Inu6Di6Skee6's Journal

Just so you know and incase i havent told you yet, me and sean are goin out.

Yes, to everyone who cares, i repeat,

me and sean are going out.
(to the movies this weekend)

ya. thanks for listening to the announcement.

Mmkay. As some of you may know, sean likes me.

I STILL AM NOT REALLY SURE WHAT TO DO!!!!

Heres my list(-_- ya i kno, i made a pros and cons)

SEANS PROS:
1. hes easy on the eyes
2. hes amazingly sweet(he calls me ms.beautiful! it does get anoying wen he says it too much, though)
3. were both drummers(sumthin in common)
4. Freakin awesome on drum set?
5. Cant end THAT badly cuz im not good friends with him

SEANS CONS:
1. He says my friends are scary.(i bet if he didnt like me, hed think i was scary too)
2. We can never really carry on a conversation unless its about dissing andrew b.
3. were different social groups(not a big 1, just that we dont look like wed go together)
4. we have diff interests(me=soccer,"alternative" music,pacsun him=swimming, pop/(w/e buckcherry is), hollister/AE)

As you can see theyre about tied... plz message/comment/email/make this decision for me.
...IM WAITING

I am sorry ur such a pussy. Its one thing to lie to me, but its quite another to lie to Alex. It makes me sad, because I thought that u had gotten some cahones (spanish for balls) since the last time we got in a fight. Now that you backed out and deleted ur account on quizilla, I see that you have proven me wrong. If you would have paid attention to me at ALL then u might have slightly noticed I've been getting more and more annoyed with you these last 3 months. I admit, I might not be the best of friends but I at least ask how people are doing.

But i must also admit that you never yelled back. You just laid down and took it like the suck up you are. I, personally, am shocked and completely surprised you did not run away to the pits of hollister looking for a place to hide.

Because you might not have noticed, I'll say it again. Im ANGRY!! Jordan, also because I bet you havent realized why I am angry, I'll tell you my reasons.

1) Im tired of being quiet when you get all PMS-y. I normally let it slide because u have pressure and everything but then I realized so does every other teenager.
2) When was the last time you stood up for me? I still remember when you told me that people were talking about me and i asked "did you do anything?". I bet you can guess the answer.
3) Im tired of bottling up my anger towards you! You are so meticulous and pessimistic sometimes I dont know what to do.
4) I like being talked to. Why do I always have to do all the work?
5) Things of interest have happened to me since the last time you asked me whats new 3 months ago.

Also, you were involved in the "mayhem" at the concert and dont blame it on others that you can't stand up for yourself enough to get your "ESSENTIAL administrator signature" on your student council application. OF COURSE I KNOW that i may be horrible to post this but i thought this is what you would want, I mean your friends with preps.
You dress like a prep.
You act like a prep.
And you dont seem to care about people just like a prep.
What I'm doing may be worse than all those things combined, but you, my (ex)"mentor", always told me to "bring down my wall" and this is what Im doing.

-*cluck, cluck* You chicken

P.S: If you want to talk it out on the phone and have me apologize and explain, grow some cahones.
And mel has been dating Sayed for a month.

O.K.!!!! I MADE THESE PICS IN MY PHOTOSHOP CLASS AND I WANT EVERYONE TO VOTE!!!!
VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!

Pic #1:
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/photoshot%20pics/gaarabeck4.jpg

Picturesque numero 2:
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/photoshot%20pics/gaarabecky3.jpg

(vote now)pictamundo el numero 3:
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/photoshot%20pics/garrabeck2.jpg

*in french* picture #4:
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/photoshot%20pics/garrabecky1.jpg

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VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!! VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!
VOTING WILL END... WEN I FEEL LIKE ENDING IT!!!

~peace(aka vote)

CHOOOOOOOOOOOSE FOR MEEEEE PLZ!!!!!!!!

Me pics:
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/hair/PICT0005.jpg
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/hair/PICT0006-1.jpg
THE HOUSE IS NOT MINE!


Hair opt. pics:
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/hair/1HAIRCUT.jpg
http://i79.photobucket.com/albums/j136/my_little_sword666/hair/choppyshort.jpg
EXCEPT MAYBE NOT PINK, BUT BLUE-ISH!!!

P.S. PLZ SEND ME ANY LINKS OF SHORT HAIR!!!!! ANY PICS AT ALL PLZ!!! P.P.S.S. if anyone finds a red plaid skirt, can u tell me WHERE?!?!?!

Well im uber tired right now because we started a new soccer trainer (the guys a freakin retard who made us run for an hour straight, almost non stop.). We never even touched a ball- no thats not fair. When we started, we had our soccer balls and the guys said "run to the end of the gym and back and then put those away." Anyways, i was gonna put a whole bunch of stuff on here, but screw it. I just wanna ask, IS THERE ANYONE MAD AT ME?!?!?! SERIOUSLY!!!!! I SEEM TO BE PISSING EVERYONE OFF!!!!! Now if u dont want to comment it , PLZ MESSAGE ME!!! I'm too tired to have to decifer if people are mad at me right now....

o.k. today after science (8th hour) long story short, i gave andrew a note to give to sean (the guy who liked/likes me and i rejected). The note had my email in it....

I KNOW IM CRUEL AND STRIGING HIM ALONG BLAH DE BLAH HIPPIE BLAH BLAH

I dont care i just wanna see what happens. Seriously, worst case senario for me, i go on one date and dont like him.

Worse case senario for him, i dont date him and we stay kinda friends and nothing happens at all.

Either way i'll be called a bitch by some people and something bad will happen, so LETS SEE WHAT HAPPENS!!!
XD!!!!

I may have many things that i find odd about myself but THIS POST IS GOING TO ADDRESS ONE OF THEM:

...
WHY THE FUCKING FUCK ARE THERE NO HOOOOOOTTTTTTTT GUYS AT MY SCHOOL??!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!??!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?
(now i know there may be some comments about people saying 'hey im a dude and im hott', JORDAN, or 'my boyfriends hott', DANA, but im talking SINGLE NON-FRIEND GUYS WHO I WOULDNT TRY TO BEAT UP AND DONT ANNOY ME!!!!)

See how picky i am? I'll never get a guy at this rate. BUT THE THING IS I DONT REALLY WANT A GUY CUZ THEY REQUIRE SO MUCH UPKEEP AND ATTENTION IM BETTER OFF GETTING A CLINGLY FRIEND!!!!!

maybe it was just that i had a bad relationship before that is not at all normal, but im not normal so it matches me... I WISH IT DIDNT!!

So... this really had no point except for me to say, while taking up a whole bunch of space, that i am in a paradox because i want a boyfriend but i dont want one because they require attention and, ask people who have known me for a loooooong time, ALEX AND MOSSETTTTTTTT, i have a tendancy to suddenly abondon people for like a week and then act like nothing happened. So if anyone knows a guy who's moderatly hott and not someone i want to beat up and not someone who im friends with and not someone who is clingly THEN TELLLLLLLLL ME DAMN U!!! (he also needs to be single!!!)
Comments are greatly appreciated to help me solve this paradoxial.

(o.k. this is a new thing im startin!!! Like all my stuff i will try to update it weekly((failing miserably though...)) and this will keep all u stalkers updated on the MY SOPH-A-LICIOUS LIFE!!!*wink*)
MUSIC
something old: Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park
This is a song that someone *nudge nudge*katakuna*nudge nudge* reminded me of. Its a really good song with a good vid!(the vid is actually kinda confusing...) The reason that i like it is because i have some REALLY BAD habits i need to break if i ever want to keep my friends not mad at me for more than a week.

SOMETHING NEW!: Nine In The Afternoon - Panic! At The Disco
Panic @ the Disco is coming out with a new CD!!!*Amazingly high pitched fan girl scream.* Heres the preview track for all u other fan-people!

Something borrowed: The City Is At War - Cobra Starship
Even though i saw this song on morning MTV and heard another song by them about a month or two ago, i'll give katakuna credit on this one again.

Something blue: Can't Be Saved - Senses Fail
This one took me a while to decide where it would go because i borrowed it from guitar hero 3, ans since i just got that game... tuesday(?) its new to me, but the game is kinda old.... in the end i took the sophie way out and put it under "other". Jk. If u listen to the chorus/lyrics, the guys says hes "stuck in a coma, stuck in a never ending sleep." and someday hell wake up and realize he made up everything.


PROBLEM!!! See my previous rant.(click rant for link)

Mmmm-kay! lets hope this works!(with all the links i put in, it would suck if it doesnt...)

I have soooooo much stuff i want to say, but... I'll keep it at this stuff.
I just really needed to write this all down, and if i dont even post this then you wont be reading this so- Moving on. Sry I havent posted in EVER!! I just dont really like to tell people what im really thinking because im... afraid of... idk. Them rejecting the idea? actually having someone be able to relate? I HAVE NO CLUE! I hate wen i start to rant like this, but IM GOING TO PUNCH SOMEONE!!

1) IM-I SHOULD BE BANNED FROM IM!!! I CANNOT THINK STRAIGHT WHEN IM TYPING ON IT!!!
ALMOST ALL-MOST LIKELY ALL- THE FIGHTS IVE BEEN IN WITH FRIENDS THIS SCHOOL YEAR HAVE BEEN ON IM! AND IVE BROKEN UP WITH MY BOYFRIEND IN IM!
I SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO SIGN ON!
KYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

2) FREAKIN SMALL LUNCH TABLES!
all i can say is F**K THEM! CAN OUR CHEAP SCHOOL NOT BE SO... CHEAP AND BUY BIGGER F**KIN TABLES?!?!
URGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!

3) IVE BEEN ON THE VERGE OF TEARS THE LAST WEEK AND I THINK PEOPLE NOTICED!!
TEARS(at least to ME) ARE JUST STUPID!!! IF YOU CRY IT SHOWS THAT YOU CANT HANDLE WHAT GOING ON!! AND MY FRIENDS HAVE BEEN SENDING ME KINDA WIERD GLANCES LATELY LIKE THEY KNO, AND I WAS TALKING TO SOMEONE AND NEARLY HAD TO SIGN OFF I WAS TEARING UP SO BAD AND I HAD TO PUT ONE OF MY FRIENDS ON MUTE ON THE PHONE WHILE I GOT MYSELF BACK UNDER CONTROL!!(crying also suck becuase u feel so tired after it)

4) I HAVE NO REASON TO CRY!!!(slight continuation of above, but WHO GIVES A SH*T!?!)
I have friends who have had everything, but someone close to them die happen to them. ALMOST EVERYBAD THING I CAN THINK OF BESIDES BEING PHYSICALLY INGURED OR HAVING SOMEONE CLOSE TO THEM KILLED/INGURED!! They have the right to cry more than i do!! SO WHY DO I FEEL LIKE IM ALWAYS GOING TO CRY?!?!!? WHY I FREAKIN ASK YOU!!!!
IS THERE NO METHOD TO THIS MADNESS!?!?!?

5) IM USELESS WHEN IT COMES TO EMOTIONS AND EMPATHY!!!
LIKE I HAVE REPEATED MANY TIMES, I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE GOIN THROUGH TOUGH STUFF AND I CANT DO ANYTHING BUT SAY "sry about that, hope things get better."! IM A GIRL!!! WERE USUALLY QUITE GOOD AT THIS!!!(my theory is that something happened at birth and i was born without the empathy gene. I can seriously NEVER FEEL FOR ANYONE ELSE!)

6) I HAVE ALMOST NO FEELING!!!
I dont mean like i can get hit with a cinderblock and be like "nuh uh. didnt feel it. try it again.". I mean like, i never kno how i feel on an issue. The only emotion ive really felt strongly in a while was anger and.... FURIOUSNESS(idk!). I can seriously only be mad! Even know im mad becuase i can't fall asleep at 11:50 when im uber tired! Even when im about to cry, i feel mad(at myself those times though). And also, isnt it like impossible to not have a crush on anyone at one given time? Cuz i dont really think ive ever had a true crush on anyone the whole time ive been in Middle School. I find that SCARY!!! Am i like in need of shock therapy?

7) IM COMPLAINING WHEN I HAVE NOTHING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT!!!!
AS YOU CAN TELL, I HAVE LIKE NO REAL ACTUAL PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE!! If someone told me these were their problems, then id be like "boo hoo, poor u"(haha that rhymed). I ALSO HATE THAT I RANT TO MY FRIENDS WHO SHOULD BE RANTING TO ME!!! (I might not be able to provide touchy feely support to someone, but i definately can help fuel a rant!) HERE ARE THE WORST THINGS I HAVE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT:
1) my dad has been freakin out alot lately
2) I can never seem to have all of my friends happy at the same time.
3) (uh...) my grades arnt good(?)(ya they are, but my moms just gotta be a bitch about it)
4) I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA BEAT SOMEONE UP WHILE CRYING!!(confuzzled...)

If anyone would like to comment on my nice and odd rant here, go right ahead. Ill try to read them, but no promises.(i couldnt keep a promise if my life depended on it)

Ya. This got to be really long. remember, if you dont have anything nice to say, prepare to be punched in the face. =D(sry for stealin the face, SF)

I.JUST.SAT.AT.THE.PLACE.WHERE.I.HAVE.SOCCER.PRACTICE.FOR.45.MINUTES.BECUASE.MY.DAD.FORGOT FORGOT FORGOT FORGOT TO.PICK.ME.UP!!!! DID I SAY THAT HE FORGOT?? BECUASE HE DID!!!! KRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! AND THIS ISNT THE ONLY TIME THAT HES DONE THIS!!! EVERYTIME THAT HES EVER HAD TO PICK ME UP HES BEEN LATE!!! YOU THINK IM BEING DRASTIC, BUT HES NEVER ON TIME!!! AND WANT TO KNO WHY? 1) HE ALWAYS ON THE PHONE WITH HIS FREAKIN FRIENDS!!! (AND HE YELLS AT ME FOR TALKING TO MY FRIENDS) 2) HE CARES MORE ABOUT HIS FRIENDS THAN HIS FAMILY!! THAT IT!!! MY DAD NOW SUCKS!! So... lucky for the sake of this rant (and me) melissa davis was staying afterwards and gave me a ride home. Shes an ANGEL!!!(a gossipy angel, but still) HERE IS MY POLL: HAS ANYONES PARENTS EVER FORGOTTEN THEM BEFORE? This rant brought to you by Sophies Bush Loving, Jack**s, retarded DAD!

URG!!! For all of you who are old and out of 8th grade or... other? ya... "other..." The EXPLORE TEST is like this ACT like test thing that helps you prepare for the ACT's and figure out what you'll be good at. ANYWAYS... WELL I GOT THE TEST STUFF BACK TODAY!!!! AND... I HATE IT ALL AND IT CAN GO DIE!! IT DIDNT HELP ME AT ALL!! T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T O.k. now alot of you may think that im blowing this way out of proportion, but I have NO CLUE WHAT SO EVER I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP!! o.k. Nother like. I have a slight clue... I want to go to college and get a 4 yr degree and I want to get a job that has to do with computers(like graphics) or countrys(like languages... or translator...) BUT I WAS HOPEING THE TEST WOULD HELP!!! But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*falls down spiraling pit of horribleness of test despair* IT HAD TO DEPRIVE ME OF THAT CRUCIAL KNOWLEDGE AND POINT OUT WHAT I ALREADY KNO!!! (If u still think im over reacting about this, you would be great friends with this guy named heany at my school. He said i need to write it in my journal*sigh*. ((i would rant about him next but.... hey dana. How long have you been reading this*nervous twitch*))) ANYWAYS, LETS RECAP. *EXPLORE TEST sucks *I need some serious future guidance *and I feel like Im going to need to eat my body wieght in chocolate this weekend T.T P.S. I think that cockroaches stalk me. Im pretty sure ones in my closet... O.O NOT EVEN KIDDING HUGE BUG, G2G!!!

URRGGG!!!! IM GONNA KILL SOME PREP A**!!! I WILL GET HIM EXPELLED!!! I WILL KILL THEM ALL!!! VICTORY IS MINE!!!! Jk. I just dont really like some people at my school at all. T.T *poro, poro..*

HERE WE GO!!! MY PARENTS!! ME AND MY PARENTS!! ME AND MY COUSIN ADAM PLAYING SHARK ATTACK IN THE POOL! ME AND MY WHOLE SAMPSON FAMILY ON THE BUS GETTING READY TO LEAVE THE HOTEL/RESORT PLACE!! ME SNORKILIN'!!! THE WATER WAS LIKE BATHWATER!! MY WHOLE SAMPSON FAMILY ON THE BEACH, GETTING READY FOR A FAMILY PICTURE!! from right to left(p.s, all my cousins are the ones with just thier names written down, im an only child): me, Reene, reenes fiance jay, uncle corey, joe, Photographer guy, aunt karen, uncle randy, my mom, taylor, alaina, josh, adam, my dad, aunt sue, aunt suzy, uncle paul, luke, grandpa, rachel. PPL missing: jack, matt, grandma. They were somewhere in the outside of the picture...

HEY PEEPS!!!! ITS FINALLY THE WEEKEND!!!! for the last couple of weeks i've been naming my weekends. NOV 4: internet weekend LAST WEEKEND: SOCIAL WEEKEND THIS WEEKEND: MOOLA WEEKEND!!!! yes! I can see it now!!! ALL THE CASH I WILL MAKE!!!! i'll tell ya the story... I went to my moms office to work 2day after school and decided that with the easy stuff i do there, and all the $ i make... I should do more work, get more money. One setback: I'm lazy. as hell. Ya. So! I have come up with a solution!!!!(Never fear, I'm here!) I'M GOING TO EBAY OFF MY MOMS COMPANIES EXTRA ITEMS!!! ON MY OWN TIME!!!! AND GET 25%!!! AND ONLY HAVE TO SET UP THE PAGE, NOT FIND THE STUFF, NOT TAE THE PICS.... THE EASY STUFF!!!! I AM ONE.LUCKY.B***HCHICKY!!! ... wat? I said chicky....

I NEED A TECHIE!!!!! I always thought I was good with technology... or at least not bad with it. BUT I CANNOT CONNECT MY WII TO THE INTERNET!!!!! I have tried EVERYTHING!!! i have connected it to a whole bunch of connections and NOTHING!!! now I somehow need to find double USB cord to see if that will work... Anyone have any ideas to answer my horrible "paradox?" Message me or leave a comment... Thanks!

Date: November 3rd, 2007(SATURDAY!!) Watching: Blue Collar Comedy Listening To: Ron White Talking To: myself Here I am, once again. Well, today was fun! I got a couple of new beats in drum set (A.K.A drum trap) lessons, and MY SOCCER TEAM WON OUR INDOOR GAME 7-10!! (it was indoor because I live in MN) Well, anyways, I updated my story and I'm gonna do a couple of things before I add another chapter and this is one of them, so my fans (aka me), YOU WONT HAVE TO WAIT MUCH LONGER FOR CHAPTER... 4.(I suck at commiting to things, but I'M SERIOUSLY GONNA TRY!). FYI, I might not be able to do as much as I want to online, so people, dont be dissapointed, becasue I have a project due tuesday for school thats worth 80 POINTS. And I really need those 80 points. Yep. Things to do, (as always). ... PLEASE LEAVE ME A COMMENT!!!

Date: November 3rd, 2007(FINALLY SATURDAY!!) Watching: Inuyasha Listening To: When ur gone-avril lavigne(how the f*** do u spell her last name?!?) Talking To: myself O.k. Its about 1:20 in the morning. It was really becasue when I came home from school, I slept for like 5 hours. *sigh* Then SOMEONE WHO MOST LIKELY IS READING THIS wouldn't answer her cell phone at 11, so I went online and finished my homepage(THE FIRST ONE I SET UP, If u want one like it go to xXBlackXDiamondXx Layouts. There are some pretty awesome layouts there, BUT REMEBER TO LEAVE A MESSAGE IN HER C-BOX TO TELL HER UR USING IT! O.k, I might delete my only story, and start fresh and new. Yep. I have alot to do online this weekend. Well, no sense in dilli-dalli-ing. WORK TO DO!