divorah's Journal

Something going around in emails: Hi, all you animal lovers. This is pretty simple.. Please tell ten (or more) friends to tell ten today! The Animal Rescue Site is having trouble getting enough people to click on it daily to meet their quota of getting free food donated every day to abused and neglected animals. It takes less than a minute to go to their site and click on "feed an animal in need" for free. It's in a purple box in the middle of the page. This doesn't cost you a thing. Their corporate sponsors/advertisers use the number of daily visits to donate food to abandoned/neglected animals in exchange for advertising. Here's the web site! Pass it along to people you know. www.theanimalrescuesite.com

So my friend told me about this article. Go here and read it and then tell me what you think

http://www.iraq-war.ru/article/146928

at first it's a little boring but then it gets interesting.

Did you hear? JK Rowling is thinking of coming out with an eigth Harry Potter book and all the proceeds to be donated to charity. It is said that the book would be more an encyclopedia than anything, telling ideas that she wanted to use in her books that she never did. I just hope she does it! I love Harry Potter and am so sad that the series is over.

Ok so I'm sorta, really pissed. Today I had to wake up really early (7:30 instead of my usual noon) to go and babysit two girls.

One is two and the other is three and neither of them are pottytrained. My morning consisted of:

-Watching enough childrens TV to get hooked
-Reading enough childrens books, over and over again to memorize them
-Pushing the girls on their swings till my arms ached
-Having to sit and watch them pee on the toilet while they screamed "I can go pee pee all by myself!" while lunch was cooking
-The two year old crying at least 5 times and the three year old crying at least 3
Having to kiss a slimey hand cause one of the girls got a booboo on her finger and immediatly put it in her mouth then asked for a kiss
-Having to deal with the younger one who HATES sharing

And the best

The younger one hit her head on the side of the swingset. When I went to go kiss the bump it ends up she was bleeding. Bleeding from the head, not good. I FREAKED!!! It was all ok though.

And the point of this. Guess how much I made after I was there for 6 hours?



$25 FUCKING DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SHOULDA MADE $1000000000000000 DOLLARS AFTER TODAY!!! Ugh, so tired. Must sleep

And FYI, I usually like children.

Here's the story. My BF and I started going out long ago. About 2 weeks ago i tried to break up with him. He talked me out of it. I gave him another chance. Last night I had a dream bout my ex bf and he was treating me amazingly. I texted my bf this morning saying that we were through. He got all pissed and tried calling a billion times. He started calling me all sorts of names and such. Then we started texting. Some things have been deleted for ur eyes cause of all this. rosegurl is me and bartred is him. its not the full sn, fyi. Bartred (6:02:57 PM): you have lost all respect from me my freinds and my family Bartred (6:03:12 PM): were not cool were not anything rosegurl (6:10:53 PM): thats wut iv been trying to tell u rosegurl (6:10:55 PM): we r dun rosegurl (6:11:00 PM): i am at least rosegurl (6:11:16 PM): and obviously u dont get it rosegurl (6:11:20 PM): when i say dun rosegurl (6:11:25 PM): i mean stop calling rosegurl (6:11:29 PM): and trying to to call me stuff Bartred (6:12:36 PM): see you do it so abruptly i dont really give a shit bout us not being togehter im prwactically already with sum1 else Bartred (6:12:41 PM): THE THING I DONT GET IS Bartred (6:12:51 PM): HOW U JUST SNED ME A TEXT Bartred (6:12:53 PM): RANDOMLY (delted bad words here) rosegur (6:12:36 PM): i met sumone Bartred (6:13:31 PM): thats gr8 4 u use me as ur S.O.B story Bartred (6:13:43 PM): reel him in with that rosegurl (6:13:27 PM): its not a him rosegurl (6:13:44 PM): shows how much u no about me Bartred (6:14:34 PM): oooooo Bartred (6:14:42 PM): did not c that 1 coming Bartred (6:14:46 PM): wow Bartred (6:14:51 PM): im sorry Bartred (6:15:08 PM): can u just answer 1 ? rosegurl (6:14:46 PM): fine rosegurl (6:14:48 PM): one question Bartred (6:15:19 PM): how long? Bartred10 (6:15:25 PM): have you known rosegurl (6:15:12 PM): known...? rosegurl(6:15:15 PM): the girl? Bartred (6:15:47 PM): about urself rosegurl (6:15:25 PM): recently rosegurl (6:15:36 PM): the first time i tried to break up with u seriously rosegurl (6:15:45 PM): i just couldnt rosegurl (6:15:51 PM): im not lezbo rosegurl (6:15:54 PM): im just bi Bartred(6:16:31 PM): k Bartred (6:16:43 PM): this has nothign to do with me though does it? Bartred (6:17:25 PM): well if u ever need helo with sumthin u can ask me Bartred (6:17:28 PM): *help rosegurl (6:17:08 PM): like wut? Bartred (6:17:43 PM): idk Bartred (6:17:47 PM): problems and stuff rosegurl (6:17:31 PM): problems and stuff? Bartred (6:18:10 PM): 4get it Bartred (6:18:12 PM): i gtg Yes u read right. I told him I met a girl. And it shut him up pretty fast. There were a lot of mean words but theyr gone now. wow. im so proud of myself. GO DIVORAH! Lmao!!!! Im not really bi, by the way. I'm sorry if i offended neone. I have nothing against homosexuals. I just couldnt deal with him anymore. IM FREEEEEEE! CALL ME GUYS!

At my school there is a dance called the Snowflake that is like the freshmen prom. It is a custom for freshmen to ask upperclassmen to the snowflake. Now, as many of you know, I have a boyfriend that lives a while away. He said he wouldn't take me to the Snowflake. Tonight he called and I asked if I could take my senior friend who doesn't have a date. He said no. I got sorta pissed cause hes not coming down and he wont let me get another date. If I go I'll be a third wheel. All of my friends have dates. HELP!!!!

yah, this weekend im with my really good friend from philly and we had the time of our lives, even if shes sick. haha, my mommys sick also. yes i still call her mommy DONT LAUGH AT ME U WEIRDOS!!!!! hehe. yah. i am weird. as jen just chuckled and pointed out (jens the friend from philly for the stupid peoples like me). okey dokeys, well im pretty pooped. we got totally wasted at this partay tonight (at least pretend we did) and now were like zonked out! ttyl blah blahs! ~Divorah Dines Mwah chicas

I know, you are all going, *Insert swear hear*, Divorah! When are you gonna update? The answer, I seriously dont know. I've been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo + one more o busy with school, robotics, girl scouts (dont laugh, i like it), my therapist, my mother, my sick rabbit, home work, and on top of that, my laptop is broken as well as my sisters computer so unless i use my moms (which im not allowed to and if i get caught i get hell) i cant really update. im writing this from skool if ur wondering. i will hopefully update today so you can have it but i wouldnt count on it. im soooooooooooooooo sorry. i no, it doesnt help and ur all like, we dont want to hear you say sorry, we want the next chapter! but its the best i can give u. Thank u for reading this and i hope you guys dont come at me with pitchforks. Love, Divorah Dines

Ok, so here's how it goes. A while back, big time, i was like 12 or sumthing, i watched Underworld the movie. U no, the R rated vampire and werewolve movie. Well, i loved it. No nightmares too, which is a big thing. But i watched it without my parents permission. So then Underworld Evolution came out and I'm all like, I SO WANT TO SEE THAT BIIIIIIIIIIIIIG TIME! Of course, my parents wont let me watch it. My dad says im too young (even if he watched sun city with me *i tricked him in that one*) and my mom lets me watch r rated movies if shes seen them and oked them. my mom watching underworld, not gonna happen. so today my dad said i could watch underworld evolution if he watched it with me and now im soooo excited. dads on his way. gtg!

Ok, I know. You'r eprobably all like WE DONT WANNA HEAR ABOUT UR STUPID LOVE LIFE! WE JUST WANNA READ UR STORIES!!! I'm sorry but my love life needs help again. My boyfriend lives far away from me, like an hour and cause of that we never get to see each other. every time i call or im he always tells me hell call me back or just doesnt answer/reply. my friends think he's in another relationship but i dunno. he doesnt seem liek the person to cheat but then again iv never met his friends or know what his life is like where he lives. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!

I kinda need some help. I have this boyfriend and hes super nice and hes super cute and all that jazz. The other night he came to my place and we started watching a movie. Then we started making out and feel each other up. This is my first "make out session" and I feel like a slut or something cause he was feeling me up. Am I? I'm not planning on having sex or anything but this really my first real boyfriend. Should I wait until we get closer? We've only been official for like 5 days. WHAT DO I DO!?!?!?

I'm sooooo happy! As a lot of you know I've been away at sleep away camp for the past four weeks. If you've read my other journal posts you'll read about me being sad cause i've never had a boyfriend. Well, that's no longer true. At camp I had not one but two boys who were, you could say, infatuated with me. Ahhhhhhh i feel so loved. ~Div

Here's the story. A few months ago a guy asked me out. I said yes and we tried to work something out. After THREE MONTHS of not going on a date I finally asked if it was ever gonna happen and he said no. The other day the same guy asked me out and apologized for what happened when he said we weren't going out. I forgave him and he said he would call me on Monday and we'd go out. I waited all day for his call but he never called! Now I feel really bad about myself cause I've never been on a date, had a kiss or had a boyfriend. Is there something wrong with me? Am I so ugly people think they can't go out with me? Gtg. Gotta clean.

I want to like sob right now. My dad, stepmom, sister and I were supposed to be on an 8:30 am flight to Miami and then get on a cruise boat from there so we could go on vacation. At around 3 yesterday I told my stepmom the whiters of her eyes looked yellow. She and my dad spent 7 hours at the hospital and she has to stay a few days. You know what that means, right? NO FRIGGEN CRUISE!!!! I want to cry right now. I was sooooo looking forward to this. On top of that my family probably gonna lose $10,000 cause of this. I WANT TO GOTO THE CARRIBBEANS!!!!!!

OMG!!!! I so didn't mean to do that. I officially hate my bus. I was talking to this guy on my bus and I decided to tell him a story about how my sister got a razor for her birthday and her friend thought it was a vibrator and now my whole bus is going crazy about it. they keep on going, "Hey ________, do you know what a vibrator is?" I keep on laughing but I'm really embarassed. Especially since the guy I like is on my bus and he heard so now I feel like hiding my face in shame. On top of that I found out that guy I like, hes dating this girl who I would rip her head out if I didn't get detention cause of it. Wahh! I feel like crying cause now I can't goto the dance with him. Food time. ttyl.

OMG! I'm sooooo sad. Things have been going HORRIBLE for me these days. One, my parents found out a REALLY big secret of mine. Pretty much I have now been diagnosed with anxiety, depression and am suicidal (wtf?). So now my mom won't give me a friggin second to myself. My dad is thinking about putting a friggin child lock on my computer!!! Child lock=no quizilla. Quizilla gets filtered out by child locks. On top of that there have been a lot of things going on away from home (ex. I'm supposed to go far away to Washington with school this year) and it sounds like it's gonna get canceled. As in my parents wont let me go!!!!!!!!!! Today my mom made me stay with my grandma for almost 6 hours so I wasn't home alone. I feel like crying every second of the day because of what's going on. I feel sad and upset and I just wish this could all end. I'v cried every day and have to go see my school psychitrist (who is a loony!!). I'm trying so hard to be the optimist I usually am but someone can only see the glass half full for so long. After a while I'm gonna start seeing it half empty. If I lose quizilla I think I'm gonna lose everything. I love this website more than I love tv (which is saying ALOT!). Here I can write stories and get feedback and just feel great when people message me saying how much they love my stories. It makes me believe I could end up going somewhere with these stories. I really want to be a writer and it makes me feel confident when people encourage me and when I read peoples stories who are my age. I'm know my stories will be coming out later and later. You are just going have to bare with me. Even if quizilla is going to be blacked out I will continue writing and every chance I get I will be posting my story. Please, have faith and bare with me. This is a really REALLY hard time in my life. I literally feel like crying right now. I don't have a second alone and I feel trapped and closed. I will do my best and try, I promise. I know this isn't the continuation of my stories but I am going to post a one-shot that I wrote the other night. It's not the best ever and it's not something everybody would like to read but it is something you can read. So I leave you with this message. What ever you do, find safe ways to express your anger, depression, anxiety, or feelings. Talk to a friend or adult or something cause I'm tellin you, do something stupid and it will follow you for YEARS!!!!!! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ~Divorah