animelover8956's Journal
April 21, 2009
its stupid how i look for you in the hall , but look away when i see you
heey noone , so i kno i said i prob wouldnt update this soon , but i changed my mind , and needa vent a bit . i went to school td and it was like any other day , which pissed me off a bit , but anyway . They were cute together , and i didnt really feel as strongly towards him , but for some odd reason , i felt resentful . like when he walked over to me while i was talkin to someone and said hey , i would usually say hey right away , but instead i completely finished what we were saying then said a quick hi. And he usually grabs my ribs and tickles me , but today instead of playfully pushing his hand away , i hit his hand away . He didnt try and tickle me after that ;/ , and all day after i was with them together i was a bitch ! i have nooo clue why . i was just really really moody , and so im gunna try and be nicer tmro , cuz im a genuinely nice person , im not accually a bitch . but maybe its cuz of my lack of sleep lately , ive been getting like 5-6 hours sleep and i think its cuz my mom bought these new kindsa cookies that are AWEsome , and ive been eating then non-stop and theres alot of sugar in them :S , but ye , im gunna try and get to bed early tonight , so ill ttytmro ? byee!
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April 20, 2009
ok , so my love life ...
ok soo , this is my first journal entry . i thought it was about time i did one of these :) so , me and my bf broke up about a month ago , and i thought i was over him , until i showed up at my cousins and he was there , we had a really fun time , and i ended up liking him again , and hetold me he liked me again , then hewent away , andwhile he was there ,my friendand him started talking on msn, then he was completely head over heals for her . it hurt when he told me , buti pretended it didnt and i knew thatmy friend was lying tohim and i told him , but he wouldnt beleive me , and hes areal sweetyand i didnt wanna hurt him by saying , no reallyshes lying . you see , he plays drums and she was after telling him she did to , but she dosnt , she was liek my bestt friend in grade 5 and 6 , and then she moved away . my ex is a year younger then me , cuz i failed last year , and thats how i met him. and then we hung out again and i realllllly liked him again . and apperently he did too , but im not sure cuz he never told me that time , but his friend (also mine ) told me he did . cuz i was after telling him , my bff , that i liked him , my ex , again . So i was really crushing on him , and then i went to the dance, the first dance since we had broke up , and he danced with this girl , a new one . and then he danced with a different girl . ( the girl , my friend , that he liked lived away ) he didnt even kno the second girls name when he danced with her , but i was talking to him after the dance and i was like , lol so you dance with ...... and he was like , oh so thats her name . i was like you didnt even kno her name ?! . and i found that bad , and i think it would of hurt her if she knew he didnt kno her name , since she was my friend to . lol . so after that him and ...... started hanging out alott , and she started liking him alot . and people started saying they had a 'thing' and stuff , then i was talkin to him one day and he was like , guess wa ! ...... likes me , and i was like , you didnt kno ? and he was liek no , so he didnt even kno they had a thing , then after a few days he asked her out ... and so , last night was the first night i ever cryed over a guy . ive been dumped and ive dumped people before , but he was my first real serious bf , and i accually cried when they started going out , and td i didnt go to school , but i kno that tmro is gunna be really hard to see them together , but ill get through it and ill stay with my bestfriends and stuff . but the part that hurts the most is that when we were going out , we were going out for 3 months and only hung out outta school once !!!! , and they kissed THE day they started going out . and prob hung out like 10 times before . it makes me sad and mad at the same time . but i have to go cuz i got school in the morning , ill update someday , bye
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