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November 11, 2006

*Crys*

I cant take it any more my mom abues me and my dad yelles at me!I cut ok i havent tould anyone not even my best friend!When my mom get angery she yelles and slaps me shell be like i had a bad day slap!She blows up over the littles things!Im afriad of her she think that the only way to have a disped child is to sacery and hurt them !When i was 6yrs old  my mom got angry and grabed me by my hair*witch was very long at the time and still is*and DRAGED me down the hall.When i fout back she hit me she never leves brues,but if i do something wrong she slaps me when i was in the car once she hit me so hard my head hit the winds shiled.My brother was raied that way to hes 25 and i got angery and yelled at him and he about puched me he got in trouble by my mom but it doesnt matter if she hit me!My dad since the divors is like as heartless human.ill say that i love him and try to hug him and eather get yelled at or he just puses me away.I dont know why.Why wont he why why why????????///I have know friends in the real word and have never had a single boyfriend even know im 11.I am emosely ness i show angery and happyness  never sadness or do i cry my friend once said "Only the weak cry"He told me that and i made a vow to him that know matter what happed if he died or not that i ould never cry in front of him.then he said that only girly girly girls wore skirts so i mand hium a noter promes that i wouldnt wear a skirt till i was in 6th grade.we were in the 4th grade then.Im very sub coness  when i first joined quizlla i had a friend *i forget her name!*she was my firstr frend s on here the when i told her i was ten she never taked to me again.I awales where a jacket beacuse i think im fat.Im in the very giffed range range in reading im in 9th grade reading but in spale ed for math.ill write more later.Sorry by.

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