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May 14, 2008

Am I in the wrong?

I need some opinions.
Alright, I'm totally confiding in you guys at this point, so don't judge me, because I don't think anyone else has. And it's a miracle.
Here it goes.
This weekend I went to my mom's because she's out of the hospital and done with her chemo and cancer(YAY!!!!). Saturday I decided to hang out with Ape(April) for the afternoon, and it was the first time we'd seen each other in a while. So we both got ready, I went over to her house and then we started walking to The Fields.

*Let me paint a picture really quick*
I used to lived in an apartment complex with a bunch of my friends. Including April, Josh, Braxton, Nallely and Garrett. All 6 of us used to hang out together. Then we all split up and what not. Right next to the apartments is this huge field. It's really random. Right next the field is The Creek. And coming off the Creek is The Tunnel. Which is basically a sewer tunnel we hang out in. Yes, a sewer tunnel is one of my many hangouts. It's not dirty though, and it's not like you would picture. So, now you guys know what I'm talking about when I say these different landmarks. Oh and on the otherside of the Creek is another field.

Alright, so Ape and I went to The Tunnel and were sitting down for a couple minutes before this conversation happened.
Ape:I'm bored.
Me: Same. Nobody's here and there's nothing to do.
Ape:I'm got some weed at my house.
Me:Why did you not mention this earlier woman?!

So we both go get the weed then get high. We started calling people, including my boyfriend. We both go home, I passout, then go to dinner. Later that night Jonny, Tyler and Justin all come over. They have a backpack with a couple of 40's. (That's alcohol) We start drinking and Jonny and I started making out and crap. April calls me and I tell her to come over. She does, and she brings the weed. It's dark by now and we're sitting on the front lawn, but on the side of my house too. So we're on the corner really. And there's bushes in front of the front windows. Tyler breaks out his pipe and we all start passing it around. Jonny and I start messing around again.

Around 1 in the morning my mom comes out to the front and tells us it's time for them to go home and me to go inside. I say okay and we all leave. Luckily I'm allergic to grass and I have hives on my bare feet. So my mom thinks my red eyes are because of allergies. YAY!!! XD

Monday my boyfriend breaks up with me because I got high and he assumed I got drunk. Which I did, but still... him assuming crap about me really pissed me off, but I didn't care that he broke up with me. I wrote him a note saying, don't you ever assume about me and etc. And I also put, "oh, and by the way. I cheated on you with an old friend of mine. If you would have done soemthing besides a simple kiss for more than 3 or 4 weeks, it probably wouldn't have happened."

So am I wrong here? Should he be pissed off at me, when I never made him a promise to stop with pot and drinking? I know I shouldn't have cheated, but I was getting no action!!! I am still a virgin though! Go for drunken self control!!! Tell me what you guys think.

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