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April 19, 2006

shit, shit and more shit.

omfg!! i play guitar, and i have an acoutic(which i got 4 mi birthday a year or 2 ago) and now i am getting a bass guitar from mi parents,and im saving up money for an electirc one. im so fucking happy!!!! YAY!!! ok. on to the next subject. people are faggoty assholes. yea. they are. i am now officcialy known as the "goth girl". how steriotypical is that? ok, so im not exactly the happyest person in the world, and i like wierd stuff, but i don think tht im goth. im just a bit darker than other "normal" people. and normal people are starting to piss me off. they label you, and they stay in their little groups, and they dont take risks. wen im with mi friends, i am happy, but sometimes i feel like i am being held down. i don no y tho. its reely confusing. i dont get y im here. theres not much good stuff in my life rite now. i havent talked to the guy that i actually love for a long time (he likes me to, and we met at camp). my mom thinks that i hate her ( idont hate her, i just dont like her that much). i HATE my step dad so much because he ruined my life, he took my mom away 4rm me, he takes everything away from me. i havent seen or heard frm my biological father since i was 4 years old. i have almost no rights, and my parents think that they control me. THEY DONT. im so afraid of not being able to hold on any longer. nothing is working out the way i planned. i hate so many things, i just want eveything to go away. sleep is my only comfort. but even then, sometimes i am disturbed by freakish dreams. i want to escape.

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