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Motto? There is no motto to describe me. I take that back. This motto describes me. <3
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Just a Touch Overrated : chapter 1 |
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Perfect in Weakness - final chapter |
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Perfect in Weakness - chapter 9 |
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Perfect in Weakness - chapter 8 |
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Perfect in Weakness - chapter 7 |
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Latest Journal Entry
June 27, 2007
Hot Knife
Drama is a bitch.Life is not a piece of cake.
I hate being the finger pointed.
I hate your stupid words.
"give it your all or don't do it."
Sometimes i consider myself out of funk with this family.
You and her get along so well without me. So why bother tutoring me the rights of life when I can do better by myself?
You claim I'm immature; so what's new, you know me better than I know myself?
Bite me. I'm contagious.
Your malice spreads when it's me, the targeted one. You don't like me because I'm the reason why he's not here, sane in the head. You don't like me because it was me that you had to get pregnant with. Your precious oldest daughter.
And when the malice can't seep in any further, she taunts me. Blames me. For making you mad and pissing her off for doing nothing wrong.
I can leave this happy family behind to make it a real happy family. To make it a beautiful, mother-daughter-son-father portrait of a picture. All smiling, no worries. The skeletons hide behind those smiles though.
Your compassion can heal many, but it can bite my head off in many ways more than one. Your words aren't comfort. They're nagging me for everything that I'm not.
Try as hard as I can, I will never be all that you want. I'm a dead failure in your eyes.There will be some set back, there will be some fight in the way to hate me all the more.
I'm surprised I can hold down this heavy weighted tongue. But if I have enough strength, I can lift it up and say all the right words you need to hear from your filthy spoiled, sensitive daughter. The words that make every mother feel like a failure in their job. The words that can rot underneath the blade of a hot knife and still be as sharp as ever.
