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June 12, 2007

plz read....advice needed

well i am invited to a party, and i don't know what to do, well i know i am going, my high school friends are throwing it, and they are awsome, people but i am in 8th grade aka middle school, after the 21st i guess i am considered a high school student. well the thing is, my ex and his friend are going, pj and joleen are throwing it, and i don't know i mean pj likes me a lot jo leen says he won't shut up about me, today, he rode my bus and walked me home, then we went to his house, then we got people to hang out w/, i mean he is sweet, but i got over being heartbroken, like 2 weeks ago, well i don't know if i am going to flirt w/ other boys, i mean there are going to be other boys, and girls, but i mean high school people, which i am close ood friends with, i just don't want to urt pj he likes me way more than i like him, he is sweet and i probably will end up dating him, when we walk around he holdmy hand, or well he loves to put his arm around my waist, he reall likes me, he is 16 and i am 14, but i useually end up dating older, (not illegal though) i mean  it is a sleep over thing, and there will probably be no sleeping, i mean what if i hook up w/ another, boy that is not pj, i don't want to crush him, there will be like 20 people at this party by the way. (and there might be drinks) and i am scared, what if i get feeling back for my ex, i just don't want to hurt pj, because he gets me, i mean he gets my depression and cutting which i do again, i couldn't help it i broke down. my dad told me i was worthless, so the other night i cut, now i probably will be able to talk to him, hopefully.


so, what do you people think i should do at the party, be a big flirt, or hang on pj????
(I JUST DON'T WANT TO HURT HIM.)

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