blindingeyes's Journal

Three cheers to you, my love.

Sweet revenge

Once again
Youve got me standing on
My window's ledge.

It's only collateral damage

Step up, grab my hand.
Gorgeous view.
Gorgeous you.
This isnt what you expected, was it?

Together.
Together we will float like angels.
But your doing this alone.
When push comes to shove
It was all your faul anyway.

Snap. You break in
Ways not tollerable
Such a pretty face
Now ruined by a crimson facade.
You look so good in red

Crooked smiles
from across the room.
Make my knees go weak
Baby, remind me to breathe.

You're teasing to please
with that sarcastic tone
We're a one sided
Storybook romance.

With kaleidoscope eyes
you're Baby Terror
ripping apart my heart
One vein at a time.

Rip me apart
as much as you'd like.
Just promise
to be all mine.

Ive got a hole
In my tongue
And now Im bleeding
Out words to
Make you stay.

Blood loss too
Much to bear
Fall to the floor.
Darling, its so dark.

Hit my head
I awake.
'Where am I?'
'Who am I?'
'Why wont you love me?'

Questions longing.
Leave me gasping.
The hole in my tongue
Gaping.
Your staring.

'WHY WONT YOU
LOVE ME?'
I cry out.
You just run away.
I've got a hole in my tongue
Because I've got
No heart.

Teeth so shiny
Voice so whiney
Hands so slimey

I gave you my heart
You gave me a fake.
I gave you my hand
You gave me a prostetic

You dropped my heart
And its shattered
I'll cut your head off
And use it as a broom to pick up the pieces

No beauty lies in me anymore
I suggest that everyone stay away
I'm about to break down.
Im a dangerous mother fucker.

You stuck your tongue down my throat
And I shoved my hands down it
While your back was turned
And now, I'm empty

Youve ripped out whats mine
Thanks a lot, love
Youve turned me into a monsterous cliche
Everyone: come hate me.
Its not too hard.

Teej;; dont make promises youre bound to break
xxx

You say this is paradise
But all I see are ruins
My lifes come crashing down again
My past is attacking the future
And the white flag is waving high
I give up.

You say I'm a fuck up
That everything I scream is a lie
I'll scream right back at you, babe.
You want a war,
Youve got it.
Youre the one who fucked me up in the first place.

The only one I let my walls down for
And youre the attacker.
Traitor
Who would have known?

Dont back track
Dont sweat it, babe.
To put it simply:
Go jump off a cliff and land on the rocks.

Maybe its just better...
If one of us were dead.

Teej;; unfortunate soul
xxx

Fist first,
Down your throat
Where no beauty lies
And take out, what is rightfully mine.

Because, Cupid's got me
In a chokehold
And I've got you in
A headlock

Baby, I want to
Choke you something beautiful.
Not joke you something awful
I want to choke you dead.

Baby, these days are bleeding
This month is almost dryed out
And this year is old like a dying father

Kid, I can see you crying for
That halo
Baby, it wasnt ment for you
To missuse

Because, angels dont exist
And love is a lie
So maybe, you should disapear.

Teej;; in regards to myself
xxx

I wish I kept
My lies in my head
I hide behind the faux
But, I'm scared.

All the time
I've been lost
Maybe I need to be found.
I'm found out?

I'll give you a reason to hate me.
But, youre my heart.
Yeah, I have one.
What have I done?
I can make you hate me.

I'm sobbing.
The pen against the paper,
The blade against my wrist
His hand against my cheek
I'm fumbling away the tears.
Youre going to hate me.

I'm not strong enough.
Without you is nothing.
Dont hate me.
I love you.

Teej;; best friends means friends forever?
xxx

We're not falling in love
We're just falling apart.
Baby, kick it up a notch.
Youre losing it.

When you say 'shotgun'
I say 'shoot me'
Shotgun
Fuck you

Kid, where'd that vicious tone go?
Where's the bite?
Baby, give me malice
Baby. Say it like its a bad thing.

No one puts baby in the corner.
And I'm sitting all alone.
I'm a boxer.
With no hands.

Youre a flying guillotene
Choking me,
Making me dedicate
My last breath to you.

We're not falling in love.
We're just falling apart,
And I'm about ready to shatter.

xo ox
te ej

I dont walk, I strut.
Oh, I talk to him so eloquent
Baby. Youre reading lips
You're a keniving bitch, you whisper.
When did she get so confident?.

Kid, this isnt me trynig to impress you.
Cause I'll never
Well, I'll never sleep alone.
You just want my touch.

Oh, I'm blood shot for sure.
This lack of sleep is effective.
Baby, my pale skin and purple lips.
Dont you want me?

Or not?

Earth to you, baby.
You think you've got it all figured in.
All you 'know' is fake.
I dont have that masochistic kiss

I loath. I depise.
Kid, I wish I could rewind this.
Remember when we were still a we?.
Cross my heart. Hope to die
Splinter from the bed post in my eye.

Not confidence.
Baby, stop reading lips

Cry on the couch
'Till the poets come to life
Baby, keep crying
My wrists still sting
The mocking birds still sing

Oh, this is in loving memory
But, Im not dead yet
Fix me in 45
Baby, Im still broken.
Give me another

Hand me the
Concoxtion of failure
Give me the
Drink of dispair
Kid, hit me up with a thriller

Oh, hand me another
I havent had enough yet
Let me swallow one more demon
I want to pay the price

Tear up my head
Tear up my heart
Tear up my insides
'Love' will tear us apart

Close your eyes
Baby this will
Be over soon

I can controll you
I can contort you
Kid, I own you

Or maybe I just wish
I do
Baby, I want you as mine

Dont be meak
Dont take after me
Cut deep

Doll, I want you
Listen to my sins
Arent they delectable?

Tell me that you want me

Oh, Ill drop the daggar
And lather the blood on your hands
In the end,

I'll write the sins
I'll whisper them oh-so-sweet
Honey, I'll commit them too

But, baby
Havent you noticed?
I'm framing you. How cliche

Youre just there
The one I want to own
Maybe its because

You stole my heart
And I want to do simillar
All Ive learned about breaking hearts is from you

I want to kill you like only a best friend could
Dont appologize. I hope you choke and die
They'll never love you as much as I do

I want you own you
Or maybe, I just want
Your last breath dedicated to me

Teej; youre a whore

Baby, your attitude is expiring
And I'm finally ripe
This isnt a scene anymore
Its a war

Shes becomeing the girl she said she'd never be. And shes talking to other people about me. Nine people came up to me today. Mother fucking NINE. At least they have guts, unlike her. God mother fucking damnit! Im sorry Im not your lap dog! Im sorry Im my own person! Im sorry I'm not jealous.

She calls me last night-we have been fighting(?) for a week or so-and she was crying. She never crys. She was saying how her dad was 'high'. Which is stupid, since her dad is the most responsible father I know. I hate her I hate her I hate her.

Shes spreading rumors about me, not that anyone knows my name. She's being a whore. And, Im a sucker. Im too nice. I didnt need to pick up the phone last night.

I've cried myself to sleep over her (and among other things) for the past week.

I feel like a three year old when I say "I dont want to be her friend anymore!" Because, I DONT! If she treats me like shit, why should I give a fuck about her?

Well, I may just hate Rebecca Marie.

Teej;; think me naive
xxx

You sugar coat
Your lies.
With the sweetest smiles.

You make my
Ears swoon
With the heavenly
Sins that escape your lips.

Cross my heart.
Hope to die.
The notch in the bed post.
Caught my eye.
Darling, death's in a
Double bed tonight.

Cnotrolling the room
With tilted thight
And a demeiner
That would make anyone
Shed their clothes in spite.

But, Baby.
Swoon.
This is the new
Blood rush.
But, I'm doubting
My portrait of skin.
But your lies.
Make me feel
Atop this scene.

Teej; we have an emergency, baby.

Oh Darling,
I'm evil, I'm evil
Oh Darling,
I've sinned, I've sinned.

Stay away,
It may be contagious.
Honey, I bleed black
Baby, I sip crimson.

Babe, I'm dangerous.
I'll lash out.
I'll fucking attack.
Honey, Stay away.

Darling, I bite.
I'll break through your skin.
Oh, like an angel,
I scream with blood on my teeth.

Darling, baby.
But I lust for you.

My taste buds are cursed
With the taste of ink
From the pen I use
To write the bitter
Twisted lie named love.

And I am poisoned
By the led
From the pencils
That I've bitten
The ones with no erasers
Because of the times I've
Erased the fucking truth.
And filled the lines in
With love thats filled with hate.

And say you oh,
You are so cool.
Scissors shaped across the bed
Like your hips
Crashed.

Crash like cars,
Not like pppparties
Oh, like how they crashed against yours.
Baby, why couldnt they crash into mine?

Teej;; No one I Knew ever loved me like I could love you.

Baby, sorrow is
All the rage,
And you know how
You attempt to follow
The trends of the scene.

Honey, despair is in.
And I'm the model
On all the billbords

Baby, I sip this poision
As you pucker your lips
Well, faux affliction is
The latest fashion statement
And you and the monsters of this scene
Are the newest designers

But, baby.
I write sins
Not tradgeties.
And I lie in ink,
You dress me up in problems
And make breaking hearts
Look ever so cool.

Well, honey
Dying is the it thing
Oh, taring up your joints
Is so five minutes ago
Baby, get with it.
I thought you were king.

Teej;; nightmares are for dreamers

Baby, I've strained my ears.
To hear their whispers.
Oh, I've had my eardrums blown out
From hearing the war calls
Baby, the peircing screeches.

Oh, my eyes have dried out
From the over use of seeing despise
Oh, and my skin is brusied
From the pain they inflict.

I've sat in the corner
Until it turned round.
I've hidden from them
Until I lost myself completely

Why scream until your tonsilis fly out?
Why injure the ones
Closest to you?
To realease aggression on the ones you
Quote on quote love

Baby, I cant stand them.
Baby, I've lost too much blood.
Let me run away.
Baby, I'll die.
Before I'll ever get to live.
Baby, baby, baby.
Parents

Ding dong.
Youre dead.
You go down.
Like the liquor
In a shot glass.

Bang bang.
Hell holds you below.
Youre the devils.
Fucking best friend.
And you say I'm evil?
Baby, please.

Oh oh.
Down in the ocean.
You go.
I'll drown you in my
Miseries and problems.

Pow pow.
Oh, the triggers been pulled.
My pen is a gun barrel
And your face my notebook
Baby, did you get what you deserved?

Jump jump
Baby, its better than jail.
Because my heart will
Keep you locked in chains
Baby, youre a prisnor.

Fall fall
Dying is fortunate.
Dont play with fate.
It's how your supposed to be.
Dead, baby, never coming back.

Ding dong, die.
Bang bang, below.
Oh oh ocean.
I hope it swallows you whole.

Pow pow, pulled.
Jump jump, jail.
Fall fall, fortunate.
Poor unfortunate soul.

Youre dead !

Oh baby.
Looky here.
I'm letting fo.
What happened to your promise of
Saving me?

Woah. Slow dance on the inside.
but, honey.
We live in a fast pased world.
It wont stop for us.
But, dance to this beat.
And hold me, your lover, close.

Tell me I'm beautiful.
Darling, tell me I'm amazing.
Goodness gracious.
Tell me you love me.
Tell me what I want to hear.

Baby, you make me.
Weak in the knees.
With the way.
You lie to me.
Just so I feel amazing.

Honey, tell me.
That you'd die for me.
Oh, I want you to prove it.
Hold my hand, dont look down. And we'll jump together.

My heart beats,
For the diehards.
So, why is my heart
Still pumping my
Pessimistic blood.
Through my narcissistic veins.

Tell me you'd die for me.
Give me your blood.
Baby, tell me you'd
Jump with me.
Baby. Be my diehard.
And die for me.

And, tell me all that I want to hear.

Teej; so tired of trying

I'm just the girl
Whos never been kissed.
And youre just the boy
Who's done too much.

I'm nothing compared to her.
This is nothing compared to yours.
Baby, I'm the understudy.
You & her will live.
Together in the spotlight.
Honey, I'll be in the shadows.
Back behind the curtain.

Baby, gouge out my eyes.
Darling, rip up my skin.
Merely one glance at you two together.
Will do me the fuck in.

And as tears wet my face.
Sweat drenches yours.
Attatching you and her together.
Hips glued to hips.
Lips on necks.
The bed indented with the outline of your bodies.

Baby, youre tormenting my heart.
My little black heart.
Lost somewhere too deep to be anywhere.
Baby, stop commiting this sin.

Mr. Duplicity.
You havent forgotten me.
Bastard, you lead two lives.
But you havent forgotten her either.
Youre right, to be like this.
I'm wrong to wallow in self pitty.

Baby, why have me?
When you can have her, too.
And as jealousy kills the innocent virgin.
You say it like its a bad thing;
She's unbuttoning her bra and removing the rosary from her neck.

Her clothes are on the floor.
Because of you.
My blood slips from the skin.
Because of you.

I grasp at my chest.
Fingers spread wide.
Just like her legs,
Spread wide, as you go inside

Baby, this is a matter
Of lust & dispair.
Baby, I'm dying.
Baby, if I let go.
Would you care?

Baby, why fall for
The girl whos never been kissed.
When youre the boy.
Who's Mr. Duplicity, Mr. Experienced.

And this is how the story goes
Nothing turns out well in the end.
Come one, come all; this tragic affair.
Baby.I'm letting go.
And we
All. Fall. Down.

Mr. Duplicity.
You broke me.
Oh, this big time sensuality.

Teej; just a little devotional