so am I. Then were walking and talking about school, likes, ages and before we both knew it we were back at school and he was such a gentlemen he opened the door for me and everything and we parted ways. I know it doesn't seem like much but if you were there and felt like I did you'd understand. It was like I was up in above just wayching it like a movie. Oh and during our lunch period we couldn't stop looking at each other. I mean one of the coolest and cutest boys talking to me and actually being interested was like a dream for me.

I'm wrinting another story for my sexual fansty piece and I'm running through some ideas . If you would like to throw some ideas out or comment on begining stories I totally fine with I mean be my guest. I'm open to all ideas no matter how nasty believe me I can handle it

I seem to be kind of stuck can someone help me

Basically, I'm sick of being on here and not being able to talk to anyone. So...... will anyone be my friend?

You guys know what my New Year's Promise is to stop being so fucking frighten of everyone. See, I'm what people would call *full of SHIT* a worrier. Someone so worried about making a fool out of themselves that they miss key events in my life.

You know my school has held about five parties and I haven't gone to one of them. It's like I'm chicken little or something. I spend so much time over-analysing everything that I pass the moment by.

I mean it even shows here out of the five months I've been here at Quizilla I have only four friends. That's absolutly shameful on my account. Something is obviously wrong with me. I must have ship the social lesson at school that one day.

But my promise is to be more open to new people and stop being so damn shy all the time. So when the ball drops so will my fears. If I had a drink I'd toast to "08" the year I make news friends. Yeah open that Allize would you and let's make margarita's I'm gonna need it to lossen up! 

Yeahhhhh! I've been waiting all year and it's almost here that's right my birthday I'm turning 15. I'm going to have so much fun because me and my best friend are going to the mall and the movie's to see Sweeney Todd and maybe even bowling I'm so excited I can handle wait. It's going to be a blast 

My words once so vivad come no longer. It's as though I have laryngitis in the form of writing. For a long time now writing has been the only thing that has kept me going. Even in my darkest hour I found writing inspirational. To me writing was my safety rag, now it's been pulled right from under me. Revealing the dust bunnies from so long ago. It's frighting my world never made sense until a ballpoint pen laid itself upon my hand. Writing has kept me out of the dark I was sheltered in once before and I feel that shadow self pulling and yearning and inching itself back. It's like thousands of voices whispering "This is who you are." And sometimes you belong to it. Until it consumes all of you, it leaves no corner left unchecked. Then you lose yourself all over again and it doesn't matter what you aspire to be or want. It's like a soul sucking demon. And when that happens there's no control, you may find yourself with the power of the blade or pills maybe even worst, I've been down that road of carelessness and confusion and I desperatly don't want to return.

Guess what people... yeah that's right I have finally finished Nasty Networking and I believe it is the best yet to come but for right you hav to settle for this. I've worked hard on it and I would like if you guyz could give me feed back

Movies
Fight Club
Miserey
The Cell
High School Musical 2
Pirates of the Caribbean 3
Gossip
House M.D season 1
Chasing Liberty
How to deal
Murder by Numbers
Sweet November
1408

CD's
Sum 41 Underclass Hero
Skye Sweetnam
Fefe Dobson
Flyleaf
Josie and the pussycats

That's all I've got so far can you help me?

I've been thinking about life a lot and when I get old what do I want to look back on and say "Hey can you believe I did or saw that?" But not even that I want to look back and have great memories of me and my dad. And when I look back now I can't remember one single time of purely simple bliss with my dad. No father daughter days just me. Winning awards my mom and sister there but dad no. It was either work or I'm out of town or I wish I could have made it. You should have told a head of time. Like I'm some fucking event needed to be penciled in to his perfect little plan. You know what screw that I'm no one's second rate barbie

My favorite serial killer is going to get caught or at least that's what they want you to believe. I know he really isn't going to get caught but the way they set the season up it seems like he is. I'm die to know what's going to happen to him. I mean sometimes you have writers that just blow your mind. I'm bitting my nails, I'm even on the edge of my bed watching the screen Only One more episode after this one the anticipation is killing me.

What is Death? Many people have that question, but none have the answer. Death is a complex topic, which many wish they understood. Some say that death is your soul’s departure from the body. Many intricate worries come with the conversation of death. Death is a difficult subject to discuses even to analyze because there may be numerous theory’s for it but no answer. Death is also a scary thought; no one wants to die because all they’ve experienced is life. Moving on to the mysterious and unknown is frightening,
        Life is short as a number of people have told me and there is a large leap from childhood to an adult. It’s true what they say time does play tricks on you. From the moment everyone enters this life they are in the flow of time. You can do many things with time but you cannot defy it. Death is similar to the stop button on a stopwatch. I believe everyone has the same fate, death different in various ways but all ending up the same way.
        Any moment could be our last. That’s why I believe we should seize the day or live in the moment. Not meaning go out and squander everything you own away. But end everyday with no regrets, don’t sit back and think oh well I can do it tomorrow because tomorrow might not always come. Death and Time are two of the billions of mysteries about life we have yet to figure out fully. But as time pastes I’m sure we’ll find out.