Dismantle.X.Me's Journal

I haven't been on here in ages, and I haven't updated in ages.
I've tried to post a couple of journal entries to explain my disappearance, but Quizilla often refuses to co-operate with me, henceforth I haven't been able to keep anyone who reads my stuff, or used to read my stuff up to date with why I haven't been posting at all.

Anyway!

Since I went into year 10, life has turned pretty hectic, with GCSEs and whatnot, and now I'm year 11 it's even more hectic. First and foremost because of my GCSEs.
Secondly, planning prom.
Thirdly, other things get deemed a tad more important than this website nowadays.

I do use livejournal, and I use mibba.

I don't write as much as I used to, I've become interested in other things such as photography and generally, other things.

I'll finish 'Love Will Tear Us Apart'
And post a story i'm co-writing with haushinkadied called 'Celebrate the Irony'.

Other than that, I'm not completely sure anyone will be hearing much of me anymore.

Leave some comments if you read, and if you wanna talk to me or anything

www.myspace.com/mishkaytay

Tarrah!

Okay, so, yeah.
The reason I haven't updated yet is cause I'm busy with school and writing. And also, I've had the most amazing weekend of my life.
(:

Friday, Ben came over, we got wasted with a capital W. Lol.
Saturday was Carl's 16th, so it was the "Carl Bailey Weekend Festival 2007". It was the best party I've ever been to.
Apart from the fact that my boyfriend, Luke, got really jealous that me and Ricci were sitting in then by, then in, then by the girl's tent having a drunken conversation about communism, nits, elephants, antelopes and something else.
Yeah, then I've gone to Luke, "Hey come over here and talk with us," And he's gone to me, "FUCK OFF" and walked off O_O
Then went to the boys tent, drunk about nine cans of Fosters and passed out...
So, being wasted, and completely like... Woah. I sat there going "What've I done wrong" and got no answer, cause he was passed out.
Then me and ricci went back to talking and ended up making out anyway. :/
At one point, in the same tent as Luke. HAHAHA.
Oh god. I'm a horrible person lmao.
Oh well.
He shouldn't have told me to fuck off.





ANYWAY! To the updates. Sometime this week, I promise you all I will post at least one update. (:


LEAVE ME LOVE...

YOU ARE ALSO SOMEONE I WILL CO-WRITE WITH
SORRY I FORGOT YOU
I WAS JUST KIND OF CAUGHT UP IN BEING REALLY PISSED OFF (:

LOVE YOU LIKE WELL LOADS <33333

Just to let anyone know.
I'm not co-writing with anybody anymore.
There are two people which would be
Henderson (xgreenxdayxisxlifex) cause I trust her and she's amazing and a good writer.
Lorna (LoRnA56) cause I also trust her, I know her off of here and off of MSN too and she's an amazingly amazing writer too.



Just to let everyone know.
The only time I'll ever ask anyone is if I'm asking someone to write the next part of a story for me.

So if you ask me you're answer will be a big fat NO

Thanks for reading this if you did.

Motivation - Sum 41

Yeah, I'm back! ALLOW IT!
I just got home from Poland yesterday, was good, but I wouldn't go back.

I'm writing a few things here and there, should be updating soon, starting a new story on here soon.
It's all getting done in between coursework, which is taking priority (sp?) at the moment.

Erm, not a lot else to say... Apart from if you want to help me write some stuff, write the next part of whichever story you want that's either on hiatus or active, i'll read it over and maybe post it.I've started a new story though, it's totally waff. (:

Force it.

Leave comments, if you write me the next part of any of my active stories email them to me:

to.alcohol.and.cigarettes-@hotmail.co.uk

or mail them to me on here.


Katy.

(I DONT KNOW IF YOU JUST SAW WHAT I JUST DID, BUT I JUST TALKED LIKE AN ESSEX SCENE KID. ALLOW IT. BAHAHAHAHA.)

Motivation - Sum 41

Yeah, I'm back! ALLOW IT!
I just got home from Poland yesterday, was good, but I wouldn't go back.

I'm writing a few things here and there, should be updating soon, starting a new story on here soon.
It's all getting done in between coursework, which is taking priority (sp?) at the moment.

Erm, not a lot else to say... Apart from if you want to help me write some stuff, write the next part of whichever story you want that's either on hiatus or active, i'll read it over and maybe post it.I've started a new story though, it's totally waff. (:

Force it.

Leave comments, if you write me the next part of any of my active stories email them to me:

to.alcohol.and.cigarettes-@hotmail.co.uk

or mail them to me on here.


Katy.

(I DONT KNOW IF YOU JUST SAW WHAT I JUST DID, BUT I JUST TALKED LIKE AN ESSEX SCENE KID. ALLOW IT. BAHAHAHAHA.)

The (After) Life Of The Party - Fall Out Boy



Tuesday night

I dumped Jake.

Wednesday night.

My brother punched me in the eye while we were play fighting, now I have a lovely black
eye that hurts like a motherbitch.

Tonight.

My eye hurts, I'm regretting dumping Jake and a lot of people are making out that I can't do much right.


I swear I just cause my own problems.



Grr-fcking-rrrr.
I'm just getting depressed all over again.
Not like many people on here really care I just need to vent so if yerr just gonna leave a shitty comment telling me to get over it then go fck yrself plz.

The Taste Of Ink - The Used




And yet again. I feel dead.

I swear I need to be on prozac or something.




I'm meant to be getting my belly button pierced tomorrow, and I'm going with Abbie.

Her Dad is going to take us and sign for us or stuff.

See the thing is though, I usually get piercings at this place called Brave Art, which is a place I trust cause I've had all of my piercings done there, as has my mum had hers and her tattoos and my dad has had his tattoo there...

But this other place Abbie's Dad is taking us is way out of comfort zone, cause it's not Brave Art. It looks quite rough from the outside and I'm not sure I trust it that much.
But Abbie's Dad had his tattoo there and says it's really clean and nice in there.

I don't know what to do :(

And I'm so fucking behind on coursework.
And I have a party tomorrow that I have no way of getting to.

WHAT THE HELL AM I MEANT TO DO :/

My life is just like a whole bunch of complications all the time.
I swear someone up there must hate me cause he don't cut me no slack.

They say your teenage years are supposed to be the best years of your life, right?

Well

What the fuck has happened to mine?

Mine is basically:
-Family dying
-Friends dying
-Friends arguing
-Me arguing with friends
-Double standards
-Suicidal thoughts


Now the last one.
The last one is the one that is always, always niggling away in the back of my head.
And I'm not even joking.
24-fucking-7.

I just think about the way I've messed up my life. Everything.
From school to my way of thinking.
No one else has done that.
I have.
And the fact only I can change that scares the shit out of me.
Because I know I can't.
Because I'm too lazy and I'm too stressed and everyone's just pilling on the pressure.
Or... Is that just me?
Do I think too far ahead?
What if me and my music doesn't make it.
And I'm so damn lazy in school thinking that I will make it, and if I don't, I'll end up working in fucking McDonalds or Burger King.

It's as soon as I think that things might be back on track again, they're not.
Something happens.
Something has to happen.

I know there's an easy way out of this.
But then... A permanant solution, for a temporary problem?

I'm so messed up. I need to sort myself out.
I drink, I do drugs, I smoke, I cut... I'm fifteen.
Self destruction... DOTCOM.

And once I get past that thought, The temporary problem one.
There's the arguement that... I'll never have to worry about anything if I'm dead.

And that sure as hell is a nice thought.

I must have looked like a ghost cause something frightened me and since then i've been so good at vanishing


That Song is LEGEND.

Take It Easy (Love Nothing) - Bright Eyes




Ergh. I've been looking forward to work experience so much, and now it's two days away I'm dreading it.
I have to be out of the house by 8.20
To travel all the way up to Islington

JUST SHOOT ME NOW.



Oh yeah, I have a question to anyone NOT from the UK (England, Ireland, Scotland, Wales) who is reading this.
DO YOU GET PIGEONS IN YOUR COUNTRY?!

Me and my mate were wondering today and now it's really bugging me.



Leave love in the form of comments
(How are you, how was your day, what you got up to etc.)

Never Be Lonely - The Feeling

Oh My GOSH.

Tek Festival rocked my socks off. Even if half the bands didn't.

Spent most of the day pissing around with my mates, in the pouring rain.

OH GOOD OL' ENGLAND EH?!

Haha.

Our weather has the worst timing, but I'm telling you, a music festival in the pouring rain is the funnest thing ever.

I was soaking wet, my clothes soaking, my hair soaking, my friends soaking and it was just hilarious.

Then when it stopped raining it got really sunny and the grass got dry and my hair dried and it went really curly, as it does.

And everyone was saying it looked gorgeous. My brothers/my mate Josh came up to me and he is gay and just like, so funny, he went to me, "Oh My God. Your Hair is GORGEOUS!"

Haha.
Bless 'im =]

I got some of the nangest pictures ever.
Soaking wet, then dry, making sexual innuendos towards eachother, dog piling eachother.
HOW FUN. XD
I got kicked in the face in a bundle it was hilarious, I have a big bruise on my nose now haha.


I've been excluded from school again! =D
Haha.
BUNKING.
I went home for some lunch and fell asleep in my PE kit. LOL.
My mum woke me up when she got home, I looked at the clock and was like OH CRAP!

Good times =D

Leave me love in the form of comments .x.

So.
At request of BilliejoesMINE
I'm carrying on with my journal, if not my stories.

I've had a pretty good day, went up London with my family because we had to go to my Dad's shop.
My Dad gave me his digital Camera.
As in.
"Take it, it's yours" Kind of giving.
I was like WTFOMGYAYILY.
We wandered around London... Me and my Mum taking the piss out of people.
We're not a racist family, by the way, not at all.
But heh, cause [if you didn't know] London gets a stupid amount of tourists, every time someone got in my way I kept mumbling, "bloody foreigners."
Heh.
I loev being English =]

Ah. MUSIC TEK FESTIVAL TOMORROW!
Well can't wait.
Is going to be my second time seeing hell is for heroes, one of my favouritist badns ever and I soooo hope I'll get to meet them this time.
=]

I well miss Jake.
Haven't seen him since Wednesday cause he's been away.
But he's coming back tomorrow. Not that I'll be able to see him cause I don't think he's back until late.
=[

Ah well.
At least I have my camera.
We'll be happy together.
=]





Leave me love in the form of comments. Tell me about your day. How are you all. etc.

LOVES.x

Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Two Of Us - My Chemical Romance


So Yeah, last night I was on the phone to Jake for uhm... bout 3 hours in total [in between hanging up and calling back between needing the loo and eating dinner] and my mobile bill is going to be sooo big haha. Cus his landline phone is broke haha and his mobile had no credit sooo... I had to phone him. And it's 35p a minute to call from my landline to a mobile so I had to use my mob. Eek.

I swear.. That boy... <33

I managed to bunk nearly every lesson at school this week haha. HARDCOOOORE.

And I have nothing else to say LMAO.
Byeebyee
OH yeah
If anyone wants to  help me write I have no objections message me now PLEASE or add my msn: red.x.hot.x.moon@hotmail.co.uk
Love adn shizzle.

Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

So yeah.
It's a Friday night and I'm at home.
Ooh aren't I exciting -_-

BLEH
Unbore me?

KATY HAS THE MOST FUCKING AWESOME BOYFRIEND IT'S HARD TO EVEN COMPREHEND OR UNDERSTAND WHY SOMEONE AS UGLY AS ME GOT SOMEONE LIKE HIM! =D

He's a drummer [suprise suprise]
He's 17 *hides from parents*
He has snake bite lip piercings [If you dont know what that means, it's a lip piercing either side of your lip, his are on his bottom lip]
He's got long hair and he's 6 ft... something...
I think he said 6 ft 3 haha.
I'm only 5 ft 3 and a half so I'm like literally half his size... XD.
He made me stand up next to him it's so funny I'm so short.
And like, haha I had to go on tip toes and he still had to lean right down to kiss me. *grins*
I went round his today and he played me some Avenged Sevenfold on his drums and oh my God he's so amazing and I know that's right biased but he really is.

Cause Nathan and me are overrr.
And he keeps saying that we can make it work but it's like... No we really cannot.
Meh. It's his own fault.

So yeahh.
Uhm.
Now I'm done obsessing and sharing my infatuation with you all...

oim drunk
and
i wa s round bils
and me and charlote painte doutr nails
opink
and
i huit my head aon the keybaord and it hrur t for a second
 btu now
it doesnt nhurt
and amy mujm bought me collthes today
nad i m wraering them
=]
thats col aint it?
O i love you werread my stoes
xx

Woo party! I'm back from Bath! Well fun =D
Haha.
Can't be arsed to talk about none of it though, apart from the fact I found a road with a really funny name and HAD to take a picture of it XD
Yes, I know I'm immature =]

Some people are so God damn infuriating, I don't know why the fuck I bother.
I have been screwed over twice today.

1. Me and Abbie met up with Damon [my god son from cult in law] and Toby [my little brother from cult in law] and we were waiting for 1 then we were going to walk to the Brewery to meet Nathan [my boyfriend] and we were all gonna go to the cinema. Well, it got to about 12.45 and we were down cult and all of a sudden Toby has dragged Damon off with no explination to Abbie and me as to why they were suddenly leaving us.

So abbie and me have walked to the Brewery and waited half an hour for Nathan and Gregg which leads me to point number

2. Nathan and Gregg were half an hour late for meeting Abbie and me so by the time they got to us we were like, "Right. Fine." And then me and abbie both announced that in fact we did not have enough money for the cinema. Now, any normal person would be like, "Okay, what do you wanna do instead?" But no, Nathan, what does he turn around and say? "Okay. Bye."  I'm sorry, but who the hell treats their girlfriend and one of her best mates like that? I just stood there saying to Abbie, "Did that actually happen or am I just imagining things?"
God I'm just so angry that he had the audacity to do that! Who the hell does that? SERIOUSLY.

God. At least I have Friday/Saturday/Sunday away from his ignorant face.
Going to Bath [some place in England with a funny name]. Get to share a room with my brother and my brother and me are like really good mates so we'll go around nicking everything from the hotel like we did last time.

Anyways. Gotta go pack.
Leave me love and maybe some advice about what to do about Nathan?

Love you all x

I NEED HELP WITH WRITING
MESSAGE ME IF YOUR INTERESTED

Writers Block.
I seem to be getting it more and more often.
Does anyone, ANYYYONE want to help me out with:
Pulling Teeth
Heaven For The Weather, Hell For The Company
Baby, It's Fact
Welcome To Paradise

Yeah I missed lke two of my storiees out there =/
I'm crap
Help me