Phantom.Brave's Journal

Dad bought me Persona 4 rom the video store a while away. It's was 14.95 and worth every cent. This is one of the most fun games I have played in my entire life, and the social element of the game is lots of fun. Choosing who to see each day is a hard decision because I'm trying to get the bonuses but also wondering whether it's possible to actually max out more than one person's social rank. I've got Yumi Ozawa, the drama student, up to 9, and most others are trailing behind on 7. Chie is on 5 since I haven't hung out with her much. I joined the soccer club and drama club.
Wondering where a great place is to level grind.
Oh, and uni's up in 8 days. Completely disappoint. :l

Hey,
Downloaded Fallout 2 for Mac a little while ago. That game is a true gem among coal. It's so intricate and mess one thing up...and you mightn't even be able to follow a whole questline.
I've had to restart twice because first time: I traded all my goods without anything in return because I thought it was like...selling stuff...And the second time, I angered the people in Navarro and ended up being attacked on site, when the Brotherhood of Steel needed me to go in and infiltrate the base...
I've been invited to a birthday on a boat and I'm dressing up as Sailor Mercury with a friend of mine (who is going as Venus). I haven't found shoes yet (unfortunately) and I'm only just gonna grab some, uh... balley flats. Whatever they are. lol.
It's just a big rush to get it together... I hope it's alright.
I also drew a picture for a friend of mine, Haley, who moved away. It's a stick figure picture of us holding hands with Kakashi, her favourite character, and her dog and boyfriend in the background. Haha.
I'm also close to getting my P's and waiting for a reply from Hungry Jacks, the place I used to work until the start of year 12. I'm reapplying there because nobody away from where I live hired me, so I have to go back to the middle of nowhere. Admittedly, getting hired will be an amazingly good thing, allowing me to get some money to buy a new PC AND some upcoming games. Really need a hobby...
Anyways, I guess it's not much of an update. Just more musing.
-Celine

Hey, all. If I have any readers...semi-regular readers...

I'm going to say this might be a proper update. I'm turning 19 later this year.

Anyway, what I've been up to... I had my last exam for the 1st year of uni on the 16th of November. It starts back up again on the 27th of February, giving me more than 4 months off. This is because there's a semester in summer, which gives us a chance to do classes that we may have failed again.

I tried getting a job, but I didn't get a single reply except for the rejection emails. So, I've just been lying around at home. On the 6th, I met some new people at a barbecue and on the 10th, I went to my friend's going away brunch. She's moving to Mackay for two or more years. But it's alright, because she'll be back in a few months to visit. Hopefully.

When I really look back, it seems to be that I haven't done anything.

After the brunch, we went to the Gallery of Modern Art in Brisbane and then the Queensland Art Gallery. The Museum was closed. One of my compadres from uni told me that I had no friends because I was rude, and that really got me thinking about stuff. I suppose now I have resigned myself to less rude, but you can't rub off who you've been for 4 years in one week. Perhaps I won't even try.

I find writing fanfiction difficult, as I do not want to twist characters into some mould unless I am completely sure I know who they are. I can write "OC"s into a universe that already exists, but not write about existing characters. And most of the fanfiction I have written is dated, and I'd have to reacquaint myself with the series. Problem is, these things are long and taxing, and I have hardly the patience anymore.

I also went out and watched Puss in Boots and cried.

Enjoy yourselves now.

-Celine

Hey all.Met some cool people a while back.
Anyways, think you could rate. Just click on one rating from 1 star to five. thanks.

So... I guess I was gonna ask... If you're writing say, a one part or two, three, whatever partstory, how long would you normally make each part? I only have 1 1/2 pages in word for one part and it's been broken into reality and a flashback. I don't normally... Do short story chapters, but this is one...
Anyways, when I decide what comes next with it--already got plot down and out--then I'll upload it and you guys can read.
Hope you're well.
-Celine

And what does that spell.
RATE.Rate, rate,rate,rate,rate,rate,rate.Just a blasted click away.

Hey, readers, or whomever comes to my page. What's do?
I guess nothing new's going down. I got uni from Wed-Fri every week... And that's going alright. I've just got problems being sick in the mornings. Every bloody morning. Well... I'm going to see a doctor for that on Monday at 2, and then we'll see if anything can get solved. I told my mother that I'd book it at uni 'cause it was free, but she just blatantly ignored me and went ahead ranting. If it really was concern she was showing, she wouldn't be yelling out of her mind at me every time I said something negative.
I bought Duodecim the other day, and that's going alright. Along with writing, and playing, I've managed to get a few university pieces done for CompVis...
It's my birthday up in five days, so say hello to the new 18-year-old to join the ranks. Ew, gon' have to vote.
Have a good one.
-Celine

Yeah, so there's only seven more school weeks until we graduate year 12. That's so close, only 35 lots of 6 hours days at school. Then I get to go to the formal with my friend and sit at a table with friends. Still, we don;t know the venue, nor do we know what's actually happening that day... Time, place... Also, I don't have shoes yet, nor do I have transport. I have a partner, but he has no tuxedo yet.
Originally, I was supposed to go with H-greaves, but that's out the way considering all that's happened. That doesn't bother me too much. I took the invitation back, because I realised it was a bad idea to ask to go with him in the first place.
Luckily, I only have a set of exams on Monday, and then my IPT stuff due, then the term's out. Once I graduate, I won't have to see H-greaves any more, nor will I have to put up with depressing emo's being the gears pulling us closer to destruction. See, this is why I have such little faith in human life and existence. We're all so damned trivial. And sympathy is pathetic. Why would someone in a much worse situation than I sympathise with me when I cannot do to them?
So, you've got problems. Deal with them yourself, 'cause I can do pretty fine dealing with them.

So, I guess I don't really know how to start. I wish there was an option to delete previous entries, 'cause honestly, reading year 9--14-year-old me--made me wanna die. A lot has changed since olden times. I've moved areas twice, and now am sitting with Steph and Jamie in a bigger gazebo at school. The school was segregated into grades, but for some reason, our area is a little meeting pool of younger chillun and others. We've tried solving it by kicking them out, but they seem hellbent on staying. That annoys me quite a bit, since we're supposed to be seniors with power and passage. But apparently not.
Also, we're supposed to be mature, but that's out the window as well. There's a chick in my area that keeps on referring to me as Asian when she talks about me. I was referred as such by a year 10 girl that's been trollin' our area. But that's a long, long tale that I shouldn't have to keep recounting, otherwise, I could make it into a drama script. Ew.
It makes me feel that I'm not even a person when they can't use my name. I don't really understand the ways of these girls. And I sure hope I never really do.
Nothing to say, really. I wanted to make this longer, but I keep on changing the topic.

I know that every story I try to write, I never finish. I should probably try to, but I never have the patience. You can just expect to read the first one, then have nothing come of it, because that's just how I roll. Sorry, though, if you ever, ever seem to like anything that I ever write.

Much has happened in the past few month, obviously.
My laptop is once again back in my hands, and sitting on my lap.
School shows much disappointment, apart from my friends, whom have their own issues. Circles spin around my head and cause me dizziness.
I quite like "Addicted to Love" by Robert Palmer. He'd a wonderful voice. Too bad he has died.
For now this place is where I'll throw my thoughts. Little story concepts thrash my mind often, but I cannot make anything substatial of them. I'm not much of a writer. Naught has come of this. But know now...
I used to be a lurker. If i'd signed up earlier, my, my. I would be more accustome to this site.
I feel quite priveleged to have seen Quizilla in her prime. Her prime. Her.

Everything is made into a gender.
Ah, onto such of more importance. I've been and returned form Supanova. This year was not as enticing as last year, but with my own money from my place of employance - Hungry Jack's - I spent a total of $295, Australian.
I bought myself much, and with a few manners, I received a free art catalogue from www.mick-macks.com :).
He was very friendly and nice.
So, I shall tell you what I bought...
Flippy Bobble-Head - $20
Wall Scroll - $50
Castlevania Manga - $16.95
The Wizard of Oz comic - $16.95
MickMacks Bookmark - $3
BadTeeth badges - $5
Zombie Survival Guide - $27
Trinity Blood Boxset - $95
Black Lagoon Season One - $55
Okami Fanart - $5
Man Playing Instrument Poster - $12
Death do us Part - $4

That be-eth all I can remember for such a time. i found a nice shirt, but it was expensive at $70...

Beautiful...

That was the most "Hopeless Romantic" movie I have ever seen as of now. It's so sweet and passionate. Poor Gwen... Has anyone else seen it?

Alas, our meetings have been quite far apart, my dear. So today I have decided to share my daily travels with ye.

Is the message system still screwed? Because, I am getting messages from some chick called LauraPoet87 and someone called Junie2Rock, about Weight Watchers, and about a Poem Contest? 
Or maybe I just answered some journals and forgot?

Hey Guys, 
I just found out that my puppy in the Philippines was killed.
Her name WAS Wolf, and she died because the neighbours poured scolding hot water on her. i wish i was there when it happened, because i would've been playing with her, so she wouldn't have been burned to DEATH!!!
FUCKING HELL!!!
Bloody Hell, there should be animal cruelty laws there, but NO, there are like, no laws there at all.
-Phantom.Brave

Yeah, so back again dudes...
Bad ending, I thought. Simply because I felt empty in a way.
See, I fought so hard to get to this point, and i finish, only on level 53, and I feel as if there was going to be more, but there wasn't, and to prove this, I have some proof.
There is a little Sprite reward you get for completing different things. I received one by getting over level 50, which would suggest that the game would end soon. I fought Vayne 3 times, because that's what it took, and then on the third, he kept wiping me out, and stuff. 
So when I defeated him, there were heaps of scenes, and the saddest one was when Balthier, and Fran were inside the Bahamut, to fly it away from Rabanastre. The gang found out where he was and Ashe was sad, because she was afraid that he would die. He said he wouldn't because he was the leading man. Then Balthier told Fran to redirect the power to the coil things, but she didn't respond, because she was knocked out by fall debris. Then Balthier said, "Do I have to do everything myself?" Then he picked up Fran, and she said, "Actually, I think you're more of a supporting role." He replied, "oh, Fran." Then the ship sunk into the Dalmascan Estersand, or Westersand, whichever. And then it skipped into the future one year, Penelo was Narrating. She had sent a letter to Larsa, telling him how things were going, and then they found out that the Strahl was gone, and Balthier said to Vaan before, when they were entering the Pharos, with Reddas, who dies in an incredibly heroic way, that if something happened to Balthier, that Vaan would be the owner of the Strahl. Then, because of the ending, the Strahl was gone, and Balthier and Fran were okay. there was a note on this crystal, that said that he took the airship, and to give the note to Ashe. 
Ashe misses Balthier, and Vaan and Penelo were together at the end, but there was nothing to hint they were together. Penelo had an outfit change, which cuts awfully close to THAT area. She's kinda dressed like Vaan, for those who know the game, and her pants are puffy, and dark pink.
I really, seriously wanted to see them kiss, but NO. That was at the beginning, with Rasler, and Ashe. I was also hoping that Rasler wouldn't die, same with Reks, which you don't see at all after the beginning, except in the scene where Vaan picks that red flower in the desert, and remembers his brother loving those flowers. There is a scene where Vaan is in a hospital ward, and Reks is on a chair, staring out of a window, and he's nt responding to anything Vaan says, then he disappears. Vaan places the flower on the chair Reks was on, and picks up the ring left behind. 
Also, in the end, Balthier's letter, that Vaan and Penelo found, there was a ring inside the pack. It was because earlier in the game, Balthier asked for something to ensure Ashe's return, because she was going to take his airship. So in the end, the ring that Ashe gave, which was Rasler's wedding ring, was inside the packet. And, she got it back. I reckon they should've met again. 
Earlier too, Ashe nearly fell over in Phon Coast (unsure of this area), and Balthier held her hand, to keep her from falling, which i thought signified something, even though it was only small, because she was freaking out when the Bahamut was falling out of the sky.
Enough of my spoiler session.
Phantom.Brave

Hey Peeps,
I just totally cried my eyes out at the Ending, well not really, because I'm getting over the crying thing.
I thought Balthier DIED!!! It was so close, and Fran was knocked out. I want to be able to purchase the real animation scenes, like in FFX, but those theaters don't exist in the game. 
I feel sad also, because Basch's brother Dies...
Write more later.

Hey Guys!!

I know this may not mean anything to you, but the voice actor of Ryuhei, on MoonPhase, I think is the same guy that voices Watari, on Death Note!!!

Also, the guy that voices Kouhei, on MoonPhase, is the voice actor for the lead male character on REC, if that is the right anime I'm referring to.

See, I just started watching Death Note, second DVD now. And, yeah... I bought the first at Supanova, which I am totally going o next year, and the secong in EzyDVD in Grand Plaza. But, mum was angry because she hates anime, and gets pissy everytime that i talk about it.

I love the ending theme of Death Note, and the Special opening of MoonPhase. After I finish on Death Note, I'm gonna continue with Black Cat.

Bye!

Hey guys.
Today i went to Supanova. It was incredibly awesome, but I didn't know any of the voice actors, and whatnot there. I got 4 posters, a book, a doll of Keroberos (from Cardcaptors), a bookmark, a DVD, and a heap of pamphlets. If I had more money, I would've also bought The Zombi Survival Book, a doll of some chibi girl, which I don't know the name of, and a hat, which was part of Hazuki's cat costume, but some ass got to it before me. I freakin' wanted that hat! here were heaps of cosplaying people!! I saw, a Storm Trooper, Saber, Aerith (KH2 outfit), Kairi (Kh2), Axel, some guy from FF7AC, accompanied by a gut with a pipe, 4 Sailor Moons, Sailor Jupiter, Chii, or the other girl from Chobits, a girl with a wide, wire frame ball gown, Kisame, 4 Itachi's, Zabuza, Kankuro, 3 Narutos (1 Normal, 2 Shippuden/Hurricane Chronicles), 3 french maids, some guys from Bleach, and a heap of others, that I didn't know. I wanted Le Chevalier D'eon Manga, but the first one wasn't there, and all the rest were drawn really crappily. So, I bought a book called Minerva and Me, a Death Note DVD Volume 1, 2 KH 2 Posters, a Death Note, and Black Lagoon poster, and a Caricature of myself...
All in all, it was pretty awesome there, but I needed more money!
I was stamped, Phantom.Brave

Hey everyone, how've you been?
I'm having such a horrible life, and all I do now is burst into tears. I'm crying now, just so you know. See, Jamie (my 'friend') has a sister, Jess, and her sister was invited into our area by Jamie, along with 2 of her friends. But, last week, Jamie told me that 2 people are living with her, Hayden and Jess2, and they were going to sit with us. I know that's not such a big deal, but to me it is, because I'm territorial, and stubborn. 
Then, when they first moved there, I found out that this (incredibly) ugly, SEU boy likes me, so I upped and left for the day, but the guys I was sitting with called him over, and I screamed at them not to, so then he thought I liked him. Then a rumor began saying that I wanted to go out with him, but I don't because of the sentence earlier. Then I said that I don't 'go out' because I don't think it is, because no one has a car, and I won't believe it's dating, until they graduate. 
Also, Jess2 and Hayden made a kitten stoned, and they play with each other, and have sex in Jamie's bed. So, back on track. Today, that Ryan kid was there, and Jess decided that she wanted to bring another friend, so now there is 7 people, not including Hayden, Jess2, or the table OWNER, Andrea. And, Andrea's usually away, so no hope for me. And, when I asked Jamie to stop inviting people, she just said that it isn't my area, and that she can invite as many people as she likes. But, once again (different story involved with the 'once again') my opinion doesn't matter. 
Yesterday, as I was saying, Hayden, Jamie, Ryan (SEU), and I were there, and Jamie was telling them about my secrets, and about how I don't 'go out' with people, how I broke down sex, how I think masturbation is wrong (they laughed at me, and interrogated me), and all sexual stuff. I told them to drop this subject, but Jamie said no, because it was funny. And I said, "Just because I'm not like you." But, I'm sick of them being in our area, OUR being the key word, because my opinion doesn't matter. 
So, continuing again, one of the year 8 girls (because at our area, we put our names on the place we sit) wrote her name over mine. 'Brooke's Seat' it said. NO F***ING WAY. (Mood swing.) BECAUSE I'M TERRITORIAL!!! So, I called jamie yesterday, about her to stop telling my secrets, and today, because of the mass of people there. 
Then I got an earful from Jess2, who said that that is the way you meet people, and I said that I have enough friends, and that I don't need anymore. And she said, "So, if you go to a party (I said I don't go to parties, 'cause I don't), you stay away from people because you don't want to meet anyone?" THen she mocked me, saying, "Oh, I don't want to know anyone because I'm a rude, F***ing B***h." And, Jamie doesn't like her, and I've screwed myself into the ground, so I'll just sit with Steph, my better friend. 
After Jess2 blew her head up at me. I was all silent, because she said that she wasn't trying to be rude, but she swore at me. Then Jamie began talking to herself, and said stuff about her day at school. I swear, if they graffiti my table, then I will kill them. I painted Jess' bag a little. I was getting advice from Mr. Mears, my other friends, and Mrs. (is that right?) Taylor. But, none of them were helping...
Please help me, I want the other people out, but i don't want to leave, and Jess is registering there...