bookangel101's Journal

Den

R.S wasn't so bad after all, the teacher [like all the others] didn't reli care if us 6 worked or not. It's still scary! Wel also had G&T today [p.s. we have it everyday-" in order to keep our talents alive!] and I actually did some work. Shock horror! It was awkward with me and Nath not talking so I set to work on my project-with my music blaring into my ears. Oh yeh, I forgot to tell you, my favourtie music is Three Days Grace Pain. I wasn't the only one working on my project though, as all the others settled down to do their work as well. It was inevitable that sooner or later Onyx and Ami were going to pick up on the firction between Nath and myself. So, as expected, after 10 minutes of working, two peices of paper anonymously appeared on my desk. Right on cue!

Onyx: What ahppened between u + Nath? u 2 have been mates 4ever.

Ami: Marie, what did u do to Nath? Lovers tiff? u've never fought this bad!

Instead of catering to the individula notes I wrote the same reply to both.

Me: we had a fight & its not of ur b-i-isness.
Surprisingly I didn't receive a reply.

The regret inside me grew all day and it still is. The cafe after school just made it worse, he completely ignored me and it reli peeved me off. This is driving me crazy! He's my best friend and I've known him all of my life, so why does he hate me? If tomorrow is the same then I'm going to confront him; I think. Shadow has just jumped onto my lap and he is attempting to read my journal-thankfully cat's can't read. Or can they? I actually have no idea. I love having a cat, it's so relaxing to just sit there and stroke them when ur stressed. Well I've got homework-today just keeps getting better; NOT!

Melody x

Ok, I'm no normally a paronoid person, but I am certain that something is going on with this school! It's Monday, the day everyone loves to hate. So when we walked into the school half asleep, in another realm and wishing it was still the weekend, we were bombarded by 'Good Mornings' and smiley faces. At one point I actually hid behind Tala because it was scaring em so much. I hate it! I'd rather fo back to being insulted and ignored. Being invisible would be so much better than having then watch me all the time, well not all the time but a large percentage of it. We've all noticed it, yet we have no idea what id causing it. I guess we'll just have to put up with it until we incover the truth. It better be soon because no way is this natural even the teachers are like it.

So after concluding that the whole school is wack, I'm still stuck here on my French class with Onyx drawing on my left and Ami singing on my right; Kai, Tala and Nath are all sitting behind us. This is our normal formation but we often alternate who sits whee. The teacher is attempting to impose french propositions into our heads but has no bother that us 6 aren't paying the slightest bit of attention to any of it. I don't intend to go to France anytime soon and if I do they speak a lot of English anyway. I don't know why, but I have a feeling that Nath is looking at me because I can feel someones eyes burning into the back of me and he is sitting behind me. Things were reli awkward this morning when we all met at the gate. I was the last to turn up as I'd over slept and Nath wouldn't make eye contact. Maybe telling him my secret wasn't such a great idea, I 'm beginning to regret it now. Only time will tell what his reaction will be. Oh damn it the bells just gone. I've gotta go to R.S. now-oh the joys.

Melody x

My Room

They've all left know and the house is eerily quiet without them. I still can't believe that we're all creatures of the night yet none of us could tell one another; but now, the secret out-well to my friends at least. Now I'm stuck with the question: 'Do I tell my parents?' What do you think I should do journal? Wait, you don't talk. Why don't you talk!? You should! I wish I knew what you would say if you could talk. I need guidance! I need someone to tell me what to do so I don't have to think about it myself. Ok, that makes me sound lazy-which I'm not. I mwan this isn't the 'Mum, dad I got detention' thing, its the 'Mum, dad I'm a creature of the night' thing; which just complicates it so much more. I want my parents to know, yet at the same time I would like to stay out of the mental institute. If you catch my drift.

Nothing much actually happened today. Me and Nath were the first to wake up so we got breakie and discussed fallen angel stuff, like how did we become them in the first place. Ok what you have to undesrsatnd is that fallen angels aren't immediately fallen angels, they must have done something to make their wings change from white to brown [for girls] or black [for guys]. This is why most fallen ange;s are usually so secretive about themselves. I told him mydarkest secret-how I fell.

The thing is as an angel you have tests and responsibilities, just like everyone else but they are mores significant as your wings develop further. Anyway I was walking down the alley about 8 years ago and I saw a person start a fight, I knew ir was a test and that I should step in to stop it, but...I didn't. Instead I turned around and walked away. The person died. I caused that, if I'd stepped in I could have stopped that person dying, but I was 7 and scared. How could someone possibly expect a 7 year old to sort out that type of adult violence? Anyway, because I didn't help, I hadn't fulfilled my 'job' as an angel. My white feathers painfully fell out of my wings and brown ones replaced them, my blonde hair also turned brown along with my blue eyes. I was now a fallen angel.

Never before had I told anyone the secret of how I fell, even if people had known what I truely am I still wouldn't have told them-I'm too ashamed.Nath was so understandiung about it and comforted me when I broke down, Now; I'm not a person who often cried, but this reli got to me today. After I'd sorted myself out Nath was about to tell me how he'd fallen, but the others all walked in. Maybe he'll tell me another day, but, I don't know, it has to be the right momet. Apart from that nothing else reli happened. We all talked about the situation a bit more but just went back to being normal friends, which e are-we just have other gifts and abilities. I have to say thought, I feel so much closer to Nath then I ever have to anyone; having so much trust for one person worries me as it's something I've never known. I need to think about how I feel about feeling like this.

Melody x

Den

After all said and done, being invisible totally sucks. I can sit there sometimes and my friends won't even notice I'm there, they don't even hear what I have to say. I don't usually mind but it's fetting to me-a lot. If I'm not careful I think I might explode; being invisible is good when it's got people at school but not when it's yor friends. Maybe I'm just over reacting. Anyway about this party.

Ok, please believe me when I say none of us discussed what we were going to the party as. Therefore, I went as a fallen angel, and so did Nath; Ami went as an elemental, and so did Kai; Onyx went as a demon, and so did Tala. To be honest none of us picked up on it as we're all close friends, ok we oticed, but we just laughed about it. We met up at the cafe before heading to the party. The owner was pleased that his cafe had 'inspired' us to go as creatures of the night [well apparently it did]. After a twenty minute thank you speech we made our way to the party. Everyone was reli nice to us all the time we were there, they kept touching my wings and marvelling at how life like they were. I couldn't actually register it, we even got invited to another party! All of us got dragged into playing truth and dare but it went ok, they went easy on us. Well at least I hope that's what it was. We left the party at midnight and slowly headed back to my house. I was tempted to just fly the rest of the way home but thought against it. No duh!

Anyway, we got back to my place and made our way up to the den. Ok, I know it was late but it still doesn't account for how stupid I was. I stretched-and so did my wings. Yes I flexed my wings right there in front of the friends that don't know my secret. All of them were shocked and Ami even screamed. I cringed. I can be such an idiot sometimes! Does this mean that my bad luck has returned? because that had back luck written all over it. So, I confessed. Nervously, I confessed to being a fallen angel, I had no idea how they were actually going to react. I expected them to back away thinking I was a freak and how they never wanted to be near me again, but instead Nath hugged me. You got it! I confessed to being a fallen angel and he gave me a hug. Wierd! Then he flapped his own wings rising upwards. Him too. He's a fallen angel as well and none of us knew. It was confession time. We all sat down and confessed all our secrets to one another, our friendship is stronger then ever. The other's 'ccostumes' also turned out to be their true identities. We are all magical creature, what is the likeliness of that happening? It's like zero to one, and none of us knew how to tell one another. I still haven't quite taken it in yet but at least there aren't any moe secrets. Well, I best get some sleep before the others wake up afrom my light. Tomorrow is going to be a very interesting day!

Melody x

Den

Ok, I know painting signs sounds boring but when you have loads of different colours and 2 friends, it's a great laugh! We did get the work some I assure you, just. Anyway it's Saturday morning anf we have a part-ey tonight! I can't wait. It's gonna be the first popular party I've been to, and I don't have to get all dressed up. We all got asked about a thousand times yesterday that we are going to the party because they want to see us there. Only time will tell. My paretns actually thought I was joking when I tolf then I was going to a party-even my parents recognise that I'm an outcast. That's actually quite sad, but they can't wait to see my fallen angel 'costume'. And if you hadn't already guessed, no they don't know. As a kid I was always like 'I can fly' and they went along with it, but when you do it at 8 they get worried. So they pulled me aside and told me that I couldn't fly and that's when I guessed it wasn't normal. I could of told them then my life would be different but I chose not to.

Oh yeh, I've got a new alarm clock; it's black and white and called Shadow. Ok, this is how it works; you got to sleep, then at some random time in the morning [like 6:27 for example] the alaem clock will go right next to your ear and purr reli loudly to wake you up. Do you like it? Do you want one? I couldn't believe it when I woke up woth my cat next to me and at 6:27 in the morning. I've chosen my outfit for tonight already. It starts at 7:30 and ends whenever, then we're coming back here to sleep in the den. The den, by the way, is our loft conversion which I claimed for myslef and my friends. Luckily my parents took the initiative to sound proof the room; especially since I sing and play my guitar up there. It is the only place in the house where I can truely get away to write and stuff. It also helps that I can lock down the latch to stop people coming up when I want to be alone. I've gotta go now. Wish me luck for tonight!

Melody x

G&T

Woo it's Friday!! Ok, something is definately going in at this school. I know I wanted somethign to happen but it's like the whole schol has been brain washed. No one passed comments when we walked into school, instead a few people actually acknowledged our existance and told us they were looking forward to seeing us at the party. We didn't know what to say. Ami even got asked to go as someone's date to the party! [not that she shouldn't, she's pretty.] Naturally she turned him down saying she was going with us. My fallen angel costume is coming on very well! -_^ I can't wait to stretch my wings! And I mean that literally. I never knew that Hallowe'en could have such an affect on people! I mean come on, I haven't had any comments about 'the incident' yesterday. What has happened?

People in G&T actual seemed pleased to see us when we waled in; even though none of them have been invited tot he party. It's wierd! Even the teacher acted as if nothing happened-even though she is wearing dark clothes today. =S I'm just waiting for the whole school to jump out yelling: 'Surprise we hate you reli!' or something like that; but nothing's happened. We are just sitting here rather confused and chatting idley. This has got to be a joke. Hang on a minute...Yes! Me and the others have just got out of the rest of our lessons. How? you may ask dear journal. Out principle has just hand picked Ami, Kai, Onyx, Tala, me and Nath to paint Hallowe'en posters for the school for ther est of the day. Do you think being a creature of the night gives me some sort of luck at Hallowe'en? I don't know, but it's possible. Anyways gotta go get messy with paint. =D Yay!!!!

Melody x

DEN

Oh my God! My luck has changed! My parents have brought me a cat for getting into G&T. Ok, so I got home and no one was there, but I didn't mind it so much as my parents are often out when I get back from school. After being at the cafe with the guys for a while I was feeling a bit more optimistic after 'the incident', but not much. So, I got in and dragged myself and my bag up the stairs and into my bedroom; where I found an envelope on my bed. I was a bit confused, so I opened it to find a piece of card with a riddle typed on it leading me to a place in the house. So I went to this place and found another envelope. This went on for about half an hour before I finally reached the lounge. My parents jumped up from behind the couch smiling, congratulating me on getting into G&T. Anyway they gave me a final clue which led me back to my bedroom; but this time, there was a box on the bed. I took off the lid to find a cat inside. Yes! They've brought me a cat for getting into gifted and talented! I was shocked!! My parents just appeared at my doorway with smiles on their faces. I have a cat!!!!! I can't believe it!

He's a rescue cat that was abandoned. How could someone do that?! He is so cute with his big eyes and his black and white patched fur-he is tooo sweet! I've decided to name him Shadow. It reli suits him! So now I have a cat =D just for getting into G&T. Imagine what I'll get when I get into uni; a car? ~wink wink nudge nudge~ Maybe my luck is changing; then again it could just be a one off. Can a person actually out grow bac luck? Is that possible? If it is maybe I'm out growing my bad luck streak.

Anyways, tonight and and all my friends received a shock when we got IM invitations to a popular girls hallowe'en party [she thought we'd fit in well]. We think there's a catch or she's been dared, but we can't be sure. To be truthful I'm quite excited! I mean all I have to do is put on one of my hoodies, let my wings down and do my make-up. I can go as me; the real me! Wow that is scary going as myself, I hope I can pull it off. This has got to be interesting, there has to be a catch. I have no idea anymore. Anyways it's on Saturday, so I'll tell you allllll about it!

Melody x

LUNCHTIME

As you may have noticed I'm not the luckiest person in the world, in fact I seem to attract bad luck! Some people would say it's because of who I am as that is a curse-but to be honest, I can't imagine life not being a fallen angel. It's what makes me, me and I love it. I mean, imagine if I wasn't a fallen angel, I could have ended up as a prep, [[AUTHOR'S NOTE: no offence to those who are preps]] but I just wouldn't be me and back luck is apparentely part of me. The only problem I face is the world not knowing the real me, not even my friends know. They've probably guessed that I'm a bit wierd but anyone can be wierd. I;ve wanted to tell them for so long but it's like how? I can't exactely say: 'Oh by the way I'm a fallen angel' ok I could but they'd think I'd gone mad. It's, just trying to find the right way to tell them; and now to top of my unability to tell my best friends my deepest secret, I'm stuck with having to go to gifted and talented. Things can surely only get better!

Wrong! We were all nervous about G&T but I just knew that my bad luck would kick in causing me to look stupid of like a totla clutz. We all walked into the classroom to find some of the schools smartest and most outcast students sitting there chatting. We took our seats and waited for the teacher to come, which felt like forever. All the other students were whispering about out arrival in an oh so not obvious way. Their descression was painfully non-existant! The teacher finally turned up, but only to declare that we were doing individual studies before leaving again. And thatwas it?! I was reli surprised! I expected G&T to put pressure on us but we hardly do anything. The worse was still to come.

 

So, I'd taken out my notebook and started doodling when I had to go to the bin to sharpen my pencil. Well, when I was up there the teacher came back into the classroom, but I hadn't noticed. She'd forgotten to tell me something do came up behind me but, I hadn't heard her. Yes, you've guessed it, I turned around and collided with her-in turn causing her full mug of coffee to go down her cream jumper. I gasped, she squeeled and the class fell about laughing. I knew that I would do something bad or stupid, and in this case I did both. Kai, Nath, Ami, Onyx and Tala were just sitting there open-mouthed in shock. I went bright red in embarrasment! When I went to to apologise she just put up a hand to silence me and left. It was a disaster! I just wish I could have flown away rather than had to go back to my seat and suffered the rest of the lesson.By the beginning of lunchtime the whole school had heard about 'the incident'-just what I needed. ¬.¬ It had to be me didn't it? It wouldn't happen to anyone else! Maybe being a creature of the night is a curse.

Melody x

DETENTION

I can't believe it! He gave me detention, my algebra teacher gave me detention, for writing!! Ok, he gave Nath detention as well bu thats not the point. But that wasn't the biggest part! After Me Roberts finished giving us detention we were unwilling forced to listen; before an unexpected guest appeared in the doorway. The whole class robotically turned to see who it was. The Principle. We all wondered why he was there, he never came round to our classes; it's mean he'd have to care. However the shock wasn;t just that he;d turned up, it was that he pulled me and Nath out of class. Confussed we gathered out stuff, to the sound of comments made by our 'classmates',and left with him-only to find Onyx, Kai, Tala and Ami in his office as well. I was so anxious!!! Did someone know? Had my secret got out? Was I about to be exposed?

This is how the conversation went:

Principle: Don't worry you're not in trouble.
Us: *sigh of relief*
Principle: I need to talk to you about your placing on the 10th grade status quo ranking.
Kai: Yeh, we;re outcasts, that's no secret sir.
Principle: Well, some teachers have commented on the issue.
Ami: And its taken them 4 grades to notice?
Principle:Well you are a very individual group, why don't you just try being a             bit..erm..more..normal?
Us: NORMAL?!
Me: We don't do normal!
Onyx: You're always telling us to be our own people.
Tala: And that's what we are-our own people. There's no one like us!
Principle: I understand that but maybe you should try to fit in more.
Nath: But then we'd be giving into peer pressure.
[I was tempted to say: I'm a fallen angel and your asking me to be normal and fit in? but I did't]
Principle: *sighs* Can you try?
Us: Yes sir.
Principle: Thank you. Oh I also called you here to tell you that you have all been signed up for gifted and talented because of your ability and uniqueness. Please see my secretary for details.

And that was it. He let us leave. Can you believe that? We get told to join in then get sepearted from everyone to go to gifted and talented. Tell me if that makes sense to you coz I do not get it!! Well I've got another hour of detention to suffer! Gifted and Talented tomorrow . =S

Melody x


NB: Note to reader! This journal was meant so it's originally written in a book before being posted online.

Here I am again. The hidden fallen angel disguised as a mortal in the human world. I'm sitting here in my algebra lesson bored out of my brains. I know all of this stuff and can do it with my eyes closed-well not literally. I mean, come on, how complicated is it to work out? A monkey could do it-ok a very smart monkey but that is not the point. I;m sitting in anticipation of when my algebra teacher will actually notice I'm not paying attention to anything he is saying. To be honest I'm just bored!!! I'd rather be out flying or at the cafe, then be stuck in this stupid lesson. The teacher is blind I swear! He just looked over at me and still didn't notice. Next time I think I'll bring a blow horn to show I'm not doing my work-not that he'd notice.

Nath's now looking over at my journal and I'm writing this message so I can tell you to BUZZ OFF THIS IS PRIVATE!!!!!! Mx
So I'm your best friend I can look and that was very rude! Nx
I don't care Nath. You may read something you'd wish you hadn't. Mx
Like what? Anyway shouldn't you be doing our work? Nx
No I can't be asked and I know this junk. Now get out of my journal!! Mx
Fine. =p Ner! Bye Melody's journal!!! Nx

That was close! If her ever found out I'd be dead. Wait the teacher's clooking my way and...so is half the class. Uh-oh. Bye!
Melody x

Once school was finished [much to my joy] we all met up at the front gates, like we do everyday. This was when I felt so glad to have friends, we could muck around all the way to the cafe and noone would call us wierd or freaks. The cafe was unusually quiet today but we didn't reli mind. You see the cafe isn't a normal cafe, it's on that is dedicated to creatures of the night. Not literally, more as in what they thought they were like and things like that. All of the decor is dark colours but we all felt at home thee. The owner always personally serves us as we've been going there for over 4 years. He always asks us the same question tho. "Have you seen any creature's of the night?" If only he knew. This journal reli is a relief for me! I mean all day everyday I keep hidden from who I truely am but here I can be me. Melody, the [hidden] Fallen Angel with brown wings that mainly absorb into my back-which is a lot less painful then it sounds. But there is the problem of multing. Brown feathers have sort of become my trademark when they fall out from the exposed part of my wings. Tonight was awesome! I went out flying because everyone else in the house was asleep early enabling me to sneak out. The feeling of air under my wings was one that I can't describe. I feel so free when I'm flying, its as if all my troubles get blown away with the wind. I flew over all of America tonight just to give my wings a stretch. The worst part was having to come hone because even though I;m a creature of the night I still need sleep, otherwise I'd be flying tilL dawn. But no later! Dawn is the one time that us creaturs of the night fear the most-its when the creatures of the light have the most power over the dark so we are in a lot of danger. We try to be hidden by then but tere are those who don't make it. I better go get some sleep before more torture tomorrow. Oh the joys! Melody x

Being a fallen angel was neve going to be easy but high school just makes it that much worse. Oh by the way my name is Melody, I'm 15 and I go to South Ridge High. Even though life is difficult I have my best friends to help me through: Ami, Onyx, Nath, Kai and Tala. Let the journal begin!!! Walking into school after a week off is always tortur. We all have to make sure we lookok before entering. I try not to stand out so I can attemt to disappear and become invisible. However, there is one problem-I'm the class outcast, along with my other friends of course. As soon as I walk through the doors everyone stares because our main corridor i like a catwalk for everyone. I kept my head down and made my way over to my friends. Another day in hiding was all I could thnk about all day. I just wish that I could just break out and be the creature of the night I truely am! Registration was the same as always. Sitting in the corner with my friends around me ignoring the snardy comments like 'any idea when she's going back toher planet?' If only they knew that it's not a planet it's a realm. I was tempted to tell them this but then thought better of it. I wanted a way out. To be truthful nothing amazing happened at school- nothing ever does. Unless you count the jocks and the cheerleaders hooking up as amazing which, trust me, it isn't. Why can't my school get invaded or sonething? Anything to break the repetition of everyday. I had a wierd feeling about this term. Somehow it was going to be different; something was going to change. If only I knew the true extent of what was to come!

Ok, my journal isn't going to be like a normal journals. Instead of using it as a way of writing how I feel and what's happened, I am going to write it as if I was a fallen angel on Earth and how her life is. I'll post whenever I can and will try to make t as authentic as possible. I'm open to people commenting or messaging me in order to tell me their opinions as long as it isn't hate mail. My first post will be up soon, oh, and just so you know it's set in America, she's 15 and her name is yet to be decided.