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December 17, 2008

My Ex, Her Life, My Life.

It's crazy, for the past three weeks I thought she was better than me, but I was still better than her. I'm really somewhat surprised at the fact that I'm doing better than her. It's somewhat of a feeling like I accomplished something. Here I am, the one who's all going through so many mood swings and depressive states of the mind, and still remain strong. I appreciate life with what little I have, as she, she disrespect life and feels there's no point to it all when she has so much. She needed me, probably still does. Do I need her? No. It feels so weird though, because, for all this time I thought I needed her, I thought she was just something so beyond 'face to face' but now I see she's just a fragile girl. My love for her still exist and it feel breathes, I may write poems but it's merely inspired by the experience I've had with her. I feel sorry her though, she has to become something that her friends are, just to keep them. She gave in. I think everyone has to go through that same thing, where you have to do something that your friend does for them to want to hang out with you. Me? No, I never want to lose my true self, even if at times I feel like I'm nothing. The way how I know I'm doing good is when I'm writing these poems or songs, and people tell me that it's very good. It makes me feel proud because I'm making things because of how I feel, not to impress others, yet I have people rooting me on. This entire journal was made to.. just say what was on my mind. The mood I'm in is calm.

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