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February 12, 2007

A rant... (rated M due to some harsh language)

Okay. I've been kinda bottling this up for about a week, but i really can't take it anymore, so I'm going to put it up on my journal here. I've put it up on ym blog blog (A different web address. Ask me for it and I'll give it to you), but okay here goes.

Obviously, I'm a girl (as if you couldn't tell from my username). I'm a senior, yes a SENIOR, in high. That's 12th for all those Dee dee dee people out there. And you would think, being that me and the rest of my class, are around 17, or 18 years old, we would be MATURE. You know, non-child-like.

But the boys in my class are fucking retarded.

There's this boy in my class... Brian, we'll use his first name but not his last. Me and him have been friends more or less since my sophmore year in highschool. I'm only like him as a friend, nothing more, but he's come to like me. He "says" he's head over heels for me. And, acutally, he's liked me since, oh I dunno... over a year ago? Well anyway, after putting some distance between us, he decides that he's ready to be friends with me again.

Now, I'm positive absolutely none of you know this, but I'm a very flirtatcious person. I love to flirt because it's fun. No, that doesn't make me a slut, it means I like to have fun and I don't take flirting very serious.

Well, apparently he took it seriously. He's been talking crap about me to my best friend. He says that 1) I'm "giving" him mixed signals. One day I picked lint off of his shirt and brushed something out of his hair, and he takes it all seriously. But I do that to anyone. I'll pick lint and stuff of my friend's clothes and stuff and I play my my best friend's hair all the time. 2) She's a better friend than I am because she ISN'T giving him mixed signals.

I've already made it fucking clear that I. DON'T. LIKE. HIM. THAT. WAY. So, why the FUCK would I be "giving" him anything besides a good friendship!? And, speaking of that, HOW DARE HE SAY THAT I'M NOT A GOOD FRIEND JUST BECAUSE I DON'T FUCKING LIKE HIM THAT WAY!! I'M NOT FUCKING "GIVING" YOU ANYTHING!!! I FLIRT WITH EVERYONE FOR THE FUN OF IT YOU ASS!!!

And now, he's been ignoring me for almost a week.

Well, gee, since you're going to get all bent out of shape over pretty much nothing, then I guess you weren't worth the effort of trying to mend our friendship, NOW WERE YOU!?! You were a good friend, probably one of the best I'll ever have. I give you my friendship, my loyalty, everything (because I'm the type of person who'll give everything in any kind of relationship whether it be family, friend or lover), and you fucking throw me aside over a FEW KIND GESTURES??? WHAT THE FUCK MAN!?! WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM!?! GO FUCKING SCREW YOURSELF YOU ASS! You're too ugly for my tastes ANYWAY!!! SO GO AHEAD AND BE A BIG FUCKING PANSY ABOUT ALL THIS! YOUR IMMATURITY REALLY PISSES ME OFF!!! SO I'M THROUGH, FORGET I EVER TRIED TO MEND OUR FRIENDSHIP, AND FORGET I ACTUALLY CARED ABOUT YOU AND YOUR WELLBEING, YOU DICK.

He's not worth it, so he's out of my life. I'm not getting anything out of this, so it's pointless. So let him be gay in his own little corner. I have real friends that actually know me well, and understand me clearly. I THOUGHT he did, but I guess I was wrong. Guarenteee you all, a couple of weeks, a couple of months, and he'll slowly try to sneak his way back into my life. Ain't gonna happen, sorry. You totally blew it Brian. No more chances.

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