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November 6, 2009

Something that needs to be said

This is what life is for me:
I hate when people think that they're better than me, or deserve a higher position than me in the world. I hate it when people walk all over me, or try at least. I never let them. I am strong and fearless. I don't let people lable me, but if you want to, go ahead. Do you think that'll effect anything? Maybe a chuckle or two out of your friends. Maybe an inside joke that goes with the color black or eyeliner. Yay. That's all great and stuff . . . but have you ever wondered if you're really as cool as you think you are? I love to write songs a poems, and I play guitar. I love to read, and I am currently n the middle of Marked by P.C Cast and Kristn Cast. I love metal, screamo, rock, and alternative music. I like a little bit of pop, but that's just Scary Kids Scaring Kids and All Time Low. I don't feel that I always have to be in a relationship. I am not in the least indecisive, and when I make a decision, I stick to it. I've chosen the path that I'm walking on right now, and I am not turning around. I like my dark eyeliner and converse. I like my skinny jeans and black shirts. I like the alternation of me either wearing my purple, red, or black sweatshirt to school. In fact, I enjoy almost every moment of my life that I am not ridiculed for being who I am. You can go ahead and say, "Okay well, I love my Hollister and Abercrombie & Fitch. I love my American Eagle and Aeropostale." That's great. I don't make fun of you for wearing that stuff, so why do you make fun of me for wearing Hot Topic? I don't mock you for wearing your short shorts and tight tank tops, so why do you mock me for wearing skinny jeans and black? You think it's obviously horrible to wear eyeliner every day, but it's perfectly fine for you to wear shimmering pink lip gloss and glittery eyeshadow. Honestly? I couldn't care less about what you wear. So why do you care what I wear?

Everyone thinks I hate my life and I am depressed. Hmm, I wonder why? I wear black, BIG FRIKING DEAL! I chose to wear what I wear, and no amount of ridiculing can change that. I don't worship Satan! I am a devoted Christian, and I am not changing that. I don't cut myself and I am not suicidal. I am perfectly happy with living through my pain. And 99% of that pain is from everyone else in the whole god damn world.

Well, this little rant is over. And trust me, this is even half of all the crap I go through. But, whatever. I live through my pain and suffering, and I'm still searching for that silver lining.

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