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July 10, 2008

I need to say it...And some advice...

So..I shall start from the beginning ok?
I hang around in this HP forum alot and I met lots of cool people there. My best friend ever, who is more of a sister for me, has actually MET them. In person. So i started meeting some of the girls too, went to a forum meeting, met a few guys as well..
So there's the idea of a talents site that we're gonna make. And this guy offers to make it, and me and a friend, who's also his friend, will be admins. Which is like cool and everything. So she gives him my skype name /it's a msn program popular in my county/. We chat once and that's it.
So on my birthday I got really upset /about being 16 and growing up and some shit like that/. And I wrote some of my concerns in my mood box. So he writes to me, we joke around a bit. And we started chatting everyday, exchanging pics and stuff...you know.
He's 18, but the real rpoblem is he lives in another town.
Here comes the bad part. He promised he'll come in my city so we can meet and I am really nervous. I will be bringing a friend at all costs. I'm still not crazy enough to meet someone from the net all alone.
Actually..that's not the real real problem. He said he likes me, I'm growing to like him more and more...But i'm not really sure if I am up for a relationship from distance...
A friend of mine just said it sucks. And she's talking from personal expirience...
I mean...sure I like him...But actually meeting up with him? And 'boom' goes my confidence from all of this being not-real...gotta hate virtual reality, right?
And there's this part of my brain screaming "Are you out of your mind?! You met him on the Internet for God's sake!!!"
And...and...Once again saying the distance thing is scaring the hell out of me. I'm not... not in the mood for this kind of stress really.
And one more thing. yes, another problem.
My mom's keeping me on a very, very, VERY short leash. If I am to agree to meet him, I can't just say "I'm going out, see you when I'm home!"
Oooh no. She'll ask who I am going out with, where we're going, when am I going to be home...and to be honest I don't want to lie to her. But she'll get a heart-attack if I tell her "oh, just this 18-year-old guy I met in a forum."
I could tell my older sister. She's 28 and she met her previous boyfriend in the net...But I am sure that she will voice my concerns about meeting with strangers and stuff...

I need some opinions really...So that I can see the situation throught someone else's eyes...

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