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About Me
Well i'd say i love to write but as you can see i dont really write on here or indeed anywhere. maybe i should try it sometime if anyone is willing to give me a chance i'd be willing to write a one shot for them but it has to be about Pokemon,digimon(series 1 or 2 only), yugioh or yugioh gx )>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> you say pink i say black, you say miley cyres i say she sucks,u say zac effron i say WTF,you say pop i say rock,you say
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Latest Journal Entry
March 29, 2009
My loving deceased Dad
Dear DadYou passed away on the 1st March 2009 and i found our 2 days later. When Nana first told me i burst into tears- that was it you were gone, i felt sick, i felt numb but most of all i felt guilty. I hadn't seen you since September 2007 when you had your kidney transplant when you came and visited us (your other two children) i didnt go because i was angry at you looking back i dont even know why i was angry at you- i know you probably cant see or even want to see this but i just had to get it out. I feel so bad for not going to see you my sister saus your face was really puffy but mum says it was probably from the anti rejection drugs you were taking. Its been six years since you walked out on us and i have no idea why mum says theres many reaosns but i dont think shes right- the only person who could answer that is you and now your gonei probably will never know. I always remember you as my dad- the one who protects me and always bought me whatever i wanted you bought me my first computer. Im going to feel guilty for the rest of my life theres so many things i didnt ask or didnt tell you the most important being I LOVE YOU i know its awful never telling your parents you love them and for that Im so sorry, im sorry for insulting you and im sorry for bad mouthing you. When we cleaned out your flat i found a book on coping with depression- i have some understading on why you did many of the things you did like running away and being overprotective of us. You;ve been gone sinse i was 11 and i thought i had gotton used to you not being there but i was so wrong know your gone i miss you more than ever- Mother Wriight feels aweful she kept shouting you lef me and him gone" If there one thing i want its to say goodbye- its hard trying to accept you've gone- you've always looked so young for your age (although dying at 49 is by no means old) but looking at you in the chapel of rest made me want to cry you looked about 80 in the coffin- you didnt look like you at all- but seeing you so thin made me realise you were suffering and i'd rather you be at peace and out of any pain then staying here on earth and dealing with discomefort. I know you hated hospitals because of when your mum died and i know you really missed her if there is a God and Heaven i hope you are up there with her and Auntie Joy and Miss Yew and everyone else that you have ever loved and cared about if theres one last thing you could do for me its just say goodbye- i know that sounds greedy but i just need to see you one last time- i know you spoke to me about 3 weeks ago to say you're ok and your with your mum but i need to see you. Do you look like you do in the coffin or do you look like you always have? Someone told me at your mums funeral you stopped digging and walked off when you were burying her- i did the same at yours i coudlnt bare seeing them lower youinto the ground i came back eventually and threw a rose on your coffin-everyday i think of you and cry and i probably always will, If i ever get married it will be an emotional day because you wont be there to walk me down the aisle. My life is goin got be full of what ifs for the rest of my days i just hope you are at peace now- i dont want you to worry about dialysis or your kidneys or even about following your special diet. I love you dad and i always will as you know im not good at writing my feelings down i hope i can see you again one day but for now REST IN PEACE ALVIN PATRICK BROWN 17 MARCH 1959-1ST MARCH 2009 the sad thing is you died 16 days before your 50th at the funeral pastor Joan said you always said when you were younger you wouldnt live to see 50 guess you were right all along. Goodbye my llving and intelligent Dad may you rest withthe angels and be reunited with your mother,father,sister and step father. I'll always love you Daddy love your eldest Daughter Chantal xxx
